November 13, 2019- Watching “Hamilton”, in London and rediscovering passion

Hello November,

and welcome back to passion! I just watched “Hamilton”, the musical, from the front row, and I was impressed with these characters’ passion, and the actors’ game.

These people were living and dying with purpose, which is something I need in my everyday life, or I need to rediscover. There are many great purposes out there, and purposes I believe in, so it’s time to say something.

All the rest, is for people who are not lovers.

In the first sense of the word.

I also found myself in a strange place.

Being invited by someone who didn’t know what exactly he wanted.

I know what I want.

And that, is a man with passion and conviction

A way to fall in love

November 13, 2019- Knowing how not to get affected by childhood dynamics

Hello November,

how is it that our parents have a way to get into us that other people don’t? Somehow, feelings become magnified when something is related to them. All the childhood memories, wounds, happy moments become activated.

When it’s good, it’s great.

I mean, not everyone has a chance to grow up with parents who take care of them as kids, so, having experienced that is a blessing in itself.

Still, we are all human beings and parents are also human. The best of them can also instil feelings of guilt on something, or not being good enough or worthy of X, Y and Z.

And then we might find partners or other people who reinforce this dynamic as we grow.

So what to do when we catch ourselves there?

It’s important to say: STOP and rewind.

Is this playing the same old film?

What if I step out and refuse to be part of it?

That’s what I do.

I step out for coffee.

I write in my blog.

I am not responsible for my parents’ happiness or unhappiness.

I may contribute, but it’s their life also.

And I can’t take the blame for anything that seems not to work.

Or for anything that does.

Let’s do the best I can.

And forgive them, and forgive myself for not being perfect.

And thank them, and thank me for who we are.

I likes this one :

When You’re Hard on Yourself: Replace Guilt with Self-Compassion

November 11, 2019- Happy and Creative Birthday with a Good Feeling Spa

Hello November,

hello my birthday month, I am grateful for being here, on this planet, in London, this century, in a hair salon right now!

It was about time apparently, according to a prep friend who commented that I start looking like a hippie, with two months dark racine coming out of my otherwise ginger hair.

Despite anything, it is so great to be around, and I want to make plans again, to have objectives and to go for them!

Writing a play is on the top of the list, releasing feelings that have been bottled up.

Making beautiful fireworks!

And the everyday commitments?

There is time for them also.

The most important thing is to say, hello Beautiful, maybe you made mistakes, or you run into roadblocks, you shed tears, but you also succeeded, loved, been loved, and all this adventure has been quiet inspiring!

What would I want for the next step?

A Spa of feelings, where you are receiving extra treatment for feelings, enveloped in a warm, and light, and pampering glow of LOVE!

LOVE is the best feeling SPA, and it’s like money and energy, it needs to circulate.

So, for the next step, a Good Feeling Spa, for me and all the real and virtual friends!

Brands should be smarter about "Happy Birthday" promotions.

November 7, 2019- Challenges and how to raise up to meet them: NaNoWriMo

Hello November,

I have arrived tired, and I feel that small or bigger things happening are pushing me around. I don’t come up as confident in the new job, and I lose my calm.

Add to that the seasonal flu, and you get the picture.

So, how do I face this? I try for something, it looks overambitious and misses the point.

Who should I talk to?

To begin with, I need my energy, or my Chi to get circulating again.

How about breathing?

Breath in and breath out.

How am I going to give myself a break?

The thing is, when we need one, we usually don’t have it.

Then, how do we create the right space?

By creative writing of course.

NaNoWriMo, this is the writing month after all.

But I want to write a play instead of a novel.

Let’s see how it goes.

I have the idea already.

And the characters.

Maybe in between, I can go back to my question.

How about doing something right now?

November 6, 2019- Unbottled feelings

Dear November,

my feelings range from excited, to fear, to angry, to sad, to happy. I am trying to decide if I should move closer to my new job. If I should stay in my new job. If they appreciate me in my new job.

Is there a moment to doubt? Ok let’s be honest with myself. I worked for about a year in this direction. Why do I start doubting?

Because I have a fear of commitment.

