July 21, 2016: Update and new goals in London’s high temperatures

Hello July,

I have been extremely busy and almost burned out, I have sweat in the London heat and now I can ask, even in the heat of the action: is what I am doing meaningful? Does it take me to the direction of my dreams?

Heat in London, and everything slows down or speeds up, it change…

So, if I compare with the last two summers is there a change? I am again organising an artistic exhibition and stressing up… I really love it but there is some pressure to get everyone and everything together.

I now realise that even when the situation seems the most important, as if it were going to be critical for my future, it is not in the way I think. Another one comes equaly critical. And after all, I am still in this field.

But enjoying the process, is so important!

And after all, what matters more is the bigger picture, the reason why I do all these…. and it has to do with creativity and creation!

 

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February 8, 9 and 10, 2016: days 11, 12 and 13 together-summing up the beginning of the week

Hello February,

the week started with a high-speed and I could hardly catch my breath. To begin with, it feels as if I just moved in to London. Going home to the South of France for two months interrupted all the “practical” procedures: like getting an internet connexion, opening a bank account, learning when to let your garbage out. Etc.

It is amazing how many little things compose our every day routine. In Paris, I didn’t have to think of it. Now, every little step takes a bigger proportion. And yes, I have been blacklisted by my telephone company.

On the other hand, a lot of wonderful things happened to make me smile. New friends, a bunch of people with whom I have coffee. Eh, I got to mingle with people who are very well-connected in the art world in London. Will I get myself a mentor honoring his/her role?

I found myself at a cocktail, and managed to say the right things at the right time.

Although there is something tiring in that because I admit having a lot of fun saying inappropriate things at the right time 😉

In any case, things are moving and I get the feeling I am at the right place.

To reveal April’s full potential.

July 3rd, 2015- Friendship and Confidence

Hello hot July,

I am at the same Parisian café where I used to go in February, for very different reasons:  it was warm when it was cold outside, it is fresh when the temperatures outside rise. Love and in general friendship acts in this way.

Like a balm, for the soul and even the body. How do we recognize people who are our harbor? How do we become a harbor for others, and also for ourself?

Confidence, is something important. It includes among other things, faith. We have faith when we open the door to someone else, or when we get in someone else’s home. Faith that this person is a safe place.

And when it isn’t? What if our expectations are not met, our love is not bestowed on someone who is loving us back or our trust is not honoured?

Then again, we are lucky to have learnt, felt, and made on our way to the next harbor. Because we also like adventure, and because the sun rises every morning even after the darkest night 🙂

In Istanbul, I met wonderful people, reunited with some old friends and love crush, I made new friends. My trust was tested, my intuition also.

Trust and love have won.

April 1rst 2015: 1rst blog Anniversary!

Hey April, welcome!

you know this is my first blog anniversary don’t you? A year ago, I decided to transform myself in order to find true love and a paid job that I love. The wannabe boss, a sort of aggressive figure in my world environment inspired me to put my thoughts down and watch how things go.

And now what?

Have I fulfilled all I was looking for a while ago? Have I transformed some of my wishes? Myself? Neither? All of them?

There is a form of transformation happening, taking different forms.

Has my everyday life changed?

Well, I still don’t have some sort of financial stability.

The wannabee boss kicked me out of the Platform of artistic events, and I didn’t succeed in my funding efforts or job applications during this period. I haven’t moved my stuff out yet, and I am looking for a new working place.

But, I might have a possibility to associate myself with new partners I have just met,  mmm I don’t know if I can trust them yet.

I am happy to have advanced with my work, and there is a publication project in France for something I have written a while ago, a small publishing house is interested in it.

The love of my life? I have flirted, kissed one or two people, daydreamed with B at the café. I have listened to the almost love confession of H, my ex, currently in the middle of another relationship. No, I am not interested.

There is also a four-year old little boy who has invited me to go on holidays “just the two of us”. I might need to wait fourteen years and see if his offer is still valid.

So, romantically speaking there is progress, but still scope for improvement.

Hmm, I am the love of my life for now, with the possibility to extend this love to another person, the rest of humanity, animal/physical and non physical entities, ….

As to blogging, it has been such a great experience!

So much fun and it gave me the possibility not only to express thoughts and feelings, to keep track of them, but particularly to interact with wonderful and creative co-bloggers!

Somehow, I don’t feel desperate if my X or Y application doesn’t work. In the past, I was really sad, thinking, am I not good enough for them? Should I give up? As if this was my unique chance.

Now I feel more confident. Somehow, I will make it. I can apply to x and y, learn where I want to go and not just throw applications for positions which don’t mean much to me. And feel that I have a bigger project and these small steps are intermediate goals, part of a larger picture, not the main purpose.

Happy Birthday April4June6, and thank you for this beautiful adventure!

February 16- Mid-February and 2015 goals :-)

Hello February,

Is it a bit hard on myself after all these chocolates, love talk and on top of that seasonal virus to watch this video? The author, Mastin Kipp says that if you watch it end of january and you have been lazy, it could be difficult. So imagine what happens in mid-February. For those who are not the first of the class.

The question is: how do we become the first of our class no matter what? How does reality change? Where is the balance between having objectives, goals and not biting oneself up if they come out a little bit differently than imagined?

Hmm, it is a little tricky, but I will give it a try.

What is the courageous thing I will do in 2015?

I need to get out of my bubble “sortir de ma bulle” from time to time, contact people. Show my work and dare to ask for their support.

Dare to put myself out there and take the risk to … grow and succeed 🙂

November 23- Weekend update :-)

Hello November,

thanks for this beautiful weekend in Paris, we didn’t have so mild autumn days the last years, so we were out and about the city: in cafés, parks, shopping centers, bookstores, or simply, in the streets.

