July 10, 2020- Day 2 out of 66 for new habit

Hello July,

what, I forgot to tell you which habit I am aiming for? Indeed, I practically did. Should I count day one again?

So, here I am again this morning, in my parents’ home in the South of France, having my morning coffee and journaling.

I mean to feel deserving for good things and doing one thing for myself every day. Feeling so overwhelmed and guilty that I am not answering everyone’s demands in perfection doesn’t take me very far.

So? Feel that I deserve a holiday, and taking care of my hair, style, maybe stopping some chocolate and coffee? Hmm, I will go back to 70% or more chocolate and eh, I have two coffees in the morning. Make it one?

Deserving the best for us, and forgiving ourselves for our mistakes, celebrating our accomplishments.

https://beyoutifulliving.wordpress.com/tag/i-deserve-the-best-and-i-accept-the-best-now/

 

July 9, 2020- Day 1 again of 66 days- Reading Cyrano de Bergerac

Hello July,

what if I say that I will start something and then there is a day I don’t follow up? Probably, I need to start again. So, day 1 is today, July 9.

What is new? Hmm, I write my new novel, and I will testify doing it in my blog. By the way, I am reading again the play of Edmond Rostand, Cyrano de Bergerac, and I am completely moved by this love which is somehow missing its target.

So loveable, Cyrano, Roxanne and Cristian, the type of characters it would be nice to meet. Cyrano has a big nose, and he loves Roxanne. Roxanne loves handsome Christian and is loved by him. The problem is, Cyrano is putting words into Christian’s mouth and that is what Roxanne loves about him. A love triangle. Two men trying to create Roxanne’s ideal love object. Hmm…

It happens in real life also. Being afraid to show who we are for fear of not being loved, sacrificing real life to some kind of ideal…

 

CYRANO-DE-BERGERAC

July 4, 2020-Inspiration from Hamilton musical

Hello July,

Freedom is so important, to be, to feel, to write, to breath, to become!

A tribute to Independence Day, and to Independence from anything that holds us back, to become our fully developed selves, in respect for others who also are in their development path.

After slowing down for the second part of June, I realise it is important to be and feel authentic, going in the direction that inspires us and respecting who we are.

What kind of new habit to start in July?

Journaling everyday, and going back to fiction writing.

Reading literature,

Writing Poetry

Finding time and making space to be, feel and look our best!

Smiling to ourselves in the mirror every day,

We did it!

Some inspiration from the musical “Hamilton” : Hamilton-poster.jpg

https://theconversation.com/hamilton-the-diverse-musical-with-representation-problems-141473

June 15, 2020- How to restart and recharge energy

Hello June,

what a start we had! Kind of intensive, with a lot of things to finish which I did, and I am thankful about it.

On the other side, I feel a bit low on energy, tense, bad hair, etc. And there are still many things which need my attention, with people having different demands (from my parents, the cat, my colleagues, random neighbours, … etc).

And still, these others are here not happy about something… and I feel guilty for not satisfying all these agendas.

What to do to restart and recharge my energy?

Well, having some sleep and me time is important.

Shut the noise out.

Everything which is not rest, is noise in this case.

Then, feel I deserve accolades for such a good job the last months, and give myself credit, to begin with. It has been kind of heroic to navigate through these complicated times in such an efficient way.

So, instead of guilty, I am to feel proud.

And offer myself something I really like: a fruit juice?

Fruit Juice Versus Whole Fruit; Which One Should You Choose?

 

May 31, 2020- Productive Sunday :-)

Hello May,

a lot of things happened while you were around, have you noticed? But it’s not the moment to contemplate since I am writing and finishing TODAY.

Hang around there, I will get back to tell you how it all went.

Having a meeting with my editor in a while.

Yes, a virtual one 🙂

7 Ways To Make Your Sunday Productive for Best Week Ever

7 Ways To Make Your Sunday Productive for Best Week Ever

May 23, 2020- Accelerating from home!

Hello May,

big part of spring has been spent in my hometown and in my parents’ home with the cat. It felt better to isolate with them and get back a glimpse of my childhood, childhood tv series and reads.

And this time, being grateful just to be with everything else being closed.

On the other hand, when everything was closing down, it seemed that I was accelerating.

I almost finished some manuscripts left a while ago.

Ok, I also had a rejection.

But there are also some opportunities in the horizon.

Got back to my novel.

Finding a way to be creative in the present, might be the best thing to do!

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April 13, 2020- Old wounds masked as today’s lack of confidence

Hello April,

why haven’t I finished my work? Why didn’t I submit it after all the work I have put on it? Why have I left my stuff in Paris abandoned?

Because I thought I couldn’t face all these challenges and then I felt that the sky was falling on my head as Astrerix and Obelix in the famous cartoon would say.

But after all, all wounds are there and they stir up the sauce even if I pretend to ignore them.

Can I do something?

Let’s finish my work, to begin with.

As if it were somebody else’s.

Let’s act.

Let’s accept those hurt feelings and honour this girl who went through all these.

My past self.

Image titled Forgive Yourself Step 14

https://www.wikihow.com/Heal-Old-Wounds

December 23, 2019- Dream life and flu in my family home

Hello December,

two days before Christmas in my village in the South of France. Yes, it is charming. But when you arrive from London and you get a flu right away, plus the problems of my parents, it is a bit too much.

Or, maybe it happened with a different order. First I got stressed, and then I got the flu. And instead of doing all these necessary but also pleasurable things I was meant to, I am at home with the cat, watching the Hobbit 1, 2 and 3.

In any case, instead of moaning or becoming a female Ebenezer Scrooge from the homonymous story, I write about my feelings.

After working a lot, stressing and doubting my marvellousness at my new job, I thought that I could do some fun things before starting to work on my student’s art portfolios.

And finally, yes, finally, I realise that after Hobbit 1, 2 and 3, and the necessary things like bills and the like, there will be no time left.

TIME.

But maybe I just need to reevaluate pleasure. Why is it pleasurable only to live on a bike expedition and discover the hidden paths of the South of France as my neighbour does?

Is Hobbit not a work of art after all?

And my parents, and the cat less worthy company?

Some Christmas music, and I might prepare myself a Grog instead of drinking this horrid cough syrup.

After all, when is the best time to Dream than taking advantage of this flu time?

Martin Freeman in The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey (2012)

September 1st, 2019- Welcome September!

Dear September,

Welcome again! Schools, Universities, start in a while, and I feel ready to shake away the lethargic attitude which accompanied me in August, to sail in almost full speed!

I finish my novel, “The Capitaine Fracasse”, written by the talented and unique ThĂ©ophile Gautier, and I am so delighted with his use of French language, and the lessons I can learn as an author from his style. The Theater as a form of art and Commedia del’Arte play an important part, as most of the characters are actors.

In the last chapter, there is catharsis