May 17, 2019- Update from my hometown and how to upgrade myself

Hello May,

yes, I have promised myself to write daily here, and I have almost succeeded, in the sense I have been using more traditional methods: paper and pen.

So, what is going on for me? I am at the nearest café, where I try to concentrate despite the music and talking. Writing from my parent’s place is tricky because I get interrupted by real life.

I feel I need energy and a sense of orientation.

Tonight I am to go to a local theatre with fellow artists, and before that, I need to focus.

Next to me, two retired people reading their newspapers.

Another possibility to join a library but I am not sure if it is worth driving or taking public transport for this.

I have bought a book on specific actions to take in my field, and then I contacted a potential mentor. In the meanwhile, my time is a scarce resource, I need to use in the best possible way 🙂

So, how do I use this time to take myself to the next level of the game?

How about romance?

Is it in the stars these days?

How do I upgrade myself?

A cup of latte

April 5, 2019- Celebrating 5 year Blog-Anniversary!

Dear April,

do you remember? I started this blog five years ago, with the intention to write a post-a-day for three months. I was facing a crisis in my personal and professional life: horrid wannabe boss, finances, relationship, instability.

Where am I today? In my home town, with my ageing parents and the cat, where I was afraid to end up if my projects didn’t succeed. And guess what? It’s not as bad as I thought.

Because I might have put up with things out of fear. The fear that if I fail this and that, I might be cast back to where I was at the beginning. A kind of snakes and ladders game.

And guess what? I am not the exact same person. I took risks, huge risks and I failed some of them, for reasons also independent on my effort.

But despite the fact that I didn’t get the funding, that I overworked and I spent all my economies, despite the fact that a member of my family had health issues and I had to go home for a while, I am confident about the future.

I have plans, dreams, and most importantly, I am working towards them.

So, from my place, whatever it is today, I am working towards the next step.

And everything learnt is a profit.

If a snake has swallowed me, I can still take a ladder because I know I can!

Thank you dear blog and dear blog-friends with your wise comments for helping me realize this!

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March 10, 2019- Back to my parents’ home: an update of my adventures

Hello March,

I am back at the beginning, in my parents’ home in the South of France: a perfect time for an update. Where to and whither?

I have succeeded certain projects, failed others and I am here again, without stability and some debts.

Is there something to learn from the experience?

Well, for sure, that I can be a source of “wrongdoing” because of miscalculation even if it wasn’t my intention.

What is the most essential thing at this moment?

How would I like to live every day?

Well, with challenges and new things to learn;

Looking up to people who can advise and help me.

And helping others with what I have learnt.

To begin with, it is important to produce every day.

And then do anything else 🙂

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February 8, 2019- Taking another chance in Manchester

Hello February,

today I am waking up in Manchester, the first time I visit the city, do you believe that? After waking up and the second cup of coffee, I am preparing a presentation and a meeting with my future employers 😉

What is the weather like? Some wind and occasional rain, but this is not preventing me from visiting the City Centre before!

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January 5, 2019- How to focus on the Essential

Hello January,

Time is money they say, but most of all, Time is LIFE. Time doesn’t come back, so if I want to live it to the fullest, I need to start doing it right now.

Spending time on job applications is not exactly productive. Instead, I can start producing more, and leave that for a part of my day.

How about reading meaningful books, spending time with people we love, and doing something for the community?

Apparently, Success is something you attract by the person you become.

So let’s become a person who is giving light instead of looking how to get something.

Let’s be meaningful and not just strategic!

Let’s create more!

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October 24, 2018- Bounce Back Big day 27- today is my lucky day

Hello October,

I just had a setback I was expecting: I had a NO from a gallery I was collaborating with last year, I did some work for them, and now I asked for a job. The person I was working with and I was counting on supporting me, pulled out.

Now what?

I was kind of expecting it, since she was silent the last time I emailed her.

I went out for a coffee.

At the same time, I have this killer project. This mentality of theirs is defensive of privileges.

How about mine?

I am used to being rejected actually, because I always felt as a minority.

But did I really like the way these people worked?

Deep down, I think they are conventionally good but boring. I went there for the name of the gallery.

It can be important.

