July 10, 2020- Day 2 out of 66 for new habit

Hello July,

what, I forgot to tell you which habit I am aiming for? Indeed, I practically did. Should I count day one again?

So, here I am again this morning, in my parents’ home in the South of France, having my morning coffee and journaling.

I mean to feel deserving for good things and doing one thing for myself every day. Feeling so overwhelmed and guilty that I am not answering everyone’s demands in perfection doesn’t take me very far.

So? Feel that I deserve a holiday, and taking care of my hair, style, maybe stopping some chocolate and coffee? Hmm, I will go back to 70% or more chocolate and eh, I have two coffees in the morning. Make it one?

Deserving the best for us, and forgiving ourselves for our mistakes, celebrating our accomplishments.

https://beyoutifulliving.wordpress.com/tag/i-deserve-the-best-and-i-accept-the-best-now/

 

July 4, 2020-Inspiration from Hamilton musical

Hello July,

Freedom is so important, to be, to feel, to write, to breath, to become!

A tribute to Independence Day, and to Independence from anything that holds us back, to become our fully developed selves, in respect for others who also are in their development path.

After slowing down for the second part of June, I realise it is important to be and feel authentic, going in the direction that inspires us and respecting who we are.

What kind of new habit to start in July?

Journaling everyday, and going back to fiction writing.

Reading literature,

Writing Poetry

Finding time and making space to be, feel and look our best!

Smiling to ourselves in the mirror every day,

We did it!

Some inspiration from the musical “Hamilton” : Hamilton-poster.jpg

https://theconversation.com/hamilton-the-diverse-musical-with-representation-problems-141473

May 23, 2020- Accelerating from home!

Hello May,

big part of spring has been spent in my hometown and in my parents’ home with the cat. It felt better to isolate with them and get back a glimpse of my childhood, childhood tv series and reads.

And this time, being grateful just to be with everything else being closed.

On the other hand, when everything was closing down, it seemed that I was accelerating.

I almost finished some manuscripts left a while ago.

Ok, I also had a rejection.

But there are also some opportunities in the horizon.

Got back to my novel.

Finding a way to be creative in the present, might be the best thing to do!

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May 18, 2020- Transforming guilt to creativity

Hey, May,

how is it going? I am prone to feeling guilty because I don’t fulfil everybody’s demands, and all those I ask of myself.

But this is just a trap.

Why would I fulfil everything in the first place?

Because it’s my job and I am payed for it?

Or because I am a daughter, a partner, a sister, a …?

Hmm, let’s start from the job. It seems that even if I work most of the day, there is more to do. How about pleasure? It would have to be through my job because there is not much left outside. Ok, there is the cat. My parents’ cat.

So maybe, I need to start from doing something nurturing and fulfilling for myself. And then, when I am satisfied, I become productive. How about that?

And instead of waiting for something to come, I put myself to writing again. Creative writing. Because writing without adjective, is what we do when we email people.

Being creative, that’s what I need not to feel guilty to myself!!!

Let’s allow ourselves to be creative!!!

https://www.wikihow.com/Be-Creative

Image titled Be Creative Step 2

May 13, 2020- How not to stress for other people’s priorities

Hello May,

I think I got a lot of things done, but staying with my parents during lockdown also adds their responsibilities to my already full schedule. Meaning, I stressed up.

Old house, repairs to be done, and not really the moment I have a big bank account.

That’s why I decided to get a promotion.

A better job.

And to play Lotto.

In the meanwhile, I might decide if other people should dictate my life and schedule. Yes, everything looks like an emergency. People have different priorities. And perspectives. Something is vital for one, insignificant for the other.

And overall, they can manage so well with or without me.

But if I take everything in, I will not manage anything;

They might not like my style.

But guess what,

it’s the only one I have for now.

To keep “saine d’esprit”, in other words,

to Keep Calm and Carry On!

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May 9 and 10, 2020- Doubts and light at the end of the tunnel

Hello May,

yes, on Saturday I had a bad mood: no sign of my colleague who proposed a collaboration. Maybe she didn’t like my work, maybe I tried for nothing…

I kind of felt disempowered. …

And on top of that … family issues…

But Sunday, was another day!

I started with Beatles: Here comes the sun!

And apparently, it’s. good choice!

My colleague responded: there is an interest from an editor, but we need to work out something by the end of May… OMG!

May 2, 2020- How to stay Open-minded in lockdown- Josef Albers

Hello May,

how do we stay OPEN in lockdown? Artwork, could be the answer! This is the work “Open” by Josef Albers from the free online collection of the Guggenheim museum. Let’s take a walk there.

Saturday almost morning, and after my second coffee and finding the right recipe for lunch, I get back to a busy weekend. I am going to mark some papers, so all my attention and focus is needed.

Have a nice Saturday also, whatever you do!

 

Open (b)

Josef Albers, Open (b), December 1940. Oil on Masonite, 19 7/8 x 19 5/8 inches (50.5 x 49.8 cm)

April 16, 2020- Having a plan when we work from home with other people

Hello April,

this morning, after playing with the cat, I bought presents online, for my godson whose birthday is close, and I also send him a nice cake. The thing is, I spent all morning in this successful endeavour, and then I realised I couldn’t concentrate on work.

Instead of that, I played an online game.

Yes, I did.

How responsible of me, since I am “working from home” and my workload isn’t getting lighter?

This is why I stressed.

I had a reason.

This reminds me of my school years, when I had some issues concentrating which affected my productivity.

But I grew up.

I faced these challenges and conquered them.

That is why I am an adult.

Then how do I make a significant change?

Again, I want to be more active in the house.

Make a plan and stick to it, can help.

For example, I am torn between everyday work, work for something I write and household related stuff.

And in all this, something must be fun also.

47 Printable Daily Planner Templates (FREE in Word/Excel/PDF)

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April 15, 2020- Do we matter in a Covid19 lockdown period? Dance, concentrate, act!

Hello April,

here are we, the lucky ones, working from home, because others are not well and others have to risk their lives more often and we are so grateful for that …

How do we concentrate when times flies, uniform and external boundaries are no longer there to place a limit?

As artists, or writers, we know something about it…

I find it hard to concentrate the last couple of days… having also a feeling of powerlessness to act in a meaningful way.

What if it were not the case?

Planning and sticking to the plan could be a way to tackle this.

Finding also time to connect and to take action -using social media or other forms- diffusing information from health authorities, funding in our limited way meaningful initiatives…

such as the research on the vaccine and the cure of COVID-19

And then go back to our everyday tasks and act act and act again again and again!

And most of all, Dance, Dance and Dance!

At home, in our room, corridor, stairs!

Because dancing is sooo good for our brains!

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-athletes-way/201310/why-is-dancing-so-good-your-brain

 

8 Benefits of Ballet

 

April 13, 2020- Old wounds masked as today’s lack of confidence

Hello April,

why haven’t I finished my work? Why didn’t I submit it after all the work I have put on it? Why have I left my stuff in Paris abandoned?

Because I thought I couldn’t face all these challenges and then I felt that the sky was falling on my head as Astrerix and Obelix in the famous cartoon would say.

But after all, all wounds are there and they stir up the sauce even if I pretend to ignore them.

Can I do something?

Let’s finish my work, to begin with.

As if it were somebody else’s.

Let’s act.

Let’s accept those hurt feelings and honour this girl who went through all these.

My past self.

Image titled Forgive Yourself Step 14

https://www.wikihow.com/Heal-Old-Wounds