today I am waking up in Manchester, the first time I visit the city, do you believe that? After waking up and the second cup of coffee, I am preparing a presentation and a meeting with my future employers 😉
What is the weather like? Some wind and occasional rain, but this is not preventing me from visiting the City Centre before!
I just had a setback I was expecting: I had a NO from a gallery I was collaborating with last year, I did some work for them, and now I asked for a job. The person I was working with and I was counting on supporting me, pulled out.
I was kind of expecting it, since she was silent the last time I emailed her.
I went out for a coffee.
At the same time, I have this killer project. This mentality of theirs is defensive of privileges.
How about mine?
I am used to being rejected actually, because I always felt as a minority.
But did I really like the way these people worked?
Deep down, I think they are conventionally good but boring. I went there for the name of the gallery.
It can be important.
Maybe, I can start from giving value to myself.
How did my last relationship end?
In a similar way.
With someone who was not appreciating my full value.
Am I appreciating myself enough?
What would I do if I consider myself a star and the main character in my life?
I would look for help and collaboration with people who really inspire me.
I continue my Bounce Back Big journal, although I missed writing for a week;
What on … have I been doing?
I have advanced in my projects, so there is something collaborative that I put together, I found help to polish my CV and I might have resolved some of my practical issues.
Still, some ideas are on the basis of a potential, and I probably need to decide myself what is the absolute priority:
The priority, is to continue developing my creative project.
I need the help of other talented people for this.
But I also need the right environment, with the culture that promotes this type of activities.
Is it London?
I need to broaden my scope in the world, if I don’t want to repeat what happened to me in Paris. I was trying so desperately to fit in, desperately because my working culture is different, and I knew I didn’t really want to give up my creativity for this.
so, continuing on my networking resolutions, I contact more people than usual, asking them for advice, ideas, insights; starting from those I think they can bring some light and continuing to practically everyone I know.
The thing is, to know how to make the difference between what is useful and what is not: I would say, start with the advice of those who seemed to be where I want to go; and then go everyone else, and finish with my gut feeling.
There is something I can do better, or if I do things so well, did I make that known to anyone? Am I waiting to be discovered hiding?