It’s Monday, it’s raining in London, and I feel I have been running behind goals, deadlines, etc. People expect things from me, I expect things from myself, and on top of that, I got to face a mini-virus.
Yes, starting something new is exciting, but it can also be stressful.
I am by my old gallery today, a powerful platform that gives me mixed feelings. I have had some hard times here and my self esteem has been tested.
But a platform also involves human beings that I like and appreciate. I have a small project with them.
Instead of thinking of whatever has been hurtful, let’s concentrate on what is inspiring right now.
Am I going to places for an external glow of power? This is meaningless, and it soon involves disappointments. On the other side, if it is to see it as a platform for meeting people and doing something together, then, it makes sense.
But it’s time I value myself more, my time, and the exposure to situations that are not bringing anything to my or anybody else’s growth.
So, farewell to anything that doesn’t serve this purpose!
And use difficult roads as fuel for our future growth!
How To Focus On Your Personal Growth
is it hard the first few days of your job? There seem to be so many things to absorb, and clients to keep satisfied, and on top of that a virus, yes, a virus!
So? What to do? I took two days off, working from home to pull myself together.
And of course, to write to my favourite journal.
Now, it seems that I don’t come out as competent and confident as a great artist and gorgeous woman that I am.
Well, maybe it helps that all my clothes for two seasons are in my suitcase, the one I brought with me to London 🙂
I decided to go through the internet for help, and start some morning affirmations.
How about reaching out to others also?
yes, I am right now in Notting Hill, London, enjoying a latte as I need this extra energy to focus and be as sharp as I can!
The next few days are demanding, and there was no spare time to visit the city. But finding myself in this spot is already great, and the sun is on my face every time a cloud moves.
This is a form of happiness. Do we need more?
Monday starts in crazy pace as I am in my new job and need to give the best impressions!
can you believe it? I am back to London, I almost pinch myself because this was not very likely the past few months. And yet, here I am, crossing the Waterloo bridge. Funny isn’t it?
For a French person, a Waterloo is a defeat or a failure, but for the British people, it’s a victory.
On either side, if you cross a defeat or failure, it’s Victory and Success that you meet.
Having the courage to go to the other side means a lot in itself.
So here I am to the victorious side of the equation, having crossed deserts and rivers, seeing both sides of the equation.
A new adventure begins!
Welcome again! Schools, Universities, start in a while, and I feel ready to shake away the lethargic attitude which accompanied me in August, to sail in almost full speed!
I finish my novel, “The Capitaine Fracasse”, written by the talented and unique Théophile Gautier, and I am so delighted with his use of French language, and the lessons I can learn as an author from his style. The Theater as a form of art and Commedia del’Arte play an important part, as most of the characters are actors.
In the last chapter, there is catharsis and justice to the good people in the story, so I am looking forward to a restoration of the moral balance!
Apart from that, I am planning my week, as much as possible, because I am going on a trip on Tuesday… and I will tell you more very soon!
I am back to the hometown café, with my head full of the beatiful landscapes of the French Riviera, and longing for the seaside. But I need to leave my novel and go back to a working mood, which is not all phantasizing and imagining oneself in these imaginary situations of the Capitaine Fracasse’s adventures. What is better than to revisit the classics of the French Litterature in this book by Théophile Gautier before the summer ends?
yes, I have promised myself to write daily here, and I have almost succeeded, in the sense I have been using more traditional methods: paper and pen.
So, what is going on for me? I am at the nearest café, where I try to concentrate despite the music and talking. Writing from my parent’s place is tricky because I get interrupted by real life.
I feel I need energy and a sense of orientation.
Tonight I am to go to a local theatre with fellow artists, and before that, I need to focus.
Next to me, two retired people reading their newspapers.
Another possibility to join a library but I am not sure if it is worth driving or taking public transport for this.
I have bought a book on specific actions to take in my field, and then I contacted a potential mentor. In the meanwhile, my time is a scarce resource, I need to use in the best possible way 🙂
So, how do I use this time to take myself to the next level of the game?
How about romance?
Is it in the stars these days?
How do I upgrade myself?
I have 21 days to fulfil my purposes. Starting from today, after a latte. I have received a negative answer from a job application I was interested in. And then, here I am, again, after having overindulged in cookies and cake during the last weeks, after an Easter and May 1st.
There is something to do, so let’s do it right away. I feel again that I have been running behind something that is escaping. I might have tried in the wrong way. How would I concentrate?
I probably need some help and a change of strategy.
Let’s see what is the recipe for a miracle creation in May.
I am looking for a 30-day challenge to try, and waking up early, at 5.30 today is the first step. So, here I am, breathing in and out, deciding on ways to be more present and productive.
To begin with, I am having coffee and some fruit.
I take myself out.
The sun is shining.
It will take my sleepiness away.
I read that it’s important to write down things you are to do.
And then spend 15 minutes with the easiest task.
Next step, the most difficult task for 35 minutes.
That’s where I am right now.
Finishing something I have been writing.
you are special because I have started my blog in April five years back. I was looking to go away from home and I tried pretty much many things. There are fears and all sorts of other things to leave back.
But at the same time, I realize I can face my past and all these things that scared me are no longer there. Or they are, but I have a different way to look at them.
So, in a way, it was important to be back. To the beginning.
To feel pride in all the things accomplished, all the struggles, all the loving relationships, all the times I bounced back.
I have so much power, so much control in how I shape my reality.
This is a famous psychologist’s pyramid of human needs, and although some of them are more vital at a certain point, it feels like we need to satisfy all the levels for balance.
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