June 15, 2020- How to restart and recharge energy

Hello June,

what a start we had! Kind of intensive, with a lot of things to finish which I did, and I am thankful about it.

On the other side, I feel a bit low on energy, tense, bad hair, etc. And there are still many things which need my attention, with people having different demands (from my parents, the cat, my colleagues, random neighbours, … etc).

And still, these others are here not happy about something… and I feel guilty for not satisfying all these agendas.

What to do to restart and recharge my energy?

Well, having some sleep and me time is important.

Shut the noise out.

Everything which is not rest, is noise in this case.

Then, feel I deserve accolades for such a good job the last months, and give myself credit, to begin with. It has been kind of heroic to navigate through these complicated times in such an efficient way.

So, instead of guilty, I am to feel proud.

And offer myself something I really like: a fruit juice?

Fruit Juice Versus Whole Fruit; Which One Should You Choose?

 

May 18, 2020- Transforming guilt to creativity

Hey, May,

how is it going? I am prone to feeling guilty because I don’t fulfil everybody’s demands, and all those I ask of myself.

But this is just a trap.

Why would I fulfil everything in the first place?

Because it’s my job and I am payed for it?

Or because I am a daughter, a partner, a sister, a …?

Hmm, let’s start from the job. It seems that even if I work most of the day, there is more to do. How about pleasure? It would have to be through my job because there is not much left outside. Ok, there is the cat. My parents’ cat.

So maybe, I need to start from doing something nurturing and fulfilling for myself. And then, when I am satisfied, I become productive. How about that?

And instead of waiting for something to come, I put myself to writing again. Creative writing. Because writing without adjective, is what we do when we email people.

Being creative, that’s what I need not to feel guilty to myself!!!

Let’s allow ourselves to be creative!!!

https://www.wikihow.com/Be-Creative

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May 17, 2020- How not to take responsibility for everything: share it!

Hello May,

I read a lot of things regarding taking responsibility for what happens to us. This is of course important, since we are the ones who interpret every situation, who feel or not satisfied with an outcome, who feel the pain or the joy…

But should we feel responsible for “everything”? Let’s say people around make different demands: from our family, to our colleagues or acquaintances. It is just a small step to feel overwhelmed and close to a burn out.

In that case, we might just sit back and think: is this really me, or only my responsibility?

Ok, I might have underperformed in this part of my job, did I get any training? Did I have the necessary information?

Or people ask me to give my time, my resources, X, Y and Z.

How about sitting back for a second and say:

Wait a minute, if you want me to thrive, could you give me support in this and that?

Or if it’s a family member: are you sure you can’t do that? Or maybe if it’s easier for me, I’ll do it and then you take up something I struggle with.

Or if it’s resources, why don’t we share the burden?

Not in an aggressive way, but saying, wait a minute, this is putting a pressure on me, and probably there is another way to do it that will benefit everyone.

If you, X, Y or Z don’t respect my limits, then I might have to take action to have them respected. Using any advantage I have: law, support of other people, meditate, smile, or… walk away!

Diversity  hands  people  racial harmonny,

May 7 and 8, 2020- Day 4 and 5- Great instead of High Expectations

May hello,

two very busy days and my hopes got up a little bit with a possibility for a collaboration. There is an artist I met last year and she invited me to participate to a collective project. It seems good and this person is trustworthy, I think.

So, I put myself to work for it.

Let’s see how it goes.

I was so excited to work on something creative and inspiring again!

Almost afraid to raise my expectations for fear of disappointment (what I learn in CBT).

Barnes And Noble Flexibound Classics: Great Expectations by Charles Dickens

April 26, 2020- Sunday morning

Hello April,

is it logical to have a Sunday plan? Sunday is a day to relax, pray, … but not work. And yet, I have agreed to write a small report as an exchange for a makeover of my CV.

So, instead of a crazy Saturday night, I am making a plan for Sunday.