What if I feel alienated?

If they don’t understand, etc, me?

If I find it too difficult?

Maybe I am not good enough.

Or too different.

Something.

The funny thing with fears, when you stop to talk to them, is that they come from different directions.

How can it be both too difficult and I too good for it? Or not challenged enough?

It’s like dating someone we don’t feel attracted to, and then feel offended if this person wants to break up.

How dare you?

I was too good for you, to begin with.

So?

So, now I am here, where I am.

I think that I can look at this present, and love it for what it is.

Not what it should be.

Not what it will be.

How will I give it a serious chance to succeed?

Is moving out of London too destabilising for now?

I feel secure to be close to my old neighbourhood.

To keep something constant in the name of change.

A Modern Dilemma

https://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/lifematters/features/modern-dilemmas/

November 1st, 2019- Beginning new adventures

Welcome November!

I went out for a walk this morning, thinking that letting go of some things makes space for new ones to come. Yes, some old and comfortable clothes with memories feel so difficult to part with, but it’s also possible to accept that we can be equally or more happy with new ones arriving.

And these new clothes might bring new aspects of ourselves, ready to express themselves out there!

I love this automne colours and the mysterious winter somewhere in the distance.

So, I am ready for new adventures, and I want to fill in my imaginary and real journal with rich experiences, love and success in growing. With many different ways to enjoy every minute.

And by thinking of long term goals and not just of day to day things to accomplish.

And art is a way of living after all, let’s put that to practice!

Orange leaves on trees in Richmond Park, London, in autumn

https://londonist.com/london/great-outdoors/autumn-trees-red-orange-leaves-walks-london

October 3, 2019- New job challenges in London

Dear October,

is it hard the first few days of your job? There seem to be so many things to absorb, and clients to keep satisfied, and on top of that a virus, yes, a virus!

So? What to do? I took two days off, working from home to pull myself together.

And of course, to write to my favourite journal.

Now, it seems that I don’t come out as competent and confident as a great artist and gorgeous woman that I am.

Well, maybe it helps that all my clothes for two seasons are in my suitcase, the one I brought with me to London 🙂

I decided to go through the internet for help, and start some morning affirmations.

How about reaching out to others also?

https://www.businessnewsdaily.com/7890-first-week-new-job.html

September 8, 2019- Having coffee in Notting Hill and preparing for the week to come

Hello September,

yes, I am right now in Notting Hill, London, enjoying a latte as I need this extra energy to focus and be as sharp as I can!

The next few days are demanding, and there was no spare time to visit the city. But finding myself in this spot is already great, and the sun is on my face every time a cloud moves.

This is a form of happiness. Do we need more?

Monday starts in crazy pace as I am in my new job and need to give the best impressions!

Notting Hill Townhouses

https://www.timeout.com/london/blog/five-historical-things-to-look-out-for-in-notting-hill-011317

September 4, 2019- Back to London!

Dear September,

can you believe it? I am back to London, I almost pinch myself because this was not very likely the past few months. And yet, here I am, crossing the Waterloo bridge. Funny isn’t it?

For a French person, a Waterloo is a defeat or a failure, but for the British people, it’s a victory.

On either side, if you cross a defeat or failure, it’s Victory and Success that you meet.

Having the courage to go to the other side means a lot in itself.

So here I am to the victorious side of the equation, having crossed deserts and rivers, seeing both sides of the equation.

A new adventure begins!

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September 1st, 2019- Welcome September!

Dear September,

Welcome again! Schools, Universities, start in a while, and I feel ready to shake away the lethargic attitude which accompanied me in August, to sail in almost full speed!

I finish my novel, “The Capitaine Fracasse”, written by the talented and unique Théophile Gautier, and I am so delighted with his use of French language, and the lessons I can learn as an author from his style. The Theater as a form of art and Commedia del’Arte play an important part, as most of the characters are actors.

In the last chapter, there is catharsis and justice to the good people in the story, so I am looking forward to a restoration of the moral balance!

Apart from that, I am planning my week, as much as possible, because I am going on a trip on Tuesday… and I will tell you more very soon!