October 19: Bounce Back Big, day 24 – broaden my scope

Hello October,

Friday is here, and I am back 🙂

I continue my Bounce Back Big journal, although I missed writing for a week;

What on … have I been doing?

I have advanced in my projects, so there is something collaborative that I put together, I found help to polish my CV and I might have resolved some of my practical issues.

Still, some ideas are on the basis of a potential, and I probably need to decide myself what is the absolute priority:

The priority, is to continue developing my creative project.

I need the help of other talented people for this.

But I also need the right environment, with the culture that promotes this type of activities.

Is it London?

I need to broaden my scope in the world, if I don’t want to repeat what happened to me in Paris. I was trying so desperately to fit in, desperately because my working culture is different, and I knew I didn’t really want to give up my creativity for this.

So?

I need to keep my eyes open

Starting from an action today.

What is up in other continents for example?

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October 8 and 9- Bounce big days 21 and 22- Life as a hop on hop off bus

Hello October,

I am looking at my posts since I decided to Bounce Back, and I need to congratulate myself for doing a very good job.

I have come back to London, overcome, or almost a feeling of sadness due to family issues back to France, financial and others.

At the same time, I catch myself here and there, feeling a bit down, tired or overwhelmed. So I need to boost myself a bit more.

Eat well. – More fruit and better breakfast in the morning

Ask for help on practical questions that get on the way.

What if we use the metaphor of a hop on hop off bus for our lives? Let’s say that the bus is our inner self, and maybe the people we are connected with: some hop on and hop off during our life time.

There are beautiful things to visit, we can hop off ourselves and then hop on again with more energy and dreams.

What happens if we have an unpleasant or difficult experience somewhere? A waiter is insulting, we don’t like what we experience? We can hop on again and take the time to digest the experience.

Something new is coming our way.

Because actually, we are on the move.

Constantly.

The earth is moving and we move with it!

So whatever is bad, will pass.

Some good things pass also.

But others will take their place.

And yes, we can even take a nap on the bus!

October 5-7 2018- Bounce Back Big day 18 to 20: What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!

Hello October,

so, I decided to do what I would do if I had resolvedall the issues troubling me, meaning, go out with friends and go to the cinema. It has been a while I haven’t really been in an actual public cinema with a group of friends; I don’t consider watching films from my tablet to be equivalent. It doesn’t have any contact with real human beings.

Apart from that, looking at my CV, has given me mixed feelings: parts where I have suffered from setbacks, that I have tried not to show.

And yet, especially when it comes to issues like harassment, not talking is like being ashamed of something on behalf of the person who has harmed you.

That doesn’t make sense.

It’s not good either to spent all the time consumated in hate or revenge thoughts.

Time is valuable.

SO?

I think that my CV, like anybody’s CV should include lessons learnt.

And to be proud of who we have become in the process.

October 3 and 4 2018- Bounce Back Big, day 16 and 17- Act in faith and allow things to happen

Hello October dear,

no, champaign and proseco is not the best way to relax and get up full of energy! I was invited by my flatmate who holds much better her liquor than me, and trust me, no.

So, I go back to my list of things:

I have contacted people I wasn’t in touch with, but still, I also need to follow their advice or suggestions.

I also know I need ot keep on at my work instead of making the looking for positions all I am doing.

How about having fun?

How about getting more energy?

Eating better?

It’s 10.20 and some fruit might be good instead of just latte.

And then? Then some granola probably.

And a lot of faith that things will get well, in the best possible way

Allowing to unfold, without judgement for myself and others:

By the way, I run into this blogpost, which is great:

http://www.betterself.sg/2017/10/allow-life-to-unfold/

Allowing

All you have to do is to allow things to unfold. Here are 10 ways to let life start unfolding:

  1. Do the thing you always wanted to do
  2. Say what you always wanted to say
  3. Feel emotions you never let yourself feel
  4. Allow space for discovery and uncertainty in your life
  5. When you feel a desire, follow it all the way through
  6. Do one thing in the direction of your dreams
  7. Express yourself creatively
  8. Be vulnerable
  9. Take a risk
  10. Do something you’ve never done

October 1st and 2nd, 2018- Bounce Back Big days 14 and 15-

Welcome October,

I am in the middle of this, and I still feel in the twilight zone, having tried different approaches and breathing in and out every time I get stressed up.

So, what to do?

I have tried connecting, and I have got advice going into different directions, which requires some changes. And these changes seem to require time.

I have been here before.

A friend of mine noticed I have been stressing up now and then.

He is right.

I somehow found myself here and there in some type of critical situation.

Am I doing it to avoid facing other issues?

Maybe.

Am I the only one in this situation?

Hell, no.

This has something to do with where we stand.

Is there a way forward?

