September 20, 2016- My blog: Whence and Whither?

Hello September,

I will reblog a few blog-milestones to see where I started from -about two years ago- and where I am heading!

My “ABOUT” page, the first step!

“After having been insulted by a wannabe boss, I decided to change myself in order to get a real job and true love.

April to June.

In PARIS where I actually live the last years

P.S. I am a 40-year-old woman, organising artistic events as a free-lance, and also love writing

P.S. 2 Since I got laid off and floated at the rooftops of Paris, I get a fresh now start in LONDON for a year, starting October 2015 🙂 I will let you know how it goes.

P.S.3 My first novel has been launched in the South of France end of March 2016. A big step forward, and a dream that comes true!

https://april4june6.wordpress.com/about/

July 11, 2016: When the going gets tough the tough get going

Hello July

I realise you are a very demanding month, the last two years I find myself organising summer art exhibitions and there is always a last-minute cancellation to fill in everybody’s nerves tense, and still… will pull it through…

So should I let myself stress? I try different solutions… after all, these summer exhibitions haven’t changed my life in a spectacular way… they contribute to the path I have taken, but there is not this one moment which determines everything… I guess there is always a possibility to change, to correct, …

This is what I tell myself, it is a marathon we are running for success, so the most important thing is to stay fit and continue running … not to sprint for 100 meters and then fall down breathless…

April 20, 2016: Post day 7- how to define a strategy

Dear April,

a small change I can try today is how to learn from feedback without letting it throw me off-balance. Yesterday I invited an artist to participate in an event I will organize back to France. He told me the gallery is not good enough for him and he wouldn’t know of anyone who would be interested. From his acquaintances.

That kind of shook me because it triggered older insecurities. I believed in this project and I mean to go back to Paris to talk with the gallery people. This idea of hierarchy somehow made me sad.

Is he right? Should I try to connect to the places/people with the best possible reputation instead of going the other-way round? Meaning, instead of collaborating with those I like and whose work I appreciate without checking on their reputation?

My former way of doing things has not been very productive from a material point of view. But starting from the utility of people and things is not in my philosophy.

Coming to London, is an opportunity because I have connected to a lively artistic platform with a good “reputation”: How can I evolve from here in a way that I am in harmony with my values in life?

Deep aspects of blogging strategy

http://writtent.com/blog/8-deep-questions-define-blogging-strategy/

February 16, 2016: day 19 of 60 challenge day- being powerful

Hello February,

what image would come to your mind if I say “powerful”? I think of a Lion, but to be honest, I have no idea about how a lion feels from the inside. So how do we know?

Is it how we feel, or what we can do, or make others do? Is famous for example being powerful? Another artist of my new professional Platform in London has been interviewed for the tv. Would I also want that? Mmm may be a little bit. Would fame, or a kind of fame be part of being powerful?

The lion seems to be in a contemplative mood, after having a good lunch, may be some quality family time. Enjoying an almost nap.

Would being the director of something, of an artistic Platform make a lot of difference? The world of art is also a network of power relations.

I guess for me being powerful would mean having a sense of fulfillment, a sense of direction and wellbeing. Coming to London, was important for me. But I need to straighten out in my head what kind of power I am seeking.

What do you think?

 

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November 10, 2015- Being an alter-native and enjoying it

Dear November

today I went through some major self-questioning on my work: what if people who read my text find my writing alter-native, strange and the worst a bad interpretation of genuinely good writing? I had the feeling that I might be using the same words but I the combination comes up as something different. Am I part of a community or an Alien lost in translation?

What is worst, my freshly acquired mentor in London was not to be found after I send him some of my art work and I started imagining the worst possible scenario. He didn’t want to tell me how he disliked it so he was avoiding me instead.

After some hours of paranoia I decided to call him and we might meet tomorrow.

But in any case, whether he likes what he sees or not, I might need to assume some part of my alter-native-ness, explain and communicate better what seems to be important.

And continue looking for people who would like to come and inhabit my Alter-Land 🙂

alternative teacher certification

http://www.teaching-certification.com/alternative-teaching-certification.html

October 5, 2015- How to dissolve haters

Hello October,

I am in the middle of a relocation from Paris to London, and this is going to be the last week of my everyday Parisian lifestyle. This Saturday it was “nuit blanche“, with artistic installations and exhibitions both indoors and outdoors. Our environment and its future was the big underlying question. What a fantastic idea!

Néle Azevedo for example encouraged participants to create a frozen character they could place on the stairs and wait until the sun dissolves this figure in the morning. I like this idea as a metaphor : it is the best method to dissolve haters!

I fell into one or two every now and then. The last two, people who judged my work for a competition I tried to win in March. I only got a chance to read their report today. It just couldn’t be worse! To resume their saying, there was nothing original in my proposal, the quality was bad, my work shouldn’t be considered and I was a fraud in every possible way. Had I only them to count on, I would have thought I was good for nothing in my field.

Nuit Blanche 2015 : le parcours Nord-Est

Well, the thing is this type of haters influence some other people who decide on my artistic funding in France. What should I do? Impossible to fight back. They position themselves as experts.

Maybe that particular position, as an artistic consultant was not for me. Or maybe it is. But another time at another temporality.

Thank you dear haters, for teaching me to love myself better, so I don’t need to prove anything to you. I only need to be creative and look for the right environment to blossom 🙂

So how do you dissolve this influence dear October?

With light of course.

I can hear you say “April just shine and let them DISSOLVE!”

