July 9, 2020- Day 1 again of 66 days- Reading Cyrano de Bergerac

Hello July,

what if I say that I will start something and then there is a day I don’t follow up? Probably, I need to start again. So, day 1 is today, July 9.

What is new? Hmm, I write my new novel, and I will testify doing it in my blog. By the way, I am reading again the play of Edmond Rostand, Cyrano de Bergerac, and I am completely moved by this love which is somehow missing its target.

So loveable, Cyrano, Roxanne and Cristian, the type of characters it would be nice to meet. Cyrano has a big nose, and he loves Roxanne. Roxanne loves handsome Christian and is loved by him. The problem is, Cyrano is putting words into Christian’s mouth and that is what Roxanne loves about him. A love triangle. Two men trying to create Roxanne’s ideal love object. Hmm…

It happens in real life also. Being afraid to show who we are for fear of not being loved, sacrificing real life to some kind of ideal…

 

CYRANO-DE-BERGERAC

July 7, 2020- 66 days for a new habit- day 1

Hello July,

I am at my parents’ home, in the South of France, with some online work, and not much private space.

I feel a bit overwhelmed with all the demands made on me, by others an myself, whereas I feel being slowed down by the temperature rising.

Or I am just a bit tired and demotivated.

And still, this is a time to get a promotion.

I feel it in my heart.

But I might need to move and take some action instead of lingering in a semi-sleepy state.

Trees blossom and then the flowers are gone, leaves grow and they fall. There is a cycle of movement, even if we don’t do a thing. But if there is such a thing as a deliberate action, how do we know when to act, and how, to bring a positive change?

Eat well, less dessert and more vegetables and fruit?

Exercise, I do.

I might need to add a very motivating objective and go for it.

https://www.awai.com/2018/01/how-to-build-a-habit-and-make-it-stick-for-good/

July 4, 2020-Inspiration from Hamilton musical

Hello July,

Freedom is so important, to be, to feel, to write, to breath, to become!

A tribute to Independence Day, and to Independence from anything that holds us back, to become our fully developed selves, in respect for others who also are in their development path.

After slowing down for the second part of June, I realise it is important to be and feel authentic, going in the direction that inspires us and respecting who we are.

What kind of new habit to start in July?

Journaling everyday, and going back to fiction writing.

Reading literature,

Writing Poetry

Finding time and making space to be, feel and look our best!

Smiling to ourselves in the mirror every day,

We did it!

Some inspiration from the musical “Hamilton” : Hamilton-poster.jpg

https://theconversation.com/hamilton-the-diverse-musical-with-representation-problems-141473

June 15, 2020- How to restart and recharge energy

Hello June,

what a start we had! Kind of intensive, with a lot of things to finish which I did, and I am thankful about it.

On the other side, I feel a bit low on energy, tense, bad hair, etc. And there are still many things which need my attention, with people having different demands (from my parents, the cat, my colleagues, random neighbours, … etc).

And still, these others are here not happy about something… and I feel guilty for not satisfying all these agendas.

What to do to restart and recharge my energy?

Well, having some sleep and me time is important.

Shut the noise out.

Everything which is not rest, is noise in this case.

Then, feel I deserve accolades for such a good job the last months, and give myself credit, to begin with. It has been kind of heroic to navigate through these complicated times in such an efficient way.

So, instead of guilty, I am to feel proud.

And offer myself something I really like: a fruit juice?

Fruit Juice Versus Whole Fruit; Which One Should You Choose?

 

June 3rd, 2020- And yet, another deadline for today!

Dear June,

yes, I have another deadline today! Let’s say that in order to submit a chapter, I put back my everyday job and I am the last employee to finish their assignment at the last minute (well though).

So, getting at least 6 hours sleep to have a clear brain and getting back to work…

Let’s do it!

We can do it! Free Vector

May 31, 2020- Productive Sunday :-)

Hello May,

a lot of things happened while you were around, have you noticed? But it’s not the moment to contemplate since I am writing and finishing TODAY.

Hang around there, I will get back to tell you how it all went.

Having a meeting with my editor in a while.

Yes, a virtual one 🙂

7 Ways To Make Your Sunday Productive for Best Week Ever

7 Ways To Make Your Sunday Productive for Best Week Ever

May 13, 2020- How not to stress for other people’s priorities

Hello May,

I think I got a lot of things done, but staying with my parents during lockdown also adds their responsibilities to my already full schedule. Meaning, I stressed up.

Old house, repairs to be done, and not really the moment I have a big bank account.

That’s why I decided to get a promotion.

A better job.

And to play Lotto.

In the meanwhile, I might decide if other people should dictate my life and schedule. Yes, everything looks like an emergency. People have different priorities. And perspectives. Something is vital for one, insignificant for the other.

And overall, they can manage so well with or without me.

But if I take everything in, I will not manage anything;

They might not like my style.

But guess what,

it’s the only one I have for now.

To keep “saine d’esprit”, in other words,

to Keep Calm and Carry On!

File:Keep-calm-and-carry-on.svg

 

May 7 and 8, 2020- Day 4 and 5- Great instead of High Expectations

May hello,

two very busy days and my hopes got up a little bit with a possibility for a collaboration. There is an artist I met last year and she invited me to participate to a collective project. It seems good and this person is trustworthy, I think.

So, I put myself to work for it.

Let’s see how it goes.

I was so excited to work on something creative and inspiring again!

Almost afraid to raise my expectations for fear of disappointment (what I learn in CBT).

Barnes And Noble Flexibound Classics: Great Expectations by Charles Dickens

May 6, 2020- Day 3, CBT training and empowerment

Hello May,

with a lot of different demands, I kind of stressed up to add this CBT training. Funny, isn’t it? I kind of looked at the number of the chapters and went, oh, no, is this going to take me all this time?

In reality, I wanted to finish fast and easy. Or, I thought it already knew most of the things which needed to be learnt, and I felt I would be finishing in a week or so.

Expectations is something which leads to disappointment, apparently, so I could just enjoy the drive, by taking one class a day and seeing where this is going to lead me.

I also started criticising the poor teacher, deciding if he looked trustworthy enough or not, for me to listen to his message.

Something which was apparently, anticipated.

The essential thing is to apply these ideas to myself:

So, April, I can say to myself, lay back and enjoy the ride.

Expectations

May 3, 2020- How to change disappointment into motivation and action

Hello May,

I woke up with the best intentions, walked by myself, had coffee, and then it hit me: a negative answer from a publisher on a piece of work. A piece I have worked and worked over for several years.

Not to mention, it has been rejected a few times.

I can’t describe my feelings. Anger, he doesn’t understand, feeling miserable for myself, here is where I ended with all these rejections… more general statements about my life etc.

Then, I thought: let’s change that.

Indeed, I need to do something differently.

To begin with, to tell myself: I DESERVE THE BEST IN LIFE, as everybody else.

Why?

Try, why not?

Planet Earth is bountiful.

So, second step: I need help. Let’s go around and ask for some.

Let’s identify people who could help me.

Then, get some chocolate.

And also, think whether there is a better strategy.

There is something simple which could be done in a different way.

Something which is related to the packaging.

And let’s dance a bit!

And let’s also do something I like a lot, like, write a new poem

Check on Art:

https://archive.org/details/meisterw00kren/page/42/mode/2up