Apparently, in the direction opposing the direction of whatever the problem is.

In this direction are the things I enjoy: writing and creating.

I also have projects.

I have talents.

I am a brilliant person.

I have nice eyebrows.

So?

So, I deserve a feeling of security coming from my basic needs met.

And so it has happened in some way until now.

For most of them.

Something to be grateful about.

Yes, I am a rebel at heart.

I want things to go my way, which is the creative way.

Are there places encouraging it?

Should I create one myself?

I realize that I had some major setbacks in my path, but every time, there was something coming up which kept me on track.

That’s how I ended up in London, for better I hope.

should I stay or should I go?

Let’s have a cup of tea 😉

is tea good for you, benefits of green tea, benefits of black tea, benefits of matcha

September 23, 2018- Bounce Back Big day 6 and 7-Sunday blues and Monday Motivation

Hello September,

I applied for one or two positions, decided to camp at a café and write, but the blues were here to haunt me.

All these things, people who don’t like my behaviour, insecurity, instability and insanity: how to find some space away from it and have some fun?

Because if we don’t have fun, what on earth are we doing here?

The birds sing, the bees whatever, the … I need to find the song that explains it all very well.

In other words, first we need some fun and then, we can be responsible.

Or maybe I say so because I don’t have children to take to school and who would suffer malnutrition if I forget about feeding them.

A friend of mine told me today that those who can forget practicalities are the children. Anybody else, even the richest on this planet have to deal with them. So, if you grow up you get attacked by the practical side of life.

September 22, 2018- Bounce Back Big, day 5- Saturday morning coffee

Hello September,

so, continuing on my networking resolutions, I contact more people than usual, asking them for advice, ideas, insights; starting from those I think they can bring some light and continuing to practically everyone I know.

The thing is, to know how to make the difference between what is useful and what is not: I would say, start with the advice of those who seemed to be where I want to go; and then go everyone else, and finish with my gut feeling.

There is something I can do better, or if I do things so well, did I make that known to anyone? Am I waiting to be discovered hiding?

First, I need to wake up.

So, a cup of coffee is a must

https://www.inc.com/geoffrey-james/why-introverts-should-drink-more-coffee.html

 

September 19 and 20- Bounce Back Big day 2 and 3- remember to have Fun!

Hello September,

so, after a moment of morning stress, I breathe deep and look into the advice I got on what to do when stuck in a rut, or when in need of miracle solutions.

I started contacting people I know, and the first one has given me an idea I never thought about: apparently, I might address myself to the wrong people. He kind of lifted my spirits, saying that I have a strong profile. And he would be willing to act as a mentor.

After that, I went to a seminar, a sort of “how to” teach art students.

Very helpful.

How about today?

Well, I feel kind of overwhelmed with the things I am to do.

This is not helping.

So I am going to a seminar in the afternoon, and I take something else from my list of things to do:

“Go explore and have fun. Get those creative juices flowing. You will be surprised how motivating it is to just get out”.

I honestly don’t remember who said that, but I send virtual thanks and hugs.

It seems very appropriate.

So, no matter what the urgency, the emergency is to have fun.

Fun emergency, and deep breathing!

June 20, 2018- Love and how to stay cool

Hello June,

it seems that I have a boyfriend, he is wonderful, loving, and he came out of nowhere, almost. Is he for real? It is so recent, I still pinch myself. It is too early to say.

But that doesn’t stop me for walking with a BIG smile in my face, and even if someone is pushing me at the busy London streets, I am in a very good mood and thank them.

What is he finds out I have been a struggling artist?

Or it shows in any case?

Let’s concentrate on work and stay cool.

So?

Any progress there?

Well, kind of.

I am waiting a response from a galley owner who seemed

interested.

And then?

I am putting together a hell of an art portfolio.

And I have a month to do it.

Expecting a miraculous intervention.

Because everything is possible.

So, making things happen or letting them happen and sitting back in a relaxed way?

Something in between 🙂

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May 28, 2018- Visualisation

Hello May,

I have heard about visualisation, and to be honest, I might have tried it, but in a not very serious way. I decided to get myself into it, and even find a vision board. To be serious with that.

So, I am buying a vision board online and I am putting myself to it.

I will try anything I have read or heard of, to see how things go.

I also took an online.

A new book.

And the firm decision to wake up at 5.30 in the morning.

Anything else?

Like for example, ways to relax and have fun?

Date? Something almost forgotten in the long winter nights?

Breathing in and breathing out.

Take care of my chi.

Stop carrying all this weight around me.

What if I just arrived where I am now, without any other thought?

What if I saw everything around with fresh eyes?

Let’s try that.

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https://www.ivalua.com/blog/looking-procurements-assets-fresh-eyes/