dreaming is some times difficult when your work is not appreciated and you get bullied by a hierarchical superior.
As a new person in my job, since September, there were a lot of things to learn, and I was not perfect, especially with small details, admin stuff and other technical issues. Or my confidence was not at its highest point.
And here was that “colleague”, at a superior level hierarchically, making my life difficult from the very start. Looking for mistakes and exaggerating them, not forgiving anything which was not absolutely perfect.
Until she confronted me with insults two days ago.
I didn’t answer back, but felt sick the next day.
Because I felt trapped.
On the one hand, I needed this job, financially speaking.
On the other hand, I felt that the environment is toxic.
It’s not a question of being perfect, but there must be a margin to adapt and make mistakes if you want to learn and correct them.
So, how can I feel that there is an opening at the end of the tunnel?
Hmm, I need to consult possible mentors.
And create bridges with other people and with other jobs.
And most of all, believe there is a way out of it, towards a place where I will be appreciated for who I am and I will be happy to be part of the team!