February 7, 2020- How to feel when encountering a roadblock

Hello February,

I just felt down because I have almost encountered a roadblock. I was late to submit a funding application for a project and I might not afford to go there by myself.

On the one hand, I feel guilty for not having prevented it, on the other side there is a feeling of overwhelm with all the dates, and other things happening into my life.

How to be on top of that without constantly following a crazy and meaningless program?

Well, I will try use Siri in my iPhone more. When I see a deadline I should right away make a note on my calendar instead of thinking about it.

Hmm

And change my mood. Feeling bad about myself is not the way.

Yes, I self-sabotaged because I was waiting for someone else to say I could do it.

Or the perfect occasion.

Or, to ask people to stretch for me and get a feeling they care.

Or, all of it together.

Now, let’s assume that and continue.

I will definitely read again David Allen’s book which I put aside.

And change my mood.

Give a big hug to myself for doing so well.

Yes, I deserve this!

And YES I CAN!!!

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February 2, 2020- Let’s get lucky this month and “get things done”!

Wellcome February,

2nd day of the 2nd month of 2020, and all those 2s make me want to accelerate and get lucky!

I had coffee, I crossed paths with a charming neighbour and I worked seriously and unproductively during the day. Then, I bought “getting things done”, by David Allen, and decided to try his suggestions on productivity.

When my reals self wants to run wild in the woods, revolt against any type of obligation and challenge anyone who might try to oppress my creative energies.

Hmm, all that when I need to re-do some of the work I did last month because I didn’t exactly follow the criteria.

Well, I am reading it, so that I get things done and most of all I get dreams into reality

January 31st, 2020- Being a realistic dreamer

Hello and goodbye January!

I decided to work from home today, and I just hope my boss will also like this. My first priority this month has been to feel more energised by reducing the amounts of cake I had in New Year’s Eve day, week and first two weeks.

The second, I have been asked to repeat the work I did last year, for example evaluating student’s portfolios, because I found everything excellent and I need to become stricter.

Finally, to get more channels to direct my creativity.

Because, YES, I am a f… artist!

And I can’t do the same repetitive work. I am a rebel.

And a dreamer.

Can I become more organised, kind of “realistic dreamer”?

Let’s see.

Any ideas?

I am starting journaling daily again, to begin with today:

'Realistic dreamer' is not an oxymoron. - Vanna Bonta

January 9, 2020: Back to London!

Hello January,

I am full of resolutions and I got up early today, decided to be my best self possible;

By midday, I have advanced at the things I was to finish during holidays, but I feel a bit stressed up with practical issues I have started but didn’t finish due to all this cake.

How will I chase away any fog and feel and act with confidence?

Well, I decided to eat better to begin with. Try and see if super greens are as super as they are reputed for.

Now, when it comes to people harassing us for former mistakes or failing to live up to their expectations what to do?

Just do something and see if it works.

One step a day.

Baby steps

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Baby steps for future millionaires (part 1)

January 7, 2020- Getting a promotion in 2020

Hello January,

have you ever felt like you were getting a promotion? I don’t know if you can be more than the first month of the year, but imagine you could. What would it be like?

Well, in my case, after realising how expensive is a latte in Notting Hill, I decided it is about time to get a promotion. After all, I have been working already for three months.

Am I already mastering my new job? Not exactly, but I am working on it. What is more, I feel I have a lot more to give.

So, after having indulged myself in huge quantities of chocolate and pastries, and been lazy and sick with a flue, I made up my mind: 2020 is going to be a Promotion Year.

Let’s see: I am learning what I need to learn to get to the next level.

Is this credible? Or incredible?

Both, and of course I see myself there already.

For the time being, I prepare my suitcase.

I am coming back to London!

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January 1st, 2020- New Year, NEW ME

Welcome 2020,

Welcome my dear New Year! Here I am, having a glass of wine and feeling extremely hopeful and in a good mood. There is no particular reason for this. I am having a party by myself, after my parents got to sleep in my small French village, and I am listening to some music.