Ideally, wake up at 7.00- in reality, it was 8.00

Exercise, breath, interact with the cat (this is the cat’s choice- she found a way into my plan)

Working on my art students portfolio

taking a break

having something to eat

get back to a report I am to write

and interact with friends and mentors.

Have chocolate

and enjoy!

 

April 5, 2020- Sunday morning at home :-)

Hello April,

yes, from home again. I realise how important it is to have a daily schedule and daily rituals when days look similar and you don’t have the kind of variety that work and others used to paint your life with.

First things, first: being grateful for being here

Smile to the face in the mirror

Play with the cat

Feed the cat

Give fresh water to the cat

Have breakfast

Have coffee

Have a nice cookie

Meditate

Talk to family members

Dance

And dance again!

 

January 31st, 2020- Being a realistic dreamer

Hello and goodbye January!

I decided to work from home today, and I just hope my boss will also like this. My first priority this month has been to feel more energised by reducing the amounts of cake I had in New Year’s Eve day, week and first two weeks.

The second, I have been asked to repeat the work I did last year, for example evaluating student’s portfolios, because I found everything excellent and I need to become stricter.

Finally, to get more channels to direct my creativity.

Because, YES, I am a f… artist!

And I can’t do the same repetitive work. I am a rebel.

And a dreamer.

Can I become more organised, kind of “realistic dreamer”?

Let’s see.

Any ideas?

I am starting journaling daily again, to begin with today:

'Realistic dreamer' is not an oxymoron. - Vanna Bonta

January 9, 2020: Back to London!

Hello January,

I am full of resolutions and I got up early today, decided to be my best self possible;

By midday, I have advanced at the things I was to finish during holidays, but I feel a bit stressed up with practical issues I have started but didn’t finish due to all this cake.

How will I chase away any fog and feel and act with confidence?

Well, I decided to eat better to begin with. Try and see if super greens are as super as they are reputed for.

Now, when it comes to people harassing us for former mistakes or failing to live up to their expectations what to do?

Just do something and see if it works.

One step a day.

Baby steps

baby steps 1

Baby steps for future millionaires (part 1)

December 27, 2019- Wrapping up certain things before the year comes to en end?

Hello December,

I have added a question mark because I don’t want to put pressure on my flu-suffering head. Yes, there are things to do. The kind of things I don’t like to face. The practical ones. The ones that if you don’t do you are not an adult and eventually, everyone will notice.

On the other hand, we do I avoid to look into the abysse? Because I am afraid I will not know what to do. And I will just stress.

I might feel bad about myself, not successful enough, not beautiful enough, not enough of something.

How about asking for help?

This is probably the best one. I need to ask for help and advice instead of pretending they don’t exist.

How about seeing myself as all there is to it?

There must be some technique to say, wait a minute, I am good and gorgeous enough, I am Worthy and my hair is just awesome today. It can be nice tomorrow also, but that doesn’t take away anything from their awesomeness today.

And I don’t need to post a picture to prove it.

Doing something special.

Giving oneself a medal?

What if some people disagree with this?

Let’s not ask them!

https://www.printavo.com/blog/year-end-checklist-10-things-you-must-do-before-wrapping-up-the-year

October 22, 2019- Deciding to change mindset

Hello October,

after a stressful beginning at the new job, problems with family members’ health and a stomach virus which left me with a sensibility, I decide to change mindset.

It’s enough in a way. Things are complicated, and somehow, there are always reasons to worry.

So, ENOUGH is ENOUGH!

What is happening in reality?

Deep down?

Deep down, is this the moment to let my fears resurface?

How about think of the wants?

The things that make my heart sing?

I start with a 10 year plan.

And then and there, I will put everything I love.

Is it only individual goals?

Everything together.

Can you grow as a person without making others grow also?

How do I treat myself and I congratulate myself for all I have accomplished?

It’s actually heroic.

To face in such a way destabilising circumstances.

And to be creative, resourceful, full of will, a CHAMPION, in other words.

So, can I make the change I need a reality?

Yes, I can.

I will start by enjoying a cup of tea.

Here and now.