April 15, 2019- How to embrace the present moment and self-esteem

Hello April,

you are special because I have started my blog in April five years back. I was looking to go away from home and I tried pretty much many things. There are fears and all sorts of other things to leave back.

But at the same time, I realize I can face my past and all these things that scared me are no longer there. Or they are, but I have a different way to look at them.

So, in a way, it was important to be back. To the beginning.

To feel pride in all the things accomplished, all the struggles, all the loving relationships, all the times I bounced back.

I have so much power, so much control in how I shape my reality.

This is a famous psychologist’s pyramid of human needs, and although some of them are more vital at a certain point, it feels like we need to satisfy all the levels for balance.

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April 12, 2019- Female characters in literature- French writers

Hello April,

I started blogging five years ago, and I was writing every day for at least three months. It has been a transformative experience. My pace, fast or slow, a few days a month or every few days, has changed, but I am present overall.

And here I am now, where to?

Explore, meet, learn, discover, love, share.

Read.

I decided to rediscover some French female authors, like Mme de Lafayette. I have been reading La Princesse de Montpensier, and I am thinking of getting back to the Princesse des Clèves also. Let’s see how female characters have been formed in these classic novels and films for inspiration :

March 22, 2019- One month every day writing

Hello March,

Yes, I want to be back here daily and write some of the thoughts that get through my brain. Well, this is a challenging period, demanding me to become a new me to get by and continue growing.

Actually, the idea is to continue growing. Regardless of age. Keep learning, and keep walking.

Here I am, in my hometown.

Facing the me I wanted to grow away from. Still, that was a great me. With great qualities, fears, emotions, willpower, self-doubt.

Feeling overwhelmed with the world I was facing.

Having the support and also the roadblocks enough to become my today self.

Feeling grateful for this.

The today self also needs some space to grow further.

How about relationships and emotions?

There are so many of them, bottled up, time to let them free!

Spring is here, the period of growth!

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February 2nd, 2019- Raising mood

Hello February,

do you have any tips to raise your mood? I guess a mood has the right to go in one direction or another, and something might trigger it to go into a place I don’t like.

I might think, actually, I have been there before, and it wasn’t helpful. When things I don’t like happen, maybe there is a reason. And after all, yes, some rejection can hurt because it reminds me of other times. And it’s like, maybe it’s me.

But I have seen in the past that this is not true.

I can change things. And go to a place I love.

Instead of taking it personally, I can see what happened and analyze the situation.

So, yes, my objective is to understand what happened in my last effort.

Have I learnt anything from the experience?

Who do I ask for help in order to get it next time?

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November 17, 2018- Bounce Back Big Update of 31 days

Hello November,

I started a Bounce Back Big 31 days, trying to do something differently.

I got in touch with mentors and asked questions, I also tried to follow these suggestions:

  1. Do the thing you always wanted to do
  2. Say what you always wanted to say
  3. Feel emotions you never let yourself feel
  4. Allow space for discovery and uncertainty in your life
  5. When you feel a desire, follow it all the way through
  6. Do one thing in the direction of your dreams
  7. Express yourself creatively
  8. Be vulnerable
  9. Take a risk
  10. Do something you’ve never done

1. I did small things I wanted, but not something major. For example, I always wanted to ride a horse, or to become an actor, a playwright, a pilot, … but I didn’t really start something major. It felt like I needed to find myself a job

2. I said things I wanted to say, but there are much more, and the thing is how to say them without insulting others, especially when I disagree with something I see

3. I have a range of emotions I don’t allow myself to feel, especially negative ones, should I go there?

4. There is a lot of uncertainty in my life, and I have tried something new in this period

5. I have followed my desire for creation

6. I did one thing in the direction of my dreams, I found a new partner

7. I started a new novel

8.I got vulnerable by telling people some things that hurt me

9. I took many risks (personal, financial, professional, …)

10. I did something I never have done before

🙂

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October 22, 2018- Bounce Back Big day 25, unfolding

Hello October,

I have presented a draft of my idea, and I caught myself stressing up: fear of judgement, of not doing a perfect of whatever, of not being accepted.