I spent much time being afraid in 2019, but despite everything, I am proud to have pulled it through in a decent way and to have reached a milestone compared to my previous life.

There is something that is appearing as a possibility to live from my whatever activity.

And also, I want to choose my friends as to real friends, because I don’t need “figurines” or replacements because I can stand by myself. Anyone who wants to stand by me could be because we are enjoying it and not because we are afraid.

Happy 2020,

Prosperous 2020

Beautiful 2020,

Happy New Year 2020 Wishes

December 27, 2019- Wrapping up certain things before the year comes to en end?

Hello December,

I have added a question mark because I don’t want to put pressure on my flu-suffering head. Yes, there are things to do. The kind of things I don’t like to face. The practical ones. The ones that if you don’t do you are not an adult and eventually, everyone will notice.

On the other hand, we do I avoid to look into the abysse? Because I am afraid I will not know what to do. And I will just stress.

I might feel bad about myself, not successful enough, not beautiful enough, not enough of something.

How about asking for help?

This is probably the best one. I need to ask for help and advice instead of pretending they don’t exist.

How about seeing myself as all there is to it?

There must be some technique to say, wait a minute, I am good and gorgeous enough, I am Worthy and my hair is just awesome today. It can be nice tomorrow also, but that doesn’t take away anything from their awesomeness today.

And I don’t need to post a picture to prove it.

Doing something special.

Giving oneself a medal?

What if some people disagree with this?

Let’s not ask them!

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December 23, 2019- Dream life and flu in my family home

Hello December,

two days before Christmas in my village in the South of France. Yes, it is charming. But when you arrive from London and you get a flu right away, plus the problems of my parents, it is a bit too much.

Or, maybe it happened with a different order. First I got stressed, and then I got the flu. And instead of doing all these necessary but also pleasurable things I was meant to, I am at home with the cat, watching the Hobbit 1, 2 and 3.

In any case, instead of moaning or becoming a female Ebenezer Scrooge from the homonymous story, I write about my feelings.

After working a lot, stressing and doubting my marvellousness at my new job, I thought that I could do some fun things before starting to work on my student’s art portfolios.

And finally, yes, finally, I realise that after Hobbit 1, 2 and 3, and the necessary things like bills and the like, there will be no time left.

TIME.

But maybe I just need to reevaluate pleasure. Why is it pleasurable only to live on a bike expedition and discover the hidden paths of the South of France as my neighbour does?

Is Hobbit not a work of art after all?

And my parents, and the cat less worthy company?

Some Christmas music, and I might prepare myself a Grog instead of drinking this horrid cough syrup.

After all, when is the best time to Dream than taking advantage of this flu time?

Martin Freeman in The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey (2012)

November 14, 2019- Your dream life starts HERE, DAY 1

Dear November,

I decided to re-transform myself right here, right now. All this because I got a present, and it has to do with dream life. NOW is the best time, so not a minute to lose.

Well, she has used paper and pencil.

I am using the computer.

For writing also.

I have begun a play.

And I felt a bit out of sync with someone who didn’t appreciate enough my presence and was moaning his ex girlfriend.

Why did I go out in the first place?

I got invited, ok.

But is this enough?

So, yes, NOW is the time.

November 13, 2019- Watching “Hamilton”, in London and rediscovering passion

Hello November,

and welcome back to passion! I just watched “Hamilton”, the musical, from the front row, and I was impressed with these characters’ passion, and the actors’ game.

These people were living and dying with purpose, which is something I need in my everyday life, or I need to rediscover. There are many great purposes out there, and purposes I believe in, so it’s time to say something.

All the rest, is for people who are not lovers.

In the first sense of the word.

I also found myself in a strange place.

Being invited by someone who didn’t know what exactly he wanted.

I know what I want.

And that, is a man with passion and conviction

A way to fall in love