When I visit my hometown, I am usually torn between my past, present and future self.
The past self, is what people used to know me for. It is a powerful self, because they have not followed through the changes I went through. There are things I might have not liked of this self, at the time. It could be that I have been shy.
And then, if I stay too long in one place, I feel that I betray my future self. Especially when I grow out of the image others see me for there. So I need to go to this new place where I can reinvent myself.
The old self could be great, but I might have disagreed with the public persona, others shared for me. For example, if I have been this shy kid, I might want to go places where I will be known for my adventurous spirit and exploits.
And if this is the case, I might again need to move on and also be known as someone who is bonding and member of a community.
Is there a best place? Is there Homme?
Homme can be everywhere, if it allows us to have been, to be and to continue becoming, exploring, loving, developing, independently of age.
here I am again, with a considerable amount of work, unanswered mails, a book plan pending and a group of people who thought my last presentation sucked.
How do I turn this around?
“Whatever you think, think the opposite”!
This is the advice of the day.
So I have some work I love and I am on top of it, everybody loves and admires my presentation, and what is more, I have an artistic portfolio that has substance and a book that is practically finished.
Glory and wealth awaits in the next corner, and YES, the World will be saved from itself!
I have observed a lady-bug this weekend and I might need both your help and hers: I need a major breakthrough and I feel that I have been stagnating for a while. The part-time job I have taken over is taking more than part of my time and writing a new book has been delayed.
And what is more, I faced challenges from my new boss and clients.
How can I turn the situation around?
By focusing on what is really important to me?
I have had a kind of inhibition as a writer because I didn’t try to publish a lot of my work from fear of criticism.
Now, it is time to act.
So I start by checking out potential publishing houses.
I have been extremely busy and almost burned out, I have sweat in the London heat and now I can ask, even in the heat of the action: is what I am doing meaningful? Does it take me to the direction of my dreams?
Heat in London, and everything slows down or speeds up, it change…
So, if I compare with the last two summers is there a change? I am again organising an artistic exhibition and stressing up… I really love it but there is some pressure to get everyone and everything together.
I now realise that even when the situation seems the most important, as if it were going to be critical for my future, it is not in the way I think. Another one comes equaly critical. And after all, I am still in this field.
But enjoying the process, is so important!
And after all, what matters more is the bigger picture, the reason why I do all these…. and it has to do with creativity and creation!
I realise you are a very demanding month, the last two years I find myself organising summer art exhibitions and there is always a last-minute cancellation to fill in everybody’s nerves tense, and still… will pull it through…
So should I let myself stress? I try different solutions… after all, these summer exhibitions haven’t changed my life in a spectacular way… they contribute to the path I have taken, but there is not this one moment which determines everything… I guess there is always a possibility to change, to correct, …
This is what I tell myself, it is a marathon we are running for success, so the most important thing is to stay fit and continue running … not to sprint for 100 meters and then fall down breathless…