July 9, 2020- Day 1 again of 66 days- Reading Cyrano de Bergerac

Hello July,

what if I say that I will start something and then there is a day I don’t follow up? Probably, I need to start again. So, day 1 is today, July 9.

What is new? Hmm, I write my new novel, and I will testify doing it in my blog. By the way, I am reading again the play of Edmond Rostand, Cyrano de Bergerac, and I am completely moved by this love which is somehow missing its target.

So loveable, Cyrano, Roxanne and Cristian, the type of characters it would be nice to meet. Cyrano has a big nose, and he loves Roxanne. Roxanne loves handsome Christian and is loved by him. The problem is, Cyrano is putting words into Christian’s mouth and that is what Roxanne loves about him. A love triangle. Two men trying to create Roxanne’s ideal love object. Hmm…

It happens in real life also. Being afraid to show who we are for fear of not being loved, sacrificing real life to some kind of ideal…

 

CYRANO-DE-BERGERAC

June 15, 2020- How to restart and recharge energy

Hello June,

what a start we had! Kind of intensive, with a lot of things to finish which I did, and I am thankful about it.

On the other side, I feel a bit low on energy, tense, bad hair, etc. And there are still many things which need my attention, with people having different demands (from my parents, the cat, my colleagues, random neighbours, … etc).

And still, these others are here not happy about something… and I feel guilty for not satisfying all these agendas.

What to do to restart and recharge my energy?

Well, having some sleep and me time is important.

Shut the noise out.

Everything which is not rest, is noise in this case.

Then, feel I deserve accolades for such a good job the last months, and give myself credit, to begin with. It has been kind of heroic to navigate through these complicated times in such an efficient way.

So, instead of guilty, I am to feel proud.

And offer myself something I really like: a fruit juice?

Fruit Juice Versus Whole Fruit; Which One Should You Choose?

 

May 29, 2020- Being productive with a deadline: Tomorrow

May, hello,

have you ever. had deadlines? Yes, you are leaving us in a couple of days. But, guess what: I need to finish a small article by tomorrow.

When a deadline is so close, it somehow mobilises every part of me. How about you? There is a notion of fear and panic, freezing, staring at the paper, or the computer screen. Unable to move. That’s what our ancestors might experience from time to time in front of a mighty predator.

How about fight or flight?

There is no flight possibility.

Fight is the only way out.

So, let’s go for it!

I am having a piece of chocolate to lift my spirits and move instead of staring.

One word at a time makes the page full.

Have a nice and productive day!!!

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May 7 and 8, 2020- Day 4 and 5- Great instead of High Expectations

May hello,

two very busy days and my hopes got up a little bit with a possibility for a collaboration. There is an artist I met last year and she invited me to participate to a collective project. It seems good and this person is trustworthy, I think.

So, I put myself to work for it.

Let’s see how it goes.

I was so excited to work on something creative and inspiring again!

Almost afraid to raise my expectations for fear of disappointment (what I learn in CBT).

Barnes And Noble Flexibound Classics: Great Expectations by Charles Dickens

May 6, 2020- Day 3, CBT training and empowerment

Hello May,

with a lot of different demands, I kind of stressed up to add this CBT training. Funny, isn’t it? I kind of looked at the number of the chapters and went, oh, no, is this going to take me all this time?

In reality, I wanted to finish fast and easy. Or, I thought it already knew most of the things which needed to be learnt, and I felt I would be finishing in a week or so.

Expectations is something which leads to disappointment, apparently, so I could just enjoy the drive, by taking one class a day and seeing where this is going to lead me.

I also started criticising the poor teacher, deciding if he looked trustworthy enough or not, for me to listen to his message.

Something which was apparently, anticipated.

The essential thing is to apply these ideas to myself:

So, April, I can say to myself, lay back and enjoy the ride.

Expectations