Maybe, I can start from giving value to myself.

How did my last relationship end?

In a similar way.

With someone who was not appreciating my full value.

Am I appreciating myself enough?

What would I do if I consider myself a star and the main character in my life?

I would look for help and collaboration with people who really inspire me.

So, let’s do that.

October 19: Bounce Back Big, day 24 – broaden my scope

Hello October,

Friday is here, and I am back 🙂

I continue my Bounce Back Big journal, although I missed writing for a week;

What on … have I been doing?

I have advanced in my projects, so there is something collaborative that I put together, I found help to polish my CV and I might have resolved some of my practical issues.

Still, some ideas are on the basis of a potential, and I probably need to decide myself what is the absolute priority:

The priority, is to continue developing my creative project.

I need the help of other talented people for this.

But I also need the right environment, with the culture that promotes this type of activities.

Is it London?

I need to broaden my scope in the world, if I don’t want to repeat what happened to me in Paris. I was trying so desperately to fit in, desperately because my working culture is different, and I knew I didn’t really want to give up my creativity for this.

So?

I need to keep my eyes open

Starting from an action today.

What is up in other continents for example?

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September 28-30, 2018- Bounce Back Big days 11-13

Hello September,

you want to know if I have been doing something to go in the direction of my dreams?

Well, on Friday, I send an application, not with much conviction, to be honest.

On Saturday, I contacted a friend who is a coach: I thought I needed an outside opinion.

I am waiting for the budget to see if I can afford it right now.

How about some psychological support?

I would take some, with pleasure: as long as it’s free and quality.

So?

Any news?

After taking half the day off, I started to panick.

Then, I read about being master of my emotions and thoughts.

It’s the only way I can go forward. But on the other side, accepting and feeling compassionate of myself for not always being on TOP, it’s also important.

Yes, I am a weak human being.

I am afraid, and I don’t know if I have succeeded my goals.

Plus, I have put some family members in danger with my big projects, I asked them to support.

So, now what?

If I start punishing myself, is this going to help?

No.

Yesterday, when I was wondering in central London, feeling bored, I realized something.

I might invent some problems because I don’t want to deal with a basic question:

Where can I do something creative, feel at home and live from it with similar-minded people ever after?

Maybe there is one way to find about that:

If I suggest something that others might also want to follow 😉

If not, at least I will feel free to do what I want

April 29, 2018- How to turn sadness into creativity

Hello April,

my spring break involved some challenges on family member’s health problems, and here I am, in my hometown, dealing with challenging realities and feelings.

My fears are not only with that, but with the kind of impact it can have into my life. Because, let’s face it, there is some percentage of selfishness in our worry for people close to us.

So, how can I choose a better feeling thought?

To begin with, this experience, helps me put things into perspective. Job insecurity, money or other similar questions are secondary to health.

Then, it’s like, how about feeling I have been struggling in a certain direction without getting into a place where I can say, I have accomplished something I can keep with me.

A place to rest. As if my successes were not stepping-stones.

But is this true?

Not really.

Actually, I have learnt to rebound after pretty challenging situations.

Somehow, I found solutions.

I have become resilient.

Then, let’s face it, security was not my number 1 goal.

A meaningful experience is my goal.

And I feel gratitude towards myself and others, to have worked in this direction.

I feel grateful for my friends standing by me.

I feel grateful for the wonderful job I have been doing.

These are challenging times for everyone. We need to give it our best.

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April 4, 2018- Day 2 – April challenge- where is my energy?

Hello April,

I decided to wake up early, but today, after opening one eye at 7.00, the second one opened at 9.00

It has been a kind of full day yesterday, and I was up at 5.00, but the thing is how to maintain a stable rhythm instead of doing something just once.

I promised to make things move in a new direction. The world needs us, so let’s do our best; but right now I don’t feel I have a lot of energy!

So how do I generate energy?

I promised a lot of things, and today I feel like going back to sleep!!!

Instead, I get a green juice and I look at my art classes for tomorrow; in the meanwhile I am exploring the possibilities for another opening… in the UK or elsewhere in the world;

I have an art portfolio that needs to get organised, and I also want to make time for writing.

How do I do this?

Probably by starting right away.

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