Dear June,
yes, I have another deadline today! Let’s say that in order to submit a chapter, I put back my everyday job and I am the last employee to finish their assignment at the last minute (well though).
So, getting at least 6 hours sleep to have a clear brain and getting back to work…
Let’s do it!
Hello January,
have you ever felt like you were getting a promotion? I don’t know if you can be more than the first month of the year, but imagine you could. What would it be like?
Well, in my case, after realising how expensive is a latte in Notting Hill, I decided it is about time to get a promotion. After all, I have been working already for three months.
Am I already mastering my new job? Not exactly, but I am working on it. What is more, I feel I have a lot more to give.
So, after having indulged myself in huge quantities of chocolate and pastries, and been lazy and sick with a flue, I made up my mind: 2020 is going to be a Promotion Year.
Let’s see: I am learning what I need to learn to get to the next level.
Is this credible? Or incredible?
Both, and of course I see myself there already.
For the time being, I prepare my suitcase.
I am coming back to London!
Hello November,
I have arrived tired, and I feel that small or bigger things happening are pushing me around. I don’t come up as confident in the new job, and I lose my calm.
Add to that the seasonal flu, and you get the picture.
So, how do I face this? I try for something, it looks overambitious and misses the point.
Who should I talk to?
To begin with, I need my energy, or my Chi to get circulating again.
How about breathing?
Breath in and breath out.
How am I going to give myself a break?
The thing is, when we need one, we usually don’t have it.
Then, how do we create the right space?
By creative writing of course.
NaNoWriMo, this is the writing month after all.
But I want to write a play instead of a novel.
Let’s see how it goes.
I have the idea already.
And the characters.
Maybe in between, I can go back to my question.
How about doing something right now?
Dear October,
is it hard the first few days of your job? There seem to be so many things to absorb, and clients to keep satisfied, and on top of that a virus, yes, a virus!
So? What to do? I took two days off, working from home to pull myself together.
And of course, to write to my favourite journal.
Now, it seems that I don’t come out as competent and confident as a great artist and gorgeous woman that I am.
Well, maybe it helps that all my clothes for two seasons are in my suitcase, the one I brought with me to London 🙂
I decided to go through the internet for help, and start some morning affirmations.
How about reaching out to others also?
https://www.businessnewsdaily.com/7890-first-week-new-job.html
Hello September,
yes, I am right now in Notting Hill, London, enjoying a latte as I need this extra energy to focus and be as sharp as I can!
The next few days are demanding, and there was no spare time to visit the city. But finding myself in this spot is already great, and the sun is on my face every time a cloud moves.
This is a form of happiness. Do we need more?
Monday starts in crazy pace as I am in my new job and need to give the best impressions!
https://www.timeout.com/london/blog/five-historical-things-to-look-out-for-in-notting-hill-011317
Hello March,
I am back at the beginning, in my parents’ home in the South of France: a perfect time for an update. Where to and whither?
I have succeeded certain projects, failed others and I am here again, without stability and some debts.
Is there something to learn from the experience?
Well, for sure, that I can be a source of “wrongdoing” because of miscalculation even if it wasn’t my intention.
What is the most essential thing at this moment?
How would I like to live every day?
Well, with challenges and new things to learn;
Looking up to people who can advise and help me.
And helping others with what I have learnt.
To begin with, it is important to produce every day.
And then do anything else 🙂
Hello February,
today I am waking up in Manchester, the first time I visit the city, do you believe that? After waking up and the second cup of coffee, I am preparing a presentation and a meeting with my future employers 😉
What is the weather like? Some wind and occasional rain, but this is not preventing me from visiting the City Centre before!
Hello October,
I just had a setback I was expecting: I had a NO from a gallery I was collaborating with last year, I did some work for them, and now I asked for a job. The person I was working with and I was counting on supporting me, pulled out.
Now what?
I was kind of expecting it, since she was silent the last time I emailed her.
I went out for a coffee.
At the same time, I have this killer project. This mentality of theirs is defensive of privileges.
How about mine?
I am used to being rejected actually, because I always felt as a minority.
But did I really like the way these people worked?
Deep down, I think they are conventionally good but boring. I went there for the name of the gallery.
It can be important.
Maybe, I can start from giving value to myself.
How did my last relationship end?
In a similar way.
With someone who was not appreciating my full value.
Am I appreciating myself enough?
What would I do if I consider myself a star and the main character in my life?
I would look for help and collaboration with people who really inspire me.
So, let’s do that.
Hello October,
I have presented a draft of my idea, and I caught myself stressing up: fear of judgement, of not doing a perfect of whatever, of not being accepted.
I stopped there, it usually comes as a bodily sensation, and I put some music, something uplifting and the type of thing I can dance with, and breathe!
After all, who cares? Millions of years later, no one will remember that part.
It will not be included in any historical account.
So, why bother now?
And then that’s why the word feedback has been created: “feed’ has to do with food, kind of positive. So giving back something. It’s like a present.
You give something.
The other person gives something back.
We exchange ideas and discuss.
We become richer and more knowledgeable.
This is a process.
So breath and let the process unfold April!
Hello October,
Friday is here, and I am back 🙂
I continue my Bounce Back Big journal, although I missed writing for a week;
What on … have I been doing?
I have advanced in my projects, so there is something collaborative that I put together, I found help to polish my CV and I might have resolved some of my practical issues.
Still, some ideas are on the basis of a potential, and I probably need to decide myself what is the absolute priority:
The priority, is to continue developing my creative project.
I need the help of other talented people for this.
But I also need the right environment, with the culture that promotes this type of activities.
Is it London?
I need to broaden my scope in the world, if I don’t want to repeat what happened to me in Paris. I was trying so desperately to fit in, desperately because my working culture is different, and I knew I didn’t really want to give up my creativity for this.
So?
I need to keep my eyes open
Starting from an action today.
What is up in other continents for example?
april4june6: A journal of self-tranformation 