April 21- success stories

Here is another important post of the beginning of this blog: how do I define success? And is there any change three months later? A question I need to answer very soon 🙂

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April hello again,

My hometown challenge continues. I have avoided serious work and spent time walking around and chatting with former neighbors who happened to be at my favorite local café.

I am tempted to lie when I am asked about what I do: to present an idealized picture of my life in Paris: did I make it?

After all, I don’t owe the truth to everybody I meet.

But I owe the truth to myself.

What is success to me?

I would have liked to live from what I love to do: writing, and event organizing for example.

And to share my life with people who can connect and co-create with me.

Is the Platform the place for that? It is a school, where I learnt a lot –or at least so I think –  on human beings, relationships, diplomacy. I also have a chance to meet with international…

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April 26 – my philosophy

“My philosophy” as expressed at the first steps of my blog in April, in order for me to reflect of the time that has passed and the way it has evolved 🙂

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Dear April,

Today I continued playing in a lower key: for the first part of the day, I planned a meeting with one of my best friends. She used to live in Paris. It was time to catch up, especially since the weather was nice and we enjoyed siting outside. We talked about ourselves, families, friends, plans.

Then, I took a walk by myself, towards the old town: I watched the beautiful view, looked at the clouds passing by and meditated. It is important to be a realist, but also to have dreams and objectives. At least this is my philosophy: to keep my feet on the ground and the head in the clouds.

When there is a will, there is a way. And there is a will, if there is a dream. What is my purpose? I want my novel to be published and then translate it in English.

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April 6: what to transform from

Three of the artists of the event organized in the South of France have followed me in my hometown; I continue sleeping three to four hours a day -half working and half partying- so my brain refuses to compose proper sentences; a reblog of my objectives in starting this blog, a reminder of what I want to transform from 🙂

april4june6: A journal of self-tranformation

Hello April,

here I am again! Sundays are for me days for introspection, since my rhythm changes, compared to the rest of the week.

Actually it has been a week since I started this blog-journal, in order to transform myself and achieve my objectives:

1. Find and be found by True Love

2. Get a “real” job in my field: one I can live from, and be abundant.

But what is my starting point?

I realize there are two beliefs that have been blocking me until now:

a. a belief that love is alienating, and if you have it, you lose your freedom and way to self-fulfillment

b. the idea that success is alienating, because in order to succeed you “sell your soul to the devil”, in other words, you have to give up your freedom, creativity, and even wild side

These beliefs have not served me very well; do I…

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April 29 – the star

My hometown visits usually make me compare past and present, reflect on what the future can be 🙂 I reblog one of my favorite posts of my former visit.

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Dear April,

Today I had a meeting with a former literature professor at school, a big favorite, who also became a writer. He is now close to retirement from civil service, but his writing career continues.

It was great seeing him again!

We met at the café, and between two bites of croissant and a coffee, we managed to catch up for last year. He was advising me on publishing houses for my book. Another friend of his joined after a while, and he told her I was a “star” student, and continued being a star.

Now a “guest star” in my hometown and hopefully a star in Paris, I thought. In case Parisians haven’t realized it yet, I will help them open their eyes soon… 🙂

I also treated him as a rock star, when he explained that a student was harassing him and he had to hide in…

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April 14- visiting my hometown

I just arrived in my hometown. My former visit was three months ago, so I reblog a post written at the time. I want to draw a parallel between what happened then and now 🙂

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April, how is it going?

Blossoming?

I had a dream tonight, that I went to my hometown and met a former schoolmate who got married and had three children. We were discussing what happened in our lives -hers who never left home- and mine who went to the big city to fulfil my destiny. We realized with had more in common than I could have thought.

In reality, I did go to my hometown, to visit my parents. I arrived late at night, took a taxi that was waiting at the train station, and had a long discussion with the taxi driver, between 1.00 and 1.30 in the morning. A woman in her mid-forties; married at 18, three children. Her husband died when she was 27. He was the love of her life-up to now. She never had a serious relationship after. She dedicated herself to her three children who…

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April 28- Ruby Sparks

Dear July,
my artistic event in the South of France is just over; I was too busy to blog for the last few days, and now I came to rest in my hometown, at my parent’s home. I reblog a post I like from April, until I catch my breath 🙂

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Dear April,

You want to know if I am advancing in my search for true love?

I haven’t been dating in my hometown, not exactly.

Talking to friends or watching a film, doesn’t qualify.

To begin with, what is true love?

The day ended with the film “Ruby Sparks”, written by Zoe Kazan, who personifies the role of Ruby.

To make a long story short, a young writer who has published a bestseller as an adolescent, is alone and lonely. He starts writing about his ideal woman who somehow comes into life and appears in his apartment out of the blue. She becomes his girlfriend.

Ruby, that is her name, meets his brother and rest of the family. She has become part of his reality. But this is not enough to make him happy; the ideal woman is ready to leave him. As he tries to stop her, he reveals…

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July 24- Lost in Transit: at a Zurich hotel :-)

Hello dear July,

I wouldn’t have imagined writing from a Zürich hotel by the airport tonight. When I was leaving my home in Paris this morning, little did I suspect the adventure I was about to experience.

What am I doing here? Well, I had the idea to visit a friend in Milan via a Zurich, because the flight with Swiss Air was cheaper. And Swiss Air way delayed due to bad weather conditions in the Alps.