Focusing on something else could also help.

Such as?

LONDON!

http://www.sortiraparis.com/arts-culture/balades/articles/94870-nuit-blanche-2015-le-parcours-nord-est

March 23- A final step of this month’s challenge: advertizing myself :-)

Dear March,

I thought I could play around and be lazy for a while after the intensive first two weeks, but I just found out the decision on my art project is taken this weekend! That means there is some serious last-minute advertizing of myself that needs to be done.

I am divided between stressing up, and showing a motivated, yet, cool attitude.

The thing is, I am kind of a perfectionist, so the public relations department has not conducted my campaign with enough fervour until now (meaning me, myself and I).

A friend told me I look too cool, so people might think there is another chance for her, she is not “hungry” enough.

How do I find the right balance between being eager, not feeling afraid to say “vote for my project”! and still have this interior peace I am looking for?

Probably when I don’t think about myself and what people think of me, and concentrate more on my project and vision?

 

https://dreamdailyonlyblog.wordpress.com/

February 21- Speaking up your mind

Dear Feb,

I hope you don’t mind this form of intimacy, February. You have been around for a while, so it feels like this is the moment to have a conversation with you: on speaking up my mind. No, I don’t mean I have been lying to you until now. Don’t be susceptible!

What I mean is, you have been watching me interacting with people, so you will understand.

Let’s say we go out for a drink, coffee, or herbal tea. We engage into a conversation, and then you say something I don’t like. It might be on purpose or not. I find it hurtful, in any case. So, how do I react? Do I answer back? Tell you, wait a second here, … ?

It could be a casual friendly relationship, a flirt, it could be an intimate relationship, and this is more tricky.

What I do, personally, is that I might think:  “I don’t like what you say, but I’d rather not tell you directly, I don’t want an argument”. 

But still, I will not feel ok, and this will affect our relationship, because I might withdraw.

So is it better to speak up my mind?

If one person for example starts criticizing something I like, let’s say, blogging, or being a Parisian café fun, …

Finally, YES, I think it is better. It is good to say: “you are trespassing here, darling. I don’t like what you do to my personal garden, that I nurture with care and love”.

If I don’t, I might be an indifferent gardener. And this is not a basis for any kind of healthy relationship.

So, dear, you don’t have to like my habits, approve of my behavior or life-style.

But if you want to be friends, respect our difference and love what you don’t understand.

http://www.sacredcirclecreativelife.com/uncategorized/speak-up/

 

 

January 21- April comes back to town (Paris)

Dear January,

I would like to reassure you that you mean a lot to me, as the first month of the year. I might not been very present – at the blog-sphere- I know. I might have not finished my resolutions, and my update to see what progress has been made in my transformation process. What new things I have learnt. How my love life and romance has evolved.

During the holidays, I have been back to my little South of France village, where I dedicated myself to the following activities: coconing and spending time with family and neighbors. I have eaten chocolates and “galettes des rois” and have turned into a vegetable in front of holidays tv shows, don’t think of anything exotic. I have laid on the family sofa and for a change, have taken a membership card from the closest local café. I have played Playmobil with my godson Alexandre and his brother. Read fairy tales that seemed to interest me more than them.

Yes, this has been part of my adventures. After the acceleration of the rhythm just before the holidays, and the wannabe boss who put as much pressure as possible, I felt I needed to slow down a bit. Maybe a bit too much. You might consider it a form of hibernation.

That is why I start waking up, with my return to the capital. There have been some events, during my absence, very unfortunate. Hopefully, now that I am back, things will get better and everyone will adhere to the resolution of kindness, wisdom and gratitude. In any case, I feel I have a more active part to play.

I have a baby orchid plant and during the last year it has grown so much, it is falling out of the pot. I bought a bigger one, and now it has what it takes to grow better.

The same goes with me. 2015 is a year to find the conditions and ingredients for growth and well-being. It’s a promise.

April has come back to town 😉

http://www.grand-paris.jll.fr/fr/le-projet-du-grand-paris/presentation-generale/id/48

 

 

Three principles for 2015: kindness, Wisdom, Gratitude

Happy 2015 dear friends!

I have started 2015 in my hometown, and as I came back to Paris I was absorbed by some violent, but also some very solidary actions of the citizens in this beautiful city!

In order to start this blog-year well, I found out a petition on line, that corresponds to my beliefs: let’s promise to show Kindness, Respect, Wisdom and Gratitude the whole year! I have signed up, and in case any one would like to join, you will find the link at the end of the post. But I guess practicing is more important than signing 🙂

Three Principles for 2015

Show Kindness and Respect

We will show kindness and respect towards ourselves and others whenever possible. And it’s always possible, because everyone we meet is fighting a battle we may know nothing about.

Strive for Wisdom

We will seek to be wise in our decisions, listening deeply to ourselves and others, and balancing our heads, hearts and intuitions in a harmony that feels right.

Practice Gratitude

We will regularly reflect on what we’re grateful for, because it brings perspective, dissolves negativity, and grounds us in what’s most important.

Our community has overwhelmingly voted for these 3 simple, powerful principles to support each other to follow in 2015. Join thousands of others in this New Year’s pledge to ourselves, and then share stories and insights from our “journeys within” on a live chat tool. When 500,000 of us pledge, we’ll invite world leaders to personally join us, and we’ll all check in 3 times this coming year to see how we’re doing.

https://secure.avaaz.org/en/three_principles_loc/?fpla

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