June 20, 2018- Love and how to stay cool

Hello June,

it seems that I have a boyfriend, he is wonderful, loving, and he came out of nowhere, almost. Is he for real? It is so recent, I still pinch myself. It is too early to say.

But that doesn’t stop me for walking with a BIG smile in my face, and even if someone is pushing me at the busy London streets, I am in a very good mood and thank them.

What is he finds out I have been a struggling artist?

Or it shows in any case?

Let’s concentrate on work and stay cool.

So?

Any progress there?

Well, kind of.

I am waiting a response from a galley owner who seemed

interested.

And then?

I am putting together a hell of an art portfolio.

And I have a month to do it.

Expecting a miraculous intervention.

Because everything is possible.

So, making things happen or letting them happen and sitting back in a relaxed way?

Something in between 🙂

Résultat de recherche d'images pour "let things happen"

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June 7, 2018- Romance in a busy week

Hello June,

how do you know if something is a romance and not a creation of your imagination? Especially when you have an inclination for daydreaming and creating artificial realities…

And on top of that, when you are busy…

Hmm, let’s see.

The best thing is to relax and let things happen in their own rhythm I guess…

It is like waiting results from an exam.

Have I passed?

Instead of thinking about it, let’s do something else and the result will come in any case 🙂

This is London romance by the way 😉

https://theconversation.com/is-feminism-killing-romance-69676

May 29, 2018- Loving who we become

Hello May,

are you always the same or do you notice any change in you as time goes by? And I am not talking about growing up, or aging, but about the changes in the way we see things and the way other people see us.

After all, is it possible to grow without changing?

And what type of change are we talking about?

I am talking about the caterpillar to butterfly change.

Is it possible in any stage in life and any age?

Well yes, if we talk about personal development, shining, glow related to being balanced, loving and caring to ourselves and others.

I am having my morning coffee and a waitress agreed I need to go to the hairdresser.

Yes, I know.

Is this the reason I might have less dates?

Would I want a date who only cares of my hair?

How about my gorgeous smile and body?

How superficial are we after all?

Ok, let’s say that taking care of ourselves is a first sign that we respect ourselves.

But shouldn’t this start internally?

Appearance of confidence and taking care of oneself are appealing, but the REAL thing is so much more valuable!

I see people who only have the appearance, to be willing to give up their money in order to get the feeling of it.

But is the internal thing enough to get around if your hair starts looking like a bird’s nest?

All this comes from having a partial rejection from a man I had a drink with.

Well, meeting people is nice, but doing it from our “home”.

When I am in my center, I feel balanced, and my connexions might be.

Any connexions

11 Ways to Love Yourself

http://www.marcandangel.com/2012/04/09/11-ways-to-become-the-person-you-love/

May 28, 2018- Visualisation

Hello May,

I have heard about visualisation, and to be honest, I might have tried it, but in a not very serious way. I decided to get myself into it, and even find a vision board. To be serious with that.

So, I am buying a vision board online and I am putting myself to it.

I will try anything I have read or heard of, to see how things go.

I also took an online.

A new book.

And the firm decision to wake up at 5.30 in the morning.

Anything else?

Like for example, ways to relax and have fun?

Date? Something almost forgotten in the long winter nights?

Breathing in and breathing out.

Take care of my chi.

Stop carrying all this weight around me.

What if I just arrived where I am now, without any other thought?

What if I saw everything around with fresh eyes?

Let’s try that.

Résultat de recherche d'images pour "fresh eyes"

https://www.ivalua.com/blog/looking-procurements-assets-fresh-eyes/

April 29, 2018- How to turn sadness into creativity

Hello April,

my spring break involved some challenges on family member’s health problems, and here I am, in my hometown, dealing with challenging realities and feelings.

My fears are not only with that, but with the kind of impact it can have into my life. Because, let’s face it, there is some percentage of selfishness in our worry for people close to us.

So, how can I choose a better feeling thought?

To begin with, this experience, helps me put things into perspective. Job insecurity, money or other similar questions are secondary to health.

Then, it’s like, how about feeling I have been struggling in a certain direction without getting into a place where I can say, I have accomplished something I can keep with me.

A place to rest. As if my successes were not stepping-stones.

But is this true?

Not really.

Actually, I have learnt to rebound after pretty challenging situations.

Somehow, I found solutions.

I have become resilient.

Then, let’s face it, security was not my number 1 goal.

A meaningful experience is my goal.

And I feel gratitude towards myself and others, to have worked in this direction.

I feel grateful for my friends standing by me.

