January 13, 2021-Post-a-day, day 9 of 66-Procrastination, post-holiday syndrome and change

Hello January,

yes, I have been procrastinating all morning, despite loads of work I need to finish. Somehow, my brain refuses to focus. Could it be the extra amount of sugar in the post-holiday sugar hangover?

Most probably, yes.

So, what? Should we damp the rest of the last huge cake?

I have taken a step by step adaptation to every day life, but I realise I need extra measures. For example, for the next holiday, whenever this may be, I could plan something else than eating and Netflixing, with or without a lockdown.

Like becoming a TaiChi instructor, (I have practiced for a few years), or learn how to paint online and produce something, or go for walks and discover areas I didn’t know existed in my neighbourhood.

In any case, something that my body would help me for.

And my brain.

But it makes no sense crying over spilt milk, apparently.

So, what is done, is done.

So, before I get back to work, I will plan a future dream holiday.

And just after, I start doing something, like the outline of a chapter 🙂

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December 26-Making space for what is important: the permission to have fun no matter what!

Hello December,

Christmas is here, and I feel as if I need permission to do some things for myself. Like, to buy something I, kind of, like. It seemed as if my life’s mission was to make my parents happy and I didn’t succeed in that. I have started an artistic career with ups and downs and many times in the past, I have relied on them. When they needed my help, I wasn’t able to give all the help they needed without feeling overwhelmed. The lockdown brought me back in my hometown and my parents’ home and accentuated this feeling.

It is difficult to acknowledge that I am doing the best I can and despite of my success, I have the right to feel ok with it no matter what.

I have the right to be happy, in the NOW despite of anything. The right to be around people who are loving in a generous and balanced way and to be this kind of person; people who love in a way that allows the other to grow; people who support other people’s happiness without asking you to sacrifice for them; also those who know how to build healthy boundaries between themselves and other people’s expectations.

Something I definitely need to learn because my love life in the past involved someone I wanted to “save” and who ended up hurting me; I understood it doesn’t make sense to try to “help” others if they don’t want to change. And if I don’t change, I will be the accessory of this type of pathology.

TODAY it is ok to be happy for myself, for who I have been and who I am becoming!

I want to create my community of like-minded but diverse people.

I want to travel the world and bring happiness, connect people, work for the world Democracy, Peace and Beauty, Life in the planet!

December 20, 2020-Self Growth as the Goal-Making space for what is important, day 12

Hello December,

yes, Christmas is approaching and lockdown brings me back to my parents’ home as an adult, and it would have almost been my worst nightmare when I was an adolescent, if it hadn’t been worse two years ago. Because two years ago, I had all that, plus, I didn’t have a job.

And still, when I look to pictures two years back, I was smiling and found a way to be happy. And a few years back it felt even worse to fail something. I just decided to continue the effort no matter what.

My point is, despite having had some “wins” in my life, like a good degree, good notes, initiating an artistic network in Paris which brought together important figures, I couldn’t support myself and my relationships sucked.

I have faced situations like finding only a horrid job and being fired from it, or seeing years pass and nothing tangible coming up.

Until I didn’t have any more psychological resources. And then, somehow I got them back. My faith also.

SO, even when my material resources were over, and my old world was crumbling under my feet, I had psychological resources and FAITH, not to a particular goal, not to show anyone anything, not to shut up any critic, but to continue looking for a path, learning from other people and not afraid to be wrong if that meant I would keep on learning.

This got me into a job I could support myself with, but where I suffered from bullying and bad work environment. I kept looking and I got a much better one. And finally, had the possibility to resign from something I didn’t want.

So, this lockdown, apart from other things, is a good time to readjust goals and decide what makes my heart sing today, instead of reaching goals for anyone else.

And this happens when SELF GROWTH becomes the goal, independent of age, instead of reaching any specific goal. How can I keep learning and developing my full potential as a human being? How to balance relationships with decisions on our own personal path?

To be continued…

July 20, 2020- Day 9 out of 66 for habit change- dream of Japan

Hello July,

it feels like summer with the temperature rising slightly. How is it going for you? Enjoy yourself while here with us.

I am trying the same thing. Waking up early, taking a walk and had a latte and some almonds.

Hmm, I feel very excited, but there are some things which need to be done as marking for example, and my head is refusing to obey and concentrate.

I am not going to force.

I will start by following my wildest imagination. And write a couple of pages for my new book, an adventure, taking place in different parts of the world.

Especially now that our movements are restricted with the pandemic, taking a virtual trip and seeing all the details of it is somehow the best thing!

Next step, looking at pictures of beaches.

Right now I am in Japan, a place I have not visited yet, but my imaginary self is having sushi by the seaside right now 🙂

Guntu – a floating Hotel In Japan on the Seto Inland Sea

July 4, 2020-Inspiration from Hamilton musical

Hello July,

Freedom is so important, to be, to feel, to write, to breath, to become!

A tribute to Independence Day, and to Independence from anything that holds us back, to become our fully developed selves, in respect for others who also are in their development path.

After slowing down for the second part of June, I realise it is important to be and feel authentic, going in the direction that inspires us and respecting who we are.

What kind of new habit to start in July?

Journaling everyday, and going back to fiction writing.

