October 24, 2018- Bounce Back Big day 27- today is my lucky day

Hello October,

I just had a setback I was expecting: I had a NO from a gallery I was collaborating with last year, I did some work for them, and now I asked for a job. The person I was working with and I was counting on supporting me, pulled out.

Now what?

I was kind of expecting it, since she was silent the last time I emailed her.

I went out for a coffee.

At the same time, I have this killer project. This mentality of theirs is defensive of privileges.

How about mine?

I am used to being rejected actually, because I always felt as a minority.

But did I really like the way these people worked?

Deep down, I think they are conventionally good but boring. I went there for the name of the gallery.

It can be important.

Maybe, I can start from giving value to myself.

How did my last relationship end?

In a similar way.

With someone who was not appreciating my full value.

Am I appreciating myself enough?

What would I do if I consider myself a star and the main character in my life?

I would look for help and collaboration with people who really inspire me.

So, let’s do that.

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October 19: Bounce Back Big, day 24 – broaden my scope

Hello October,

Friday is here, and I am back 🙂

I continue my Bounce Back Big journal, although I missed writing for a week;

What on … have I been doing?

I have advanced in my projects, so there is something collaborative that I put together, I found help to polish my CV and I might have resolved some of my practical issues.

Still, some ideas are on the basis of a potential, and I probably need to decide myself what is the absolute priority:

The priority, is to continue developing my creative project.

I need the help of other talented people for this.

But I also need the right environment, with the culture that promotes this type of activities.

Is it London?

I need to broaden my scope in the world, if I don’t want to repeat what happened to me in Paris. I was trying so desperately to fit in, desperately because my working culture is different, and I knew I didn’t really want to give up my creativity for this.

So?

I need to keep my eyes open

Starting from an action today.

What is up in other continents for example?

Résultat de recherche d'images pour "broaden scope"

 

 

September 28-30, 2018- Bounce Back Big days 11-13

Hello September,

you want to know if I have been doing something to go in the direction of my dreams?

Well, on Friday, I send an application, not with much conviction, to be honest.

On Saturday, I contacted a friend who is a coach: I thought I needed an outside opinion.

I am waiting for the budget to see if I can afford it right now.

How about some psychological support?

I would take some, with pleasure: as long as it’s free and quality.

So?

Any news?

After taking half the day off, I started to panick.

Then, I read about being master of my emotions and thoughts.

It’s the only way I can go forward. But on the other side, accepting and feeling compassionate of myself for not always being on TOP, it’s also important.

Yes, I am a weak human being.

I am afraid, and I don’t know if I have succeeded my goals.

Plus, I have put some family members in danger with my big projects, I asked them to support.

So, now what?

If I start punishing myself, is this going to help?

No.

Yesterday, when I was wondering in central London, feeling bored, I realized something.

I might invent some problems because I don’t want to deal with a basic question:

Where can I do something creative, feel at home and live from it with similar-minded people ever after?

Maybe there is one way to find about that:

If I suggest something that others might also want to follow 😉

If not, at least I will feel free to do what I want

April 29, 2018- How to turn sadness into creativity

Hello April,

my spring break involved some challenges on family member’s health problems, and here I am, in my hometown, dealing with challenging realities and feelings.

My fears are not only with that, but with the kind of impact it can have into my life. Because, let’s face it, there is some percentage of selfishness in our worry for people close to us.

So, how can I choose a better feeling thought?

To begin with, this experience, helps me put things into perspective. Job insecurity, money or other similar questions are secondary to health.

Then, it’s like, how about feeling I have been struggling in a certain direction without getting into a place where I can say, I have accomplished something I can keep with me.

A place to rest. As if my successes were not stepping-stones.

But is this true?

Not really.

Actually, I have learnt to rebound after pretty challenging situations.

Somehow, I found solutions.

I have become resilient.

Then, let’s face it, security was not my number 1 goal.

A meaningful experience is my goal.

And I feel gratitude towards myself and others, to have worked in this direction.

I feel grateful for my friends standing by me.

I feel grateful for the wonderful job I have been doing.

These are challenging times for everyone. We need to give it our best.

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https://www.facebook.com/climbingmagazine/

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/10/29/how-to-turn-negative-emot_n_4158113.html

 

April 4, 2018- Day 2 – April challenge- where is my energy?