So here I am, in my transit hotel Allegra, after I had some chicken salad. Just before the bar closed. The place is ok, other “lost” passengers were also scattered between the tables.I remember them from the “Transfer” office. Some were going to Germany, others to Italy as well.

The receptionist of the hotel is born the same day as me, that created a connection and made me feel welcome. Is it always better to go for the cheapest solution? At this point, when the event I have been organizing is in just a few days?

Maybe not. I need to be at the South of France by the end of the week. What was I thinking?

But I needed to get away a little bit, and it seemed like a good opportunity for a change. Now I will wonder from one European airport to the other.

I had learnt in geometry that that the shortest way between to points is a straight line. Why not stick to that lesson?

Is there any logic in transiting? For the people who travel? I had an oncle who tought me another lesson: when you want to go somewhere and the road is blocked, you find another way. So this is the logic of the transit. It doesn’t matter that it takes longer. The essential thing is to get there. And then, there is something to learn from transitions also.

A transition is an adventure, and I love adventures. Fighting for some cause. Like in the films where the super or simple heroes accomplish a mission, meet strange creatures, win battles, fall in love, become wiser.

So, I don’t know if it was wise or irresponsible to book this particular flight, but here I am. And I will make the best out of it.

July 23- Between two choices: two jobs, two men?

Dear July,

how to decide between two options when we don’t have enough information on either? It could be two job opportunities, as the case of my friend K, or two relationship possibilities.

In the case of two romantic partners, if strong feelings are involved, a choice has already been made 🙂 But if we are at the beginning, and there is just an attraction. For both. They seem interesting in one way or another. Let’s say that one is an excellent cook. But I don’t know enough about his other qualities. And the second is someone we share common interests and values. But maybe his cooking sucks and he could also snores at night.

And you can’t date them both because they are in the same social environment and they would know about it. Then what?

It is already positive to have a choice. There are times when we would get any offer made, without giving it any thought. But it is not always the best thing to do.

So how do we decide when we don’t have enough information to judge what is best?

And how do we keep our options open, respecting our freedom of choice but also the other’s feelings?

My friend K is between a job in Paris, that seems stable for the next five years at least.

And a temporary job in London, which looks like an interesting experience.

In Paris, there seems to be more stability, and her status is better.

In London, there is instability and the contract she is offered doesn’t seem as good but appears exciting.

What would be the best way to act?

http://queendiaries.com/how-to-choose-between-two-guys/ is giving advice on the romantic partner dilemma

July 22- How to be both the Cricket and the Ant?

Do you know this story July?

“The cricket had sung her song
all summer long
but found her victuals too few
when the north wind blew
Nowhere could she espy
a single morsel of worm or fly.

Her neighbor, the ant, might,
she thought, help her in her plight…”

Well, you probably have no idea about the north wind. You listen to the cricket sing and enjoy it, but according to this story and its morale, singing is not “working”. How about blogging? Painting? Dancing?  Should artists be in the cold during the winter time? Is there only one type of work that should be rewarded?

Anyway, I have been both during the winter time: a cricket and an ant; had both fun and also worked for different projects.

Now it feels like I need a small vacation. To sing close to the seaside, close to nature, to dance, to love and be loved. We need to let go a little bit and just enjoy the fact of being alive, sing because the weather is good (I am not talking about Paris today), or because we had something nice to eat or drink. Or because we saw a beautiful person; etc, etc, etc.

Does singing and dancing involve intimacy? Eh, maybe they serve to attract someone in the first place.

How do we transform attraction into intimacy? Where we meet in all the possible meanings of the word?

By sharing the same lifestyle and the same values? An ant that lives with an ant, a cricket with a cricket?

Or a cricket with an ant? It could be a better match in my opinion. In this way, the cricket would have food and shelter in the winter. And the ant would loosen up a bit and learn to enjoy life in the company of the cricket. And even dance.

But neither should be judgemental of the other.

I thing this could be a happy marriage.

Also when it comes to ourselves: we could let our “cricket-side” embrace our “ant-side”.

And become more complete 🙂

 

http://www.bewilderingstories.com/issue209/cigale.html

http://www.spotlight-online.de/language/vocabulary/opposites-attract

July 21- Lazy Monday in a Busy Week

Dear July,

no, I don’t mean that I have been laying in bed all day. Allthough I took a 30 minute siesta in the afternoon. What I mean is, I need superpowers for the week of my artistic event in the South of France. And shopping isn’t the first priority. But it is what I did first today.

I looked for a pair of shorts, it is going to be hot, I hope, by the seaside. In Paris, you have showered us with rain and then it was sunny again. Shorts were not needed the whole day. I left the store, but then I realized that a pair of eggplant color pants, would look great. So I returned to get them. I also looked for a small suitcase that could be suitable for flying.

I was turning from one place to another, until I found my bliss.

Shouldn’t I prepare for my own performance at the artistic event? Yes. I spent an hour with it. Not enough I am afraid.

And then, there is the next step of the project funding, but frankly, I don’t see how I can manage it before my trip.

Is it better to start with the most important thing in our list? Or the most difficult? Or the most agreeable? In order to keep oneself in a good mood?

Is it better to risk stressing up at the beginning in the middle or towards the end of a task?

How about being at ease and enjoying oneself the whole time?

I vote for this option.

 

The artistic event of July 26 should be fun for everyone, including me.

With eggplant color pants or shorts.

P.S. At least it is a color present in the fall-winter designs! Lyn Devon’s designs presented in the blog of Nina Elsa Coco

http://www.ninaelsacoco.com/tag/tendance/