happy St Valentin to you too!
happy St Valentin to you too!
this is a day to congratulate myself, for the GOOD WORK I have been doing all along, and to encourage me to continue!
So I give me an A+ and I will treat me to something special.
This is independently from results, and from circumstances which might seem to be challenging.
They will come to their senses.
If I don’t acknowledge my efforts, why should the others do it?
Honestly, if I saw a candidate like myself, I would hire me right away and make sure I would have enough incentives to stay 😉
After this, I feel I can also tell the people whose work I appreciate, that I do.
Because it feels good when someone else tells you also!
I decided to write once a day, and this morning I started a bit later than I wanted to.
I had two meetings and although people like what I do, they don’t seem to want to engage with it. They are more like, go ahead and if it succeeds I will be there, if not, I will be standing here watching you.
Would I need a change of orientation?
Approaching different type of people?
Stay at home and do nothing?
Or continue my efforts no matter what?
There is a deadline for me, and that is, end of September.
I need to get my sh..t together by then.
And see if I will stay in London, and what other options I have.
So, you and I September, need to keep a close look at each other.
I found a book on this topic, let’s hope it brings some good ideas!
does it make a difference if you are dressed on a suit or with jeans and snickers? I had a conversation with a British Musician playing rock music. He thought people in suits don’t always treat him with respect in everyday interactions.
I have also observed that when I fall out of bed in the morning and go for coffee in my home-jeans with my hair messed up, I might get refused to plug-in my computer, whereas another day I am welcomed. Oh, and that day I have put some make up on and I am more carefully dressed.
Should appearances define the way we are perceived?
Am I doing the same thing on my side?
I couldn’t say that I am completely innocent, hmm…
In any case, should we pay more attention in the ’emballage’ or the content? Make sure are work is of good quality, or pay attention to the packaging of our ideas? Or maybe both?
Wouldn’t it be great to be able to delegate?
Should we just conform or be rebel and creative instead?
What do you think?
In any case, I have decided to get up earlier and resolve the packaging issues as soon as possible!
have I mentioned that one of my objectives is to walk as much as possible and it seems that I have succeeded in the last two days… at the same time all this walking leaves space for soul-searching…
Should I stay or should I go?
Should I go out with the charming German writer I met last week or should I try more with Portuguese artist?
Is getting another job compatible with me writing a book?
These thoughts and even more, while dancing in Nancy Sinatra’s:
“These Boots are made for Walking”
so there is this blogger meeting, the Blogger’s Bash I intend to attend for the first time, and meet people who share the same passion: writing and publishing something on line on a regular basis!
In the meanwhile, I have been dealing with practical questions: how to keep my environment organized, satisfy my flatmate who thinks I don’t clean the surfaces in the Kitchen every time I finish cooking -she might have a point- with creative writing, organizing my next artistic event and also looking for funding opportunities for another round in the UK.
Hmmm… and last but not least, I need to walk more than 15.000 steps a day so that our team wins the trophee at the working platform I am attached to.
So, where is the time for romance? Passion? Exhuberation? Soul searching?
To be honest, I start from soul-searching and being open to inspiration.
This is why I can forget spraying Dettol on the kitchen or to put my clothes in order.
This is also the reason why I start my working day after lunch.
And why I finish so late!
Do I want to change that?
I like writing late, the feeling that I am the only person around.
There is something rebellious about it, I am not sure I can find early in the morning.
What do you think?
I have been facing a major dilemma since I came back to London. Should I return in September, as it was initially my plan or should I continue in London for yet another year? It is kind of tricky because I like the environment in London but still I don’t know if it is financially affordable in my current circumstances.
But going back to Paris didn’t feel like the right thing to do. So my decision is to stay in London for another year, and to create the conditions for this to be possible.
Not to speak of emotional questions that are like a roller coaster.
So, what is the best thing to do in this case?
Now, you might say how about your other decision to write daily? What happened to that one?
I did the best I could my dear, and I am here again to pick up from where I have left my last challenge.
how do we break through repetitive patterns in our life ? For example, having a crush for guys who are not available, or not into us or … or… or..? Girl-talk with two of my friends -who are almost single- brought up this question.
What is “almost single” or “almost” in a couple? Seing someone you are not exactly into, or not considering it a relationship but still having a lot of elements that would define a relationship. For example, you date this person often, and repeatedly in time. You have met each other’s friends.
On the other hand, you don’t consider yourself being in a relationship because you are not sure this is what you want; or the other person has made it clear this is not his definition of a relationship; or something in between. Or you don’t feel in love and you are just waiting for someone else to make your heart beat. Someone less normal maybe.
Now, the three of us agreed there is something dysfunctional about it. Friend no 1 is almost in a relationship with someone she almost likes but she is not sure this is the one. Friend no 2 is willing to fall in love but goes through an indifference period. No one she likes to be found. I go through an almost relationship and imaginary crush period.
Yesterday I met again my imaginary crush and asked myself why I blushed when the object of my attention came for the traditional greeting “bise”, or two kisses on the cheeks. Haven’t I had enough of this almost friendship? Isn’t it boring not to meet someone for real?
Dear May, please fix all this sentimental issues, summer is coming and lovely hearts need to find their right place!
have you met the fairy Gunnmother? You’d better not, she doesn’t seem a very friendly kind of person. I am talking of course about a character from the book of Daniel Pennac, a book waiting for me to open and finally… read it!
Usually, you read these books at school, but if you have passed them by, it is something rediscovering them as a grown-up (more or less). I read this summer the first of the series, and after all, Daniel Pennac is part of the OULIPO literary circle that I particularly appreciate 🙂
It seems that a dose of suspense, romance and humor is my kind of thing.
I have read the first one, “The Scapegoat”, this summer, and for some reason I did all these irrelevant things (falling in and out of love, and in again, leaving and returning to Paris, … blogging) and I finally come back to the second book.
Benjamin Malaussène is again the main character. Quiet different from Victor Legris that I started to find attractive. Benjamin is not someone who lives with his foster-father after his 30s. Benjamin is foster-father to his younger brothers and sisters. And a scapegoat to people who look for someone to blame. His love life? “Tante” Juliette. No, she is not his aunt. She is a journalist, and someone who finally helps him out a little bit in more than one ways.
Benjamin lives with his family in Belleville, a Parisian neighborhood open to migrants of different origins, and much more than that of course.
The book starts with a murder: an old lady shoots a young policemen without apparent reason.
To be continued…
could you and March put together a miracle for me?
Or should I do everything myself? Come on! I need an extra lucky configuration where a lot of people collaborate with me and/or are particularly favorable to my artistic project and myself. By March 12.
I need loads of inspiration and the motivation to ask for help in an enthusiastic way – this has not been my strongest point until now.
Let’s say that I would prefer everything handed to me on a silver platter.
“Here you are April: do you need millions of euros, the best working conditions, an office with a view to the river, to make your dream reality?
How about a foot massage?
Or a group of cheerleaders following you around in order to encourage you? “Go for it April, Yes you can! ”
Or/and a powerful mentor who says “this is IT”!
Yes, I would love all these and more. But the first step might be to cheer myself up and believe it is possible to deliver in this deadline.
After all, I need to try in order to see 🙂