after my first week in my new job, I feel like I am asked to do a lot, and I am a bit behind. Probably because this is part-time, and I have another objective that also requires dedication and focus.
And in all this, I caught myself doubting and feeling discouraged and stressed-up.
Memories of times when I wasn’t on my top came back.
It felt as if I don’t play enough.
How do I dissolve this negative self-talk?
By making every moment enjoyable.
By taking other people on the ride with me.
I have reversed tendencies many times.
By eating more healthy food.
More and better.
All these fearful ideas are my past self conceptions, based on other people.
Do I want to take them over?
How about having a definition and imposing it?
But still, respecting other people’s needs.
yes, this is not exactly an expression with Christmas spirit, more like a corrida in Spain expression, but as the year drives towards the end, you realize there are things you need to accomplish, still there.
So, what to do?
Or, take the bull by the horns?
The last seems better.
It’s like, taking action and facing right away the biggest fear, or what the oponent has the most fearful first.
In my case, I need to write that email NOW
Winter is coming with you, and it’s a good thing to see things more clearly, the naked tree branches and a more minimalistic aspect of nature!
For me, adventure is here:
I need to move out of my current room by Saturday, and the studio didn’t work because they were asking the 6 months in advance plus expenses plus agency plus deposit.
There is another possibility coming up, but I need all my “sang-froid” or my cool and relaxed attitude to make it work.
The Samurai or Ninja attitude.
so I found myself a studio, and when I thought I could move in, the agent asks for 6 months rents in advance because my part-time job is not satisfactory enough in his eyes.
I need to leave where I stay now, and it is a very busy time to start searching again.
The ideal solution would be another job to manifest right away.
The second, to get Santa sent me the money in advance.
And the third, to keep searching…
Is there another I didn’t already think about?
Feel free to offer some advice!
yes, I know this is the time for the leaves to fall down as winter is coming… but couldn’t we flourish as humans despite this fact?
How can this be possible?
Here is a great idea: November, is a writing month. So, let’s put oneself into this novel again!
this is a day to congratulate myself, for the GOOD WORK I have been doing all along, and to encourage me to continue!
So I give me an A+ and I will treat me to something special.
This is independently from results, and from circumstances which might seem to be challenging.
They will come to their senses.
If I don’t acknowledge my efforts, why should the others do it?
Honestly, if I saw a candidate like myself, I would hire me right away and make sure I would have enough incentives to stay 😉
After this, I feel I can also tell the people whose work I appreciate, that I do.
Because it feels good when someone else tells you also!
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Sep · 29
I said goodbye to the gallery I was working part-time yesterday. It was something expected, but I was hoping to stay for another month, the time to figure things out for me.
But the essential thing is to be somewhere I can shine not just linger.
London, should I stay or should I go?
I have plans and goals.
I have jumped in the unknown when I came here from Paris.
The essential thing is the purpose.
And the purpose is to create in the best conditions, in the way that will benefit others also.
So, I need to be open.
To begin with, I will contact everybody I know for information.
And those I don’t know also.
I woke up early as promised, although I have gone for coffee only at 8.00. I am to go to a gallery opening later in the day, and to stay up for the reception and drinks that will follow.
I realize I don’t have anything to wear and somehow all my clothes need something to make them fit together and look in their best for fall 2017!
Does it matter after all how stylish I look?
Well this is the art world, but I am not into fashion.
After all, I am the artist.
I can go as I want.
As long as I have fun with it.
How am I going to respect my inner wild child if I try to conform?
My inner wild child is asking for more fun.
And no emergency is capable of taking away this.
Having fun NOW, not tomorrow, or another day.
Isn’t it risky to have fun at the reception while I am looking for a job?
Yes, but in any case, I am not going for the kind of jobs where too much formality is demanded.
At least not in the conventional form 😉
Yes, I will no longer run and hide, I will get out there and find who would like to join in and work on a collective art project with me!
September first, I feel it’s time to take a chance and jump in.
To begin with, I am going to ask for help.
Here I am, with an idea. Or lots of ideas.
How can they become reality?
With other people’s help. People who would join, transform and contribute to them.
Am I afraid of people who don’t like me on my field?
Yes, but it is time to go and find some others.
There is no time for false modesty here.
Let’s go and have this project happen!
I have just got back to London and to a beautiful sunshine, although the temperature is lower than at the South of France. And here is a pile of bills waiting for me, and a very busy month ahead.
Somehow, and without no tangible reason, I am very optimistic. I take a break and enjoy the sunshine and a cup of coffee before dealing with re-al-ity.
I feel that I have something special to contribute to the world, through my art, and presence.
Yes, I have been a misunderstood genius, but I will come into terms with my co-humans into this life even if I have to go around the world.
To begin with, I realise I need a personal assistant 😉
The second thing, is to look into the priorities and not the urgent things.