October 17, 2021: Designing my Perfect Life

Hello October,

I feel a bit more relaxed after a month in London, and I start wishing for more: so here I am, planning what I would love to see materialising in my life: everyday life, friends, home, career, anything. I would like a magic wand to attend to it, but sometimes, taking a step at a time is also great. I came accros my goals set in 2017 in an old notebook, and was happily surprised to see I have reached them, almost all!

In the meanwhile, there were times that looked disastrous, as if not only I was not reaching any goal, but I was also losing what I already had! Somehow, I kept my faith, in the middle of these adventures, and I can now talk from a much better place.

So, how do I create magic again? Apparently Good Things come to those who Create, so I will draw the best possible picture and I will see myself into it. I see myself aligned with my work environment, friends I can trust and who can be trusted and a mission that inspires me! A loving family created, pets, travelling to unite with like-minded people on Earth, Beauty and my personal Utopia materialised!

Can we be happy in the middle of unhappiness? Yes, because LIFE has always a way to get ahead, and by involving as many others as possible to this happy bubble of ours! May Happy Bubbles become many and include the whole world!

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December 26-Making space for what is important: the permission to have fun no matter what!

Hello December,

Christmas is here, and I feel as if I need permission to do some things for myself. Like, to buy something I, kind of, like. It seemed as if my life’s mission was to make my parents happy and I didn’t succeed in that. I have started an artistic career with ups and downs and many times in the past, I have relied on them. When they needed my help, I wasn’t able to give all the help they needed without feeling overwhelmed. The lockdown brought me back in my hometown and my parents’ home and accentuated this feeling.

It is difficult to acknowledge that I am doing the best I can and despite of my success, I have the right to feel ok with it no matter what.

I have the right to be happy, in the NOW despite of anything. The right to be around people who are loving in a generous and balanced way and to be this kind of person; people who love in a way that allows the other to grow; people who support other people’s happiness without asking you to sacrifice for them; also those who know how to build healthy boundaries between themselves and other people’s expectations.

Something I definitely need to learn because my love life in the past involved someone I wanted to “save” and who ended up hurting me; I understood it doesn’t make sense to try to “help” others if they don’t want to change. And if I don’t change, I will be the accessory of this type of pathology.

TODAY it is ok to be happy for myself, for who I have been and who I am becoming!

I want to create my community of like-minded but diverse people.

I want to travel the world and bring happiness, connect people, work for the world Democracy, Peace and Beauty, Life in the planet!

September 1st and 2nd, 2020-First days in new job!

Welcome September,

I am so excited to start a new job, after having resigned from the previous one!!!

It has been miracle-like, I had almost lost hope, when it came to me, and I feel a mixture of anticipation, excitement and some stress because I want to be my best self in it…

Feeling exhilarated

January 1st, 2020- New Year, NEW ME

Welcome 2020,

Welcome my dear New Year! Here I am, having a glass of wine and feeling extremely hopeful and in a good mood. There is no particular reason for this. I am having a party by myself, after my parents got to sleep in my small French village, and I am listening to some music.

I spent much time being afraid in 2019, but despite everything, I am proud to have pulled it through in a decent way and to have reached a milestone compared to my previous life.

There is something that is appearing as a possibility to live from my whatever activity.

And also, I want to choose my friends as to real friends, because I don’t need “figurines” or replacements because I can stand by myself. Anyone who wants to stand by me could be because we are enjoying it and not because we are afraid.

Happy 2020,

Prosperous 2020

Beautiful 2020,

October 9, 2017-Happiness depends on our focus

Hello October,

“Your happiness is determined by how you allocate your attention”, Prof. Dolan says, and it seems quiet an interesting idea;

so let’s see where my attention will go for the day. Because attention is the glue that holds our life together.

And by the way, happiness is both feeling pleasure and purpose.

Ok, I think I got it.

There is pleasure in being where I am right now, drinking a nice cup of coffee.

When my attention goes to the next part of the day, where I need to negotiate my rent, the attention goes to some worry thing.

When I think why I got into this, and it’s because I have a purpose, it feels better already.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-38285223

July 10, 2017-Happiness as a state and as a destination

Hello July,

getting what you want and not getting what you want could amount to the same degree of happiness. So why bother wanting something in the first place?

I wouldn’t have an answer to that. It seems that accepting things we can’t change can be also important as having the freedom to choose what we want. When our ambition is bounded or unbounded there seems to be a difference. We have the capacity to manufacture the commodity we chace when we look for experiences.

So if we make a choice let it be for other reasons than making us feel good 😉

April 1rst, 2017: 3 Year Blog-Anniversary!

Dear April,

it has been three years since I decided to start a blogging adventure, as a form of a diary, addressing myself to the different months. I was living in Paris at the time, and I had to face a into my face wannabee boss and my unfullfieled artistic and love drives. I meant to write every day.

Ever since, a lot of things have changed.

I am in London.

I have published my first novel (to be translated in English soon).

My heart is still attached to Paris, but I am happy to have started new adventures here.

I would like to thank so much all of the friends who have accompanied me and offered feedback all these years.

Your advice has been valuable!

More precisely I would like to thank some of my oldest friends, but also those I havent’t mentioned with their wise comments:

pursuit of happiness WordPress

https://equinoxio21.wordpress.com/2017/03/31/paris-time-patrol-numero-four/

la bibliotheque qui ne brule pas wordpress

Eddietwohawks.wordpress.com

Time is Fleeting, Never Stop

https://kimberlyharding.wordpress.com/2017/04/01/born/

https://erikakind.me/blog/

The treasure we are

https://ceejaykayfit.com

https://1000dollarstartups.com

Crucial Inner Skills for Writers and Artists 

These are some of my first and very good friends, but I am grateful for all of you who read and interact with this blog.