Hello April,

I decided to wake up early, but today, after opening one eye at 7.00, the second one opened at 9.00

It has been a kind of full day yesterday, and I was up at 5.00, but the thing is how to maintain a stable rhythm instead of doing something just once.

I promised to make things move in a new direction. The world needs us, so let’s do our best; but right now I don’t feel I have a lot of energy!

So how do I generate energy?

I promised a lot of things, and today I feel like going back to sleep!!!

Instead, I get a green juice and I look at my art classes for tomorrow; in the meanwhile I am exploring the possibilities for another opening… in the UK or elsewhere in the world;

I have an art portfolio that needs to get organised, and I also want to make time for writing.

How do I do this?

Probably by starting right away.

https://www.hypnosisdownloads.com/motivation-inspiration/energy-booster

 

 

April 3 to May 3 2018- 30 day challenge- Getting the full-time job

Hello April,

here I am, with a month as a deadline to get myself the job to complete the part-time I have or to start a new one altogether.

I was told that hugging trees is giving you good energy, so now that the time is better I might try it and see how it goes.

Climbing trees is more difficult, so I will keep to the hugging part.

The most important thing, is my why, and I have one, related to creating.

I have been reading something on heuristics today and the kind of mistakes we make regarding our everyday judgements in uncertainty.

We could be a little bit as the different characters of this painting, part of a bigger complex, but now always aware of it 🙂

So, how to make the best decision when we ignore the whole picture?

We can ask around, pray, read, google our question… 🙂

https://maddoxgallery.co.uk/press-release/dan-baldwin-a-new-optimism/

April 2, 2018- Blog-anniversary: celebrating 4 years!

Dear April,

four years ago, I started a blog, a type of journal, in a dialogical style. I was persecuted by a hideous wannabee boss, and I was in and out of contracts in Paris.

Four years after, I moved to London, and although I am on a part-time job, a lot of things have been accomplished.

Already, four-year blogging is a reason to celebrate in itself!

One book published (in my mother tongue), new friends,

but also,

one or two love affairs that didn’t flourish and

some debt.

So?

Where to, now “April”?

Initially, I was to write for three months and see if my life would be transformed.

After four years, I feel more assertive and empowered, although, for some things, I might feel at a loss.

When an old wound is touched, I still feel vulnerable, and it hurts.

I need to decide if my job hunt is going to take me even further, geographically speaking.

And where is the best spot to pursue my dreams further.

This trailer somehow expresses my state of mind 😉

March 21, 2018-Spring Equinox, time for re-generation, RIGHT NOW

Hello March,

 

I had tequila last night to celebrate the spring equinox, but even if it was just a glass, my head is not very clear this morning. Anyway, it was worth it because it triggered some dancing 🙂

Now, coffee, this other drug and fuel for life.

The neighbours are still having last summers plastic flamingoes on the balcony.

So, let’s do the job, as my friend Samurai Robert suggested.

And let’s go to the gym also.

So, shouldn’t I wait for another second?

No?

NOW right now is the moment.

I am writing this email, I am concentrating and focusing on my purpose.

It is a sunny day, and the first day of spring.

Haven’t we hibernated long enough, those of us who are in the north hemisphere?

For those in the south, a beautiful autumn is around the corner, and it is also such a beautiful season!

March 12, 2018- When we are faced with a choice: ask a better question!

Dear March,

have you ever been faced with a choice? Like, which is the best way to go, this or that career, person, house, bicycle, toy, …

Probably, when we have a dilemma, it’s because we ask the question in the wrong terms. No way is exactly equivalent as another for us, and at the same time, they all lead to the same place.

So, when we are faced with a dilemma, I think that we ask the wrong question.

And we should probably take both options, or none.

And even better, ask another question!

 

 

March 7, 2018- How to find like-minded people

Hello March,

so, I realize doing everything by myself is not the easiest thing to do… and yet, how do we find like-minded, positive and competent people who want to go in the same direction?

Facing reality, is a big thing.

So, I could start from that.

That helps knowing in which direction we are going.

https://gpala.org/2015/12/17/interested-in-starting-a-group-but-dont-know-where-to-begin/