I was having a friend visiting, someone I haven’t seen for three years; it was good to catch up, and somehow, this visit was very uplifting for me! And on Saturday night there was an even bigger gathering with other friends at a tiny restaurant, we were about a dozen, so great to be together!

Old and new friends together, is realizing where we came from and where we are now. It makes us reflect on where we want to be in the future.

Seeing old friends makes us go back to the time we were hanging around together, and get out of a time capsule. We realize what has happened in between: how we have changed and how we haven’t, what things have been accomplished and other not, …

A few years ago, I was having an idea about writing a novel, but hadn’t finished yet. I meant to organize artistic events, but the idea had not materialized yet. Right now, a novel is here and I am talking to publishing houses; there is also a translation that started. Considering the artistic event organization, I have made progress with initiatives that have met success, like the one in the one this summer, in the South of France.

The next step is to find partners and people who can complement me to achieve more and better 😉

Anyway, the bonus with positive friends old and new, is that we can focus on our accomplishments, even if they are small and decide to accelerate! This is what happened to me.

I wrote down a number of things I would like to see done and started … action

Having friends is like having mirrors, but at the same time, it can be a way to become perfect: our qualities together, make us a hell of a group!

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October 21b- Empowerment and goals

Dear October,

what is the next right move? You might ask. Feeling good and getting a sense of direction. Actually I do. There is an idea that has been like a seed planted in my mind, and it starts growing. I will need to find a team of enthusiastic artists to work on that.

I am going through a quote period, so here is one:

“When the personality comes to serve the energy of your soul, that is authentic empowerment”

Oprah Winfrey

Now, the way I understand this, if I am a Tiger – I was in a dream- I need to behave like one in order to feel good and serve my purpose in the bigger world I belong to : chase, sleep, etc. If I decide to become vegetarian it might not agree with me and the balance of my environment might be lost. It is like being a fish out of water.

For human beings, there is a bigger choice of paths and actions. Is there everything fixed once and for all before, or at the moment we are born? During our childhood? Later… I don’t know. There are different positions on that, and a lot of studies that have been conducted.

But once, for whatever reason, our personality emerges like the spine of our existence, we need to feel like a fish in the water; having a sense of purpose. That saves a lot of energy… and I will try to get to bed not long after midnight for this reason 😉

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October 6- Dedication

Dear October

do I keep my promises? Now, should I be honest about this? Ok. Sometimes yes and sometimes no, if we look at things from a limited time perspective. But yes, I keep them in the long run.

How about writing every day?

I am almost there, because I have a better rhythm compared to August, or even September. But I need to see it as pleasure in order to continue.

Wait a second, you might add, is there a reason for writing every day? Something particular to say?

It is to keep track of my thoughts; And share them also 🙂

How about the reason you started the blog? Self transformation and true love? 

You mean if I have made any progress? Yes, definitely, I have done some internal work: I understand true love starts with better quality love for myself and others, and self-transformation is constant.

Why are you not completely persuaded? If I have something more concrete?

Like what, like something I can touch or kiss or eat? Yes, I have positive transitory results; it is like trying the soup while it is boiling and being satisfied, but leave it there for a while, adding may be some salt or pepper, until it’s ready.

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July 15- Update of the first two weeks

Hello July,

here you are, already in the middle, and I need to give you an update of what I have been up to, in case you were not reading my posts thoroughly 😉

Some important things have already happened : for example, the big art exhibition, last week. And some others will take place in the second half: the artistic event in the South of France, close to my hometown. The event takes place on July 26 and I am to prepare everything from Paris because I will only get there on the night of the 24. I also had a setback, the small project I love that was rejected, but fortunately, my feelings were dissolved in the advice of wise friends and the rhythm of last week.

I am also to prepare for the second round of the application that was successful by the end of June.

What is the best way to approach all these tasks? In this very moment I prepare a soup in the kitchen, because the pasta I had earlier wasn’t enough. Or the olives, that accompanied the glass of wine that I had in the company of a friend.

I am sorry for not being respectful, it is that I need to let some steam off after the art exhibition last week. Even if it was a great experience, presenting myself to new people and having to deal with thousands of issues can be overwhelming.

The celebration of the downfall of the Bastille arrived on time for this!

I wish I could delegate!

But there are things that can only be done by myself, such as writing, and loving!

(some ideas in: http://freelancecrunch.com/5-valuable-strategies-to-help-freelancers-prioritize-tasks/)

Methods to prioritize freelance tasks

 

 

May 12- the “Odéon” theater in Paris

Hello dear May,

I just came back from Odéon, “Thêatre de l’Europe”, one of the 6 Parisian national theaters, where the director and some of the main artistic figures presented next year’s theatrical season. What I loved the most was the 88 year old Michel Piccoli who told us why he became an actor: as a young boy, he was chosen to perform for a school play. It was the first time the adults were stopping their continuous mumbling to pay attention to what he had to say. And he loved it.

Don’t we all need a stage to perform our play, choose the actors and attract the public’s attention? And if my blog is my stage, what do I have to say?

Am I capable to channel feelings, to touch those I like and love? Have my relationships become more profound? Do I know myself better? Have I taken more risks for true love?

I realize how important it is to me to channel feelings on a daily basis.

Have I become more confident in writing? Because you know, I had been discouraged by some people in my profession who criticized my writing style. And this kind of thing blocked me. It has taken away some of the pleasure. Some 🙂

In this respect I haven’t become more productive since I started bloging. Apart from my daily post, my daily chat with you, dear May.

No, I am not going to answer all these questions now. But I will reflect on them.

The difference is that writing a daily post has been a real source of pleasure!

Oh, and here is the theater lobby where we had a drink just after the event 🙂

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