Please feel free to give me a feedback, in order to grow also!

THANK YOU so much

Love

April

 

 

February 15, 2017-On Being a productive WRITER

Hello again February,

I tried to wake up at 6.00 for the last two days in order to be more productive with my writing and I have felt sleepy and moody for the rest of the day. I just wonder if I should stick to it or if I should go back to my old rhythm.

You see, the thing is I have become more productive but not much happier. And if I don’t find a way to be both, this is not going to last.

The main thing is I like to start my day day-dreaming. This is my best spot.

So working early and night-dreaming or daydream?

Both I guess.

Daydreaming is number one for a writer. And night-dreaming.

Then I can go back to my other writing.

I want to feel every day that I can change the world with my writing and my thoughts.

BECAUSE BEING A WRITER IS CHANGING THE WORLD STARTING FROM OUR OUR OWN!

 

 

 

April 1rst, 2016: 2 YEAR BLOG ANNIVERSARY and Versatile Blogger Award ;-)

Dear April welcome!

Actually this is my 2 YEAR BLOG ANNIVERSARY and I feel so happy to have used this form of expressing thoughts and emotions, and to meet new creative friends! The blog started as a form of a game, it was supposed to be read by my two closest friends and little by little it got emancipated and I enjoyed the whole process 🙂

Two years ago I was living in Paris and was suffering under the “wannabe boss”: one of those guys who need to oppress others in order to feel they exist. I tried to find what really matters to me and focus into something I would enjoy instead of just avoiding or even ” wining” in a battle that had no meaning. I was working as an artistic event organizer, free-lance and underpaid, with literary aspirations.

Since mid-October I relocated to London and try what it is to live in a new city with new opportunities in love and in life. I recently launched my first book -in French!- and enjoy my new adventures!

As it is an anniversary, I thought it is ok to “defrost” a Blogger Award in order to cheer me up. I prefer to consider an award as something which is better with time like a good wine 😉

The nomination has come from Rozanne and her blog Life is Rosie (http://lifeisrozie.com/) who has also relocated, but not as close as I did: she is currently living in Hong Kong and I wish her all the best to her blogging, personal and professional life! Her blog is fresh and rose, just a touch of spring!

Versatile Blogger Award

 

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The rules are:

Show the award on your blog: Done!
Thank the person who nominated you: I just did, it only took me a few months…
Share seven facts about yourself: I will
Nominate 15 blogs: I would need to add to this list, because it means serious work … as Rozanne I start with 1+5 with a promise to continue…
Link your nominees’ blogs, and let them know: ok

Seven Facts:

1. I can be lazy but it is only to preserve my peace of mind 🙂
2. I have been abusing on chocolate lately
3. I have a secret identity that will be revealed when my novel gets published in english
4. I like listening to conversations in cafes and restaurants, so don’t sit next to me
5. I have read my favorite books about 10 times
6. I love dancing
7. I believe in good in this world

And the nominated blogs :

a. Brian’s blog: https://equinoxio21.wordpress.com/ A blog about Magic, Fiction and Art!

b. https://t7danieldavis.wordpress.com/, “On the Other Side of the Trees”

c. https://tellingthetruth1993.wordpress.com/

d. https://stringofpearls2.wordpress.com/2016/03/31/my-2016-smart-goals/, or Lady Gray

e. https://erikakind.wordpress.com/, Erika Kind for her presence in so many ways

f. http://labiblioafronebrulepas.com/, Anna Kendi

and I will keep on adding more blogs!

Versatile Blogger Award

April 2nd 2015- Love: theories and realities

Dear April,

did you overhear me last night talking to a friend about relationships? At this small Parisian bar? Oh, you were busy raining on us most of the day so you didn’t. No worries, I will fill you in. Two perspectives emerged:

Perspective no 1.

It comes from the generation of our parents, who have happened to experience successful relationships. Or so it seems. They have met young, it was their first important relationship, got married, had one or two children and lived happily ever after.

To them, when you see the person for you, you know right away. So, seeing for example their child separate from a relationship raises some questions. “Why did it take you three years to realize this was not the person for you? You probably felt it all along. So why start the relationship? Is it because you have a difficulty to discern what you feel and what you want”?

In that case, this is a problem. Some disconnection with our inner self.

As if for example you are hungry and start eating. At some point, the brain is supposed to get the message that you have got enough energy and you can do something else. If there is a disconnexion, you can go on eating three main dishes and three desserts before the information arrives.

Could it be the same thing with relationships?

And in that case, what causes the lack of communication with our inner self? Fear of being alone? Not trusting our gut feeling? Not having exercised our intuition?

Perspective no 2:

There could be another variation. Having a defective “program” which coordinates the whole process.

For example, wanting to “save” someone with our love.

Looking back to the first two men I had fallen in love with, I realized I wanted to “rescue” them with my love. They seemed talented but miserable, or something equivalent.

Was I trying to feel I deserved love by doing this? Did I try to change them? Probably.

So it didn’t work. After all, nobody asked me to take up this mission.

We left the bar thinking about a third perspective:

Why not try a third perspective and feel good with another human being?

Starting from ourselves because we deserve love unconditionally.

http://www.boldsky.com/relationship/beyond-love/2012/types-of-love-relationships-029739.html