I am just telling you I decided to take an online CBT course. You forgot I have a Psychology degree? Well I do, and it’s about time I also learn and practice this interesting therapy.
CBT stands for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy.
Come back tomorrow and I’ll tell you how it goes.
how do I train for everyday writing? How not to get absorbed by other people’s agenda? How not to isolate at the same time and be open to serendipity and the beauty of the moment?
I was having a conversation yesterday with someone kind enough to want to get to know me better. And I was between happy to self-disclose and a bit annoyed.
The next week is unfolding and I have one big and two minor objectives.
I think that everything else will have to disappear in between.
How about feelings?
An aunt has died and we went to a ceremony yesterday, this and other issues family related have been worrying me underneath.
I am divided between letting feelings and fears out or putting them aside and concentrating on a goal.
How about acknowledging and transforming these feelings instead of disowning them?
Creativity is building on feelings.
Having objectives is great, as long as we produce beauty through the transformation of our feelings. Feelings of any kind are great fuel for art!
Yes, I want to be back here daily and write some of the thoughts that get through my brain. Well, this is a challenging period, demanding me to become a new me to get by and continue growing.
Actually, the idea is to continue growing. Regardless of age. Keep learning, and keep walking.
Here I am, in my hometown.
Facing the me I wanted to grow away from. Still, that was a great me. With great qualities, fears, emotions, willpower, self-doubt.
Feeling overwhelmed with the world I was facing.
Having the support and also the roadblocks enough to become my today self.
Feeling grateful for this.
The today self also needs some space to grow further.
How about relationships and emotions?
There are so many of them, bottled up, time to let them free!
Spring is here, the period of growth!
Time is money they say, but most of all, Time is LIFE. Time doesn’t come back, so if I want to live it to the fullest, I need to start doing it right now.
Spending time on job applications is not exactly productive. Instead, I can start producing more, and leave that for a part of my day.
How about reading meaningful books, spending time with people we love, and doing something for the community?
Apparently, Success is something you attract by the person you become.
So let’s become a person who is giving light instead of looking how to get something.
Let’s be meaningful and not just strategic!
Let’s create more!
hello winter Monday, and let’s have a great week ahead!
I have a great conversation with my blog-friend David, who tells me that it’s possible to develop our talents and to live a life of self and global development, in great relationships.
Let’s start by asking good questions.
Do I feel fine right now?
I had a nice coffee, but the place is kind of humid and I start feeling uncomfortable.
So, let’s finish this blog post and go for a green smoothie and wash my hair … finally.
I am trying a new tool this week, Designing your Life, suggesting that it’s essential to start from where we are, and then build prototypes to get there and try them.
In every possible direction.
A friend of mine told me relationships are like that. You have to write a draft first, until you finally get it right.
And to keep in mind, this is still a draft.
Maybe life on earth is a draft.
Let’s make it the best draft possible!
with things happening fast, it is important to concentrate on the slow and to do whatever enhances our objective. One important objective is enough. I am happy to have found mine. It took me some time, the last three years it was taking shape slowly but steadily. I have this artistic project. And I am looking everywhere for the best place to be to develop it!
And some resolutions: to wake up earlier in the morning, to look in one direction but to let inspiration come.
And to meet the people with whom we will walk together.
And to begin with, I am walking with me.
I walk everyday, a little bit further.
And eventually I am getting somewhere.
Each day, a step further.
let’s shape up with a post-a-day! A friend of mine is telling me she is so busy she doesn’t have time for waxing, but I will make sure I laugh and express myself and feelings in an every day-to-day basis!
So time for waxing, laughing, exercise, and on the contrary, no time for unproductive or self-doubt thoughts.
No time for self-pity and comparisons, what do I say when I am asked, what do you do?
I do as I go.
I have a plan.
It is taking shape as I go.
What is the plan for the day?
Breathing in and out, and having coffee in the morning, in one of my favorite places.
Only cleaners on the road and construction workers are out at 7.00 am.
I also run into a friend and his family.
Oh, yes, I am going to read a poem just to change.
I have just got back to London and to a beautiful sunshine, although the temperature is lower than at the South of France. And here is a pile of bills waiting for me, and a very busy month ahead.
Somehow, and without no tangible reason, I am very optimistic. I take a break and enjoy the sunshine and a cup of coffee before dealing with re-al-ity.
I feel that I have something special to contribute to the world, through my art, and presence.
Yes, I have been a misunderstood genius, but I will come into terms with my co-humans into this life even if I have to go around the world.
To begin with, I realise I need a personal assistant 😉
The second thing, is to look into the priorities and not the urgent things.
I have made it today! It was at 5.30 that I woke up, let’s see how it goes. I am slightly more alert than yesterday at the same time. Let’s see how it goes. I will post every day to check on progress.
I feel this is it, it’s time to believe in myself instead of feeling a potential hiding somewhere and beaming out from time to time.
This blog took me out of a dysfunctional working environment.
From Paris to London.
After one year and a half in London, I am again at a crossroad: will I get a job allowing me to continue my stay?
Or should I look for greener pastures elsewhere?
I am going to use this blog again as a confident for my adventures to be.