August 26, 2021: Something got to change: blossoming

Hello August,

yesterday I caught myself feeling envious when seeing people coming back from holidays. Today I experienced a sense of vertigo and I realised it is psychosomatic. So, yes, I need to get off this negative train and get into another, positive directionl.

My feelings have been bottling up during the last months and I felt I didn’t really have anyone to share them with. I kind of felt alone with my challenges. I also realise that a holiday is not when you don’t do work. It can be more tiring if there is no learning, enjoying, and getting away from potential stressors, even for a while.

I can’t blame everything on the pandemic.

Or, even if it was the pandemic’s fault, I would still need to adapt.

Adapt and grow as a human being, not just adapt 🙂

I used to see some middle aged and old people who looked dry and bitter. They had stories they wanted to share about the terrible things that happened to them. Full of spite and then taking it on to the first innocent or less innocent who might be in front of them.

They could be right, or wrong. The thing is, if we don’t want to turn bitter and dry, and to blossom as human beings, there must be another way to regenerate and continue our path…

Apricot Blossom in Behbahan, Iran

August 23rd, 2021: New Start in Journaling: being a best friend

I am back journaling, and yes, I am learning the new way to edit my posts, the font size looks so small or I am not used to it… whatever…

It has been a productive summer but somehow, it was kind of difficult from a family point of view and I don’t feel I have really relaxed or taken some real time out…

a friend of mine mentioned a man who seemed to consider being a few eggs at a supermarket in Germany, and I realise how lucky I have been to stay healthy and to have a job.

Despite having all this luck, living with parents and especially one who has serious health issues has been my excuse to feel nervous and ready to explode… yes, it is an excuse, compared to the situation in the world and to the fate of women and children, refugees, unemployed, climate change, it is time to do something. A donation, an action, some support in social media.

So, I did something 🙂

After all, just a small action is better than being a passive observer of other people’s lives.

And if we are ready to mobilise to support anything that is a worthy cause, how about mobilising to support ourselves? What would we do if we were our best friend?

What would I advise my self if I were my twin sister or best friend?

I would take myself out for a small and inspiring trip to lift my spirits and change a little bit.

Actually, talking to a friend through zoom and making plans for the future was like taking a short trip.