I stopped there, it usually comes as a bodily sensation, and I put some music, something uplifting and the type of thing I can dance with, and breathe!

After all, who cares? Millions of years later, no one will remember that part.

It will not be included in any historical account.

So, why bother now?

And then that’s why the word feedback has been created: “feed’ has to do with food, kind of positive. So giving back something. It’s like a present.

You give something.

The other person gives something back.

We exchange ideas and discuss.

We become richer and more knowledgeable.

This is a process.

So breath and let the process unfold April!

October 19: Bounce Back Big, day 24 – broaden my scope

Hello October,

Friday is here, and I am back 🙂

I continue my Bounce Back Big journal, although I missed writing for a week;

What on … have I been doing?

I have advanced in my projects, so there is something collaborative that I put together, I found help to polish my CV and I might have resolved some of my practical issues.

Still, some ideas are on the basis of a potential, and I probably need to decide myself what is the absolute priority:

The priority, is to continue developing my creative project.

I need the help of other talented people for this.

But I also need the right environment, with the culture that promotes this type of activities.

Is it London?

I need to broaden my scope in the world, if I don’t want to repeat what happened to me in Paris. I was trying so desperately to fit in, desperately because my working culture is different, and I knew I didn’t really want to give up my creativity for this.

So?

I need to keep my eyes open

Starting from an action today.

What is up in other continents for example?

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October 5-7 2018- Bounce Back Big day 18 to 20: What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!

Hello October,

so, I decided to do what I would do if I had resolvedall the issues troubling me, meaning, go out with friends and go to the cinema. It has been a while I haven’t really been in an actual public cinema with a group of friends; I don’t consider watching films from my tablet to be equivalent. It doesn’t have any contact with real human beings.

Apart from that, looking at my CV, has given me mixed feelings: parts where I have suffered from setbacks, that I have tried not to show.

And yet, especially when it comes to issues like harassment, not talking is like being ashamed of something on behalf of the person who has harmed you.

That doesn’t make sense.

It’s not good either to spent all the time consumated in hate or revenge thoughts.

Time is valuable.

SO?

I think that my CV, like anybody’s CV should include lessons learnt.

And to be proud of who we have become in the process.

September 28-30, 2018- Bounce Back Big days 11-13

Hello September,

you want to know if I have been doing something to go in the direction of my dreams?

Well, on Friday, I send an application, not with much conviction, to be honest.

On Saturday, I contacted a friend who is a coach: I thought I needed an outside opinion.

I am waiting for the budget to see if I can afford it right now.

How about some psychological support?

I would take some, with pleasure: as long as it’s free and quality.

So?

Any news?

After taking half the day off, I started to panick.

Then, I read about being master of my emotions and thoughts.

It’s the only way I can go forward. But on the other side, accepting and feeling compassionate of myself for not always being on TOP, it’s also important.

Yes, I am a weak human being.

I am afraid, and I don’t know if I have succeeded my goals.

Plus, I have put some family members in danger with my big projects, I asked them to support.

So, now what?

If I start punishing myself, is this going to help?

No.

Yesterday, when I was wondering in central London, feeling bored, I realized something.

I might invent some problems because I don’t want to deal with a basic question:

Where can I do something creative, feel at home and live from it with similar-minded people ever after?

Maybe there is one way to find about that:

If I suggest something that others might also want to follow 😉

If not, at least I will feel free to do what I want

September 26 and 27- Bounce Back Big days 9 and 10- by taking a step back

Hello September,

I have taken a step forward yesterday on seeing that I was good at something I thought I sucked: communicating my ideas to other people in an oral presentation.

Actually, I had the courage to present for people who are experts in the field, and they liked it, although there are always things to work on.

After that, and a meeting with an administration that always takes a lot of energy, I continued with hot chocolate and wandering around London in Covent-Garden. Responsible or not, it seemed like the thing to do. Instead of applying for a job I bought myself a new agenda.

Kind of irresponsible I would say.

Yes, but I kind of needed it.

And I feel like needing a rest today, slow down and do something to reinvigorate myself.

Starting from a fruit smoothie.

And continuing with anything nice

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