Reading literature,

Writing Poetry

Finding time and making space to be, feel and look our best!

Smiling to ourselves in the mirror every day,

We did it!

Some inspiration from the musical “Hamilton” :

https://theconversation.com/hamilton-the-diverse-musical-with-representation-problems-141473

January 1st, 2020- New Year, NEW ME

Welcome 2020,

Welcome my dear New Year! Here I am, having a glass of wine and feeling extremely hopeful and in a good mood. There is no particular reason for this. I am having a party by myself, after my parents got to sleep in my small French village, and I am listening to some music.

I spent much time being afraid in 2019, but despite everything, I am proud to have pulled it through in a decent way and to have reached a milestone compared to my previous life.

There is something that is appearing as a possibility to live from my whatever activity.

And also, I want to choose my friends as to real friends, because I don’t need “figurines” or replacements because I can stand by myself. Anyone who wants to stand by me could be because we are enjoying it and not because we are afraid.

Happy 2020,

Prosperous 2020

Beautiful 2020,

August 19, 2019- Back to my hometown and to “Capitaine Fracasse”

Hello August,

I am back to the hometown café, with my head full of the beatiful landscapes of the French Riviera, and longing for the seaside. But I need to leave my novel and go back to a working mood, which is not all phantasizing and imagining oneself in these imaginary situations of the Capitaine Fracasse’s adventures. What is better than to revisit the classics of the French Litterature in this book by Théophile Gautier before the summer ends?

August 16, 2019- Short holiday in the South of France

Hello August,

yes, I managed to take some last-minute holidays, yes, I decided it in the afternoon, I was out there next morning. Where? In the South of France of course, close to my hometown.

Just to remind you, my parents live up in the mountains, it’s a long drive to the seaside. And with this and that, family issues, aunt dying at the end of July, holidays were the last thing.

But there is a moment when enough is enough: and I was like, yes I am going NOW!

I started calling here and there, you can imagine that everything is reserved mid-August, in one of the most touristic areas. And yes, my friends have made plans ages ago, there was no way I could join. My love prospects also.

I met someone charming who has just started working and whose job will include touring France.

Hmm, so yes, a last-minute room in Saint-Tropez with a cousin who owns a small but charming hotel in the area.

And you must keep in mind that I am kind of broke these days.

Still, believing in your luck, or making connexions might save the day, and find oneself looking at this beautiful scenery without knowing how it happened. I accepted to help out to return the favour, but still, I got a chance to swim and fool around enough to make it worth the while.

And dance, of course, dance!

Yes, it has been a wonderful breath of fresh air, a way to recharge my energy, after a studious, hot and full of events summer!

August 14, 2018- Update on Love, Work and Vacation

Dear August,

where have I been all this time? Was it on a little white cloud, on the wings of love, forgetting all my everyday life practical questions?

Almost, I was up, down, and around.

My June love story lost steam and practically disappeared in July.

I managed to get myself a virus and I spent a lot of time sleeping and watching Disney and Dreamworks creations (from the Trolls to Baby Boss…)

Anyway, I realized a vacation is a must, and I landed on my home-town where I spent time with family and friends and I decided that all I needed is sleep, rest and relax.

It is only in August that I emerged and I started writing, again, the sequel of my first novel;

Well, to go back to love questions, do I feel sad?

Not exactly.

Was I in love?

I was grateful to have this good looking, intelligent, successful, active, thoughtful guy, full of attentions. I saw fireworks!

But somehow, I stressed up.

Was it for real?

It was almost too good to be true.

This guy, a 40 year-old, was showering me with attentions for a whole month, and I think that I was responding positively but somewhat with less enthusiasm than his.

He seemed serious about his career coming out of a two year relationship and we had common friends. Not the kind of person who was frivolous and flirtatious here and there.

Was it my instinct of self-preservation or my self-sabotage side that wanted for things to go more slowly?

in any case, my perfect june man left for a two-week business trip and when he came back to London, he found me and my virus, and then he just… vanished!

Now that I am back in full health, I contemplate if a little virus can chase away a strong connexion or dissipate a buble that wasn’t love.

Because I am not interested in the fast food of love: the kind of place where you are served fast, and bad quality food.

I am for the three star Michelin restaurant, where food is prepared with the best ingredients and it takes its time to arrive in your plate.

This fast in love fast out of love person, was looking for appearances.

Good luck to each of us and as they say in fairy tales, “and they lived happily ever after”, in our separate ways, in this case!

P.S. A small “clin d’oeil for my friend Paul @ SocialMedia who asked me how things go!

http://www.documentarytube.com/articles/top-heartwarming-10-facts-about-love

December 31, 2017-Ready for a 2017 Year in Review?

Hello December,

the year is close to an end – and it’s time for a review, without letting the food and desert debaucheries weaken my critical judgement.

How do I have fun in a creative way?

Probably, by doing things with people who appreciate and love me, even if it’s just one person. And I’d better be one of them. People I also love and appreciate.

Starting with ourselves, giving some love and appreciation for whatever we have accomplished, tried, failed, imagined, … is the first step I guess.

There is always better and higher.

But don’t we deserve a WELL DONE, for our efforts, struggles and for just being around?