May 17, 2019- Update from my hometown and how to upgrade myself

Hello May,

yes, I have promised myself to write daily here, and I have almost succeeded, in the sense I have been using more traditional methods: paper and pen.

So, what is going on for me? I am at the nearest café, where I try to concentrate despite the music and talking. Writing from my parent’s place is tricky because I get interrupted by real life.

I feel I need energy and a sense of orientation.

Tonight I am to go to a local theatre with fellow artists, and before that, I need to focus.

Next to me, two retired people reading their newspapers.

Another possibility to join a library but I am not sure if it is worth driving or taking public transport for this.

I have bought a book on specific actions to take in my field, and then I contacted a potential mentor. In the meanwhile, my time is a scarce resource, I need to use in the best possible way 🙂

So, how do I use this time to take myself to the next level of the game?

How about romance?

Is it in the stars these days?

How do I upgrade myself?

A cup of latte

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April 5, 2019- Celebrating 5 year Blog-Anniversary!

Dear April,

do you remember? I started this blog five years ago, with the intention to write a post-a-day for three months. I was facing a crisis in my personal and professional life: horrid wannabe boss, finances, relationship, instability.

Where am I today? In my home town, with my ageing parents and the cat, where I was afraid to end up if my projects didn’t succeed. And guess what? It’s not as bad as I thought.

Because I might have put up with things out of fear. The fear that if I fail this and that, I might be cast back to where I was at the beginning. A kind of snakes and ladders game.

And guess what? I am not the exact same person. I took risks, huge risks and I failed some of them, for reasons also independent on my effort.

But despite the fact that I didn’t get the funding, that I overworked and I spent all my economies, despite the fact that a member of my family had health issues and I had to go home for a while, I am confident about the future.

I have plans, dreams, and most importantly, I am working towards them.

So, from my place, whatever it is today, I am working towards the next step.

And everything learnt is a profit.

If a snake has swallowed me, I can still take a ladder because I know I can!

Thank you dear blog and dear blog-friends with your wise comments for helping me realize this!

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March 27, 2019- Writing every day as a habit

Hello March,

writing on paper, writing online, and mainly producing something we can communicate to others; isn’t that important?

Isn’t it important to create energy? Words are a form of a code of feelings and ideas, actions, they produce an effect when you know the code well; and when the recipients of the code are also able to decode it.

https://www.thecitizen.co.tz/magazine/success/How-to-stay-focused-on-your-writing/1843788-4936070-galwwjz/index.html

 

March 24, 2019- Emotions, fuel for artwork-Day 1

Hello March,

how do I train for everyday writing? How not to get absorbed by other people’s agenda? How not to isolate at the same time and be open to serendipity and the beauty of the moment?

Hmm, well

I was having a conversation yesterday with someone kind enough to want to get to know me better. And I was between happy to self-disclose and a bit annoyed.

The next week is unfolding and I have one big and two minor objectives.

I think that everything else will have to disappear in between.

How about feelings?

An aunt has died and we went to a ceremony yesterday, this and other issues family related have been worrying me underneath.

I am divided between letting feelings and fears out or putting them aside and concentrating on a goal.

How about acknowledging and transforming these feelings instead of disowning them?

Creativity is building on feelings.

Having objectives is great, as long as we produce beauty through the transformation of our feelings. Feelings of any kind are great fuel for art!

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https://hbr.org/2015/08/the-emotions-that-make-us-more-creative

 

 

 

 

March 10, 2019- Back to my parents’ home: an update of my adventures

Hello March,

I am back at the beginning, in my parents’ home in the South of France: a perfect time for an update. Where to and whither?

I have succeeded certain projects, failed others and I am here again, without stability and some debts.

Is there something to learn from the experience?

Well, for sure, that I can be a source of “wrongdoing” because of miscalculation even if it wasn’t my intention.

What is the most essential thing at this moment?

How would I like to live every day?

Well, with challenges and new things to learn;

Looking up to people who can advise and help me.

And helping others with what I have learnt.

To begin with, it is important to produce every day.

And then do anything else 🙂

south of france, village, and saint-guilhem-le-désert image

 

February 8, 2019- Taking another chance in Manchester

Hello February,

today I am waking up in Manchester, the first time I visit the city, do you believe that? After waking up and the second cup of coffee, I am preparing a presentation and a meeting with my future employers 😉

What is the weather like? Some wind and occasional rain, but this is not preventing me from visiting the City Centre before!

manchester

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February 2nd, 2019- Raising mood

Hello February,

do you have any tips to raise your mood? I guess a mood has the right to go in one direction or another, and something might trigger it to go into a place I don’t like.

I might think, actually, I have been there before, and it wasn’t helpful. When things I don’t like happen, maybe there is a reason. And after all, yes, some rejection can hurt because it reminds me of other times. And it’s like, maybe it’s me.

But I have seen in the past that this is not true.

I can change things. And go to a place I love.

Instead of taking it personally, I can see what happened and analyze the situation.

So, yes, my objective is to understand what happened in my last effort.

Have I learnt anything from the experience?

Who do I ask for help in order to get it next time?

Boosting happy mood with favorite songs. Relaxed charming european female student in colorful clothes, raising hand with

 

January 28, 2019-Back to London!

Dear January,

I am to go to London for a presentation of my portfolio, and I am looking forward to it!

Of course, my feelings are like a hot boiling pot; there is my presentation to take care of and my inner self to expand: let’s go out there and shine!

Some everyday preoccupations have stressed me from time to time, but bottom line, I realize I have always managed to find my way.

I am making my suitcase and my parents’ cat is looking at me puzzled: where to?

Let’s see how it goes!

London, I am coming!

london, map, and england image

January 4, 2019-Happy New Year!!! Shaking off the New Year’s Eve Blues

Welcome, January 2019!!!

Let’s get lucky this year!

I was partying on the 31st and 1st and I needed a day to recover. Plus, on the 3rd I had to go back to my everyday life where I found some of the things that haven’t been dealt with in 2018, which made it more difficult to land back into real life.

So, yes, I have an after party blues, where I need to wake up to adult life after having eaten chocolate, written letters to Santa Claus and almost kissed an old flame who appeared in my life… from Italy!

So, 2018 has been quite a year and I am happy to see that I am still standing! I am grateful for all the friends who helped me out and I would like to say sorry to those I let down when some of my plans crumbled and crashed.

Have I learnt anything from this?

But now that I wake up as a full-grown up adult with a child’s heart, I decided to do a 10-year life plan like this one, or I could make one for myself:

  1. To create something every day
  2. To learn something every day
  3. To offer something
  4. To enjoy something or someone
  5. To boost my self-esteem which was bruised by the end of 2018
  6. To follow my heart

 

https://www.kikki-k.com/au/shop-by/10-year-plan-so-lovely-11105501.html

 

 

December 19, 2018- Loving oneself ritual day 3

Hello December,

after moving out of my old home in London and getting to my hometown for a holiday and to put my ideas straight, I got myself a bad cold.

So, a loving oneself ritual has been mainly to drink a lot of juice and liquids, sleeping and relaxing at my parent’s home in the South of France.

In that way, I have time to think what next. Should I continue the same course of action? Did I meet with roadblocks that could have been avoided? Was I overconfident the last two years? Did I take too many risks?

Maybe.

What to stop doing, what should I keep doing and what to start doing?

I stop facing certain reality facts which could be dangerous to ignore.

I should continue having long-term goals and working in their direction.

I can start having more fun and confidence and including more of my passions in everyday life. Spending more time with my friends.

Is there a particular way to pass into a growth mindset when things don’t go exactly as planned?

I can make a 10-year plan.

And then a 5-year plan

And then a 2019 year plan

And then a month and end of December plan

And then, a Christmas day plan.