what, I forgot to tell you which habit I am aiming for? Indeed, I practically did. Should I count day one again?
So, here I am again this morning, in my parents’ home in the South of France, having my morning coffee and journaling.
I mean to feel deserving for good things and doing one thing for myself every day. Feeling so overwhelmed and guilty that I am not answering everyone’s demands in perfection doesn’t take me very far.
So? Feel that I deserve a holiday, and taking care of my hair, style, maybe stopping some chocolate and coffee? Hmm, I will go back to 70% or more chocolate and eh, I have two coffees in the morning. Make it one?
Deserving the best for us, and forgiving ourselves for our mistakes, celebrating our accomplishments.
what if I say that I will start something and then there is a day I don’t follow up? Probably, I need to start again. So, day 1 is today, July 9.
What is new? Hmm, I write my new novel, and I will testify doing it in my blog. By the way, I am reading again the play of Edmond Rostand, Cyrano de Bergerac, and I am completely moved by this love which is somehow missing its target.
So loveable, Cyrano, Roxanne and Cristian, the type of characters it would be nice to meet. Cyrano has a big nose, and he loves Roxanne. Roxanne loves handsome Christian and is loved by him. The problem is, Cyrano is putting words into Christian’s mouth and that is what Roxanne loves about him. A love triangle. Two men trying to create Roxanne’s ideal love object. Hmm…
It happens in real life also. Being afraid to show who we are for fear of not being loved, sacrificing real life to some kind of ideal…
I am at my parents’ home, in the South of France, with some online work, and not much private space.
I feel a bit overwhelmed with all the demands made on me, by others an myself, whereas I feel being slowed down by the temperature rising.
Or I am just a bit tired and demotivated.
And still, this is a time to get a promotion.
I feel it in my heart.
But I might need to move and take some action instead of lingering in a semi-sleepy state.
Trees blossom and then the flowers are gone, leaves grow and they fall. There is a cycle of movement, even if we don’t do a thing. But if there is such a thing as a deliberate action, how do we know when to act, and how, to bring a positive change?
Eat well, less dessert and more vegetables and fruit?
Exercise, I do.
I might need to add a very motivating objective and go for it.
Freedom is so important, to be, to feel, to write, to breath, to become!
A tribute to Independence Day, and to Independence from anything that holds us back, to become our fully developed selves, in respect for others who also are in their development path.
After slowing down for the second part of June, I realise it is important to be and feel authentic, going in the direction that inspires us and respecting who we are.
What kind of new habit to start in July?
Journaling everyday, and going back to fiction writing.
Finding time and making space to be, feel and look our best!
Smiling to ourselves in the mirror every day,
We did it!
Some inspiration from the musical “Hamilton” :
a lot of things happened while you were around, have you noticed? But it’s not the moment to contemplate since I am writing and finishing TODAY.
Hang around there, I will get back to tell you how it all went.
Having a meeting with my editor in a while.
Yes, a virtual one 🙂
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have you ever. had deadlines? Yes, you are leaving us in a couple of days. But, guess what: I need to finish a small article by tomorrow.
When a deadline is so close, it somehow mobilises every part of me. How about you? There is a notion of fear and panic, freezing, staring at the paper, or the computer screen. Unable to move. That’s what our ancestors might experience from time to time in front of a mighty predator.
How about fight or flight?
There is no flight possibility.
Fight is the only way out.
So, let’s go for it!
I am having a piece of chocolate to lift my spirits and move instead of staring.
One word at a time makes the page full.
Have a nice and productive day!!!
big part of spring has been spent in my hometown and in my parents’ home with the cat. It felt better to isolate with them and get back a glimpse of my childhood, childhood tv series and reads.
And this time, being grateful just to be with everything else being closed.
On the other hand, when everything was closing down, it seemed that I was accelerating.
I almost finished some manuscripts left a while ago.
Ok, I also had a rejection.
But there are also some opportunities in the horizon.
Got back to my novel.
Finding a way to be creative in the present, might be the best thing to do!
how is it going? I am prone to feeling guilty because I don’t fulfil everybody’s demands, and all those I ask of myself.
But this is just a trap.
Why would I fulfil everything in the first place?
Because it’s my job and I am payed for it?
Or because I am a daughter, a partner, a sister, a …?
Hmm, let’s start from the job. It seems that even if I work most of the day, there is more to do. How about pleasure? It would have to be through my job because there is not much left outside. Ok, there is the cat. My parents’ cat.
So maybe, I need to start from doing something nurturing and fulfilling for myself. And then, when I am satisfied, I become productive. How about that?
And instead of waiting for something to come, I put myself to writing again. Creative writing. Because writing without adjective, is what we do when we email people.
Being creative, that’s what I need not to feel guilty to myself!!!
Let’s allow ourselves to be creative!!!
yes, on Saturday I had a bad mood: no sign of my colleague who proposed a collaboration. Maybe she didn’t like my work, maybe I tried for nothing…
I kind of felt disempowered. …
And on top of that … family issues…
But Sunday, was another day!
I started with Beatles: Here comes the sun!
And apparently, it’s. good choice!
My colleague responded: there is an interest from an editor, but we need to work out something by the end of May… OMG!
two very busy days and my hopes got up a little bit with a possibility for a collaboration. There is an artist I met last year and she invited me to participate to a collective project. It seems good and this person is trustworthy, I think.
So, I put myself to work for it.
Let’s see how it goes.
I was so excited to work on something creative and inspiring again!
Almost afraid to raise my expectations for fear of disappointment (what I learn in CBT).