I feel grateful for the wonderful job I have been doing.

These are challenging times for everyone. We need to give it our best.

Image may contain: 1 person, outdoor, nature and water

https://www.facebook.com/climbingmagazine/

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/10/29/how-to-turn-negative-emot_n_4158113.html

 

April 5 and 6, 2018- Day 3 and 4 of challenge- taking a break

Hello April,

I realize that I feel kind of overwhelmed, and that some of my efforts are not paying off, meaning that I have some unhappy “clients” not safisfied with my outcomes.

It is true that I felt pressured to accept this job because I didn’t see another option at the time.

Was I not to do it, and change country, instead of staying in London, yet another time?

It feels as if I need a small break, to let things settle and give my brain and emotions time to digest it.

And see where I want to go from here.

https://www.startschoolnow.org/taking-a-break-from-college-stress/

April 4, 2018- Day 2 – April challenge- where is my energy?

Hello April,

I decided to wake up early, but today, after opening one eye at 7.00, the second one opened at 9.00

It has been a kind of full day yesterday, and I was up at 5.00, but the thing is how to maintain a stable rhythm instead of doing something just once.

I promised to make things move in a new direction. The world needs us, so let’s do our best; but right now I don’t feel I have a lot of energy!

So how do I generate energy?

I promised a lot of things, and today I feel like going back to sleep!!!

Instead, I get a green juice and I look at my art classes for tomorrow; in the meanwhile I am exploring the possibilities for another opening… in the UK or elsewhere in the world;

I have an art portfolio that needs to get organised, and I also want to make time for writing.

How do I do this?

Probably by starting right away.

https://www.hypnosisdownloads.com/motivation-inspiration/energy-booster

 

 

April 3 to May 3 2018- 30 day challenge- Getting the full-time job

Hello April,

here I am, with a month as a deadline to get myself the job to complete the part-time I have or to start a new one altogether.

I was told that hugging trees is giving you good energy, so now that the time is better I might try it and see how it goes.

Climbing trees is more difficult, so I will keep to the hugging part.

The most important thing, is my why, and I have one, related to creating.

I have been reading something on heuristics today and the kind of mistakes we make regarding our everyday judgements in uncertainty.

We could be a little bit as the different characters of this painting, part of a bigger complex, but now always aware of it 🙂

So, how to make the best decision when we ignore the whole picture?

We can ask around, pray, read, google our question… 🙂

https://maddoxgallery.co.uk/press-release/dan-baldwin-a-new-optimism/

April 2, 2018- Blog-anniversary: celebrating 4 years!

Dear April,

four years ago, I started a blog, a type of journal, in a dialogical style. I was persecuted by a hideous wannabee boss, and I was in and out of contracts in Paris.

Four years after, I moved to London, and although I am on a part-time job, a lot of things have been accomplished.

Already, four-year blogging is a reason to celebrate in itself!

One book published (in my mother tongue), new friends,

but also,

one or two love affairs that didn’t flourish and

some debt.

So?

Where to, now “April”?

Initially, I was to write for three months and see if my life would be transformed.

After four years, I feel more assertive and empowered, although, for some things, I might feel at a loss.

When an old wound is touched, I still feel vulnerable, and it hurts.

I need to decide if my job hunt is going to take me even further, geographically speaking.

And where is the best spot to pursue my dreams further.

This trailer somehow expresses my state of mind 😉

March 16, 2018- Morning musing

Hello there,

so what’s going on this morning? Snow again this weekend? Well, after a work focused winter, spring seems to be following on the same tone.

And it feels like I need to flower, like a human being, have fun and a relaxed feeling of a beautiful day… poetry, love, animals, …

How is it possible to do both?

I was about to get critical of something I saw next to me and changed my mind… this is a sign I need a change of mind-set, some fun and hope that what I am doing is meaningful!

I had a conversation with a friend dating someone she found gorgeous but not so intelligent… which reminds me, where am I on that sector? Probably not to be seen… I don’t have time to plan, to think, to …

the last time I was so busy, I was still a first year student, and then somehow I regretted that.

So, if I am working a lot this time, I need to make sure I don’t let important sides of myself … without enough attention.

I also said I didn’t have time to create, and that wasn’t ok either.

Still, I learnt some things.

I learnt that for some people, creativity and connectedness are not optional.

And that my “work” has to be part of the pleasure of being alive. And conviction and readiness to move to the next level.

So either I transform what I do, or I change it.

Fiction, where are you?

 

https://www.thedailymeditation.com/training-your-imagination-how-to-train-your-imagination-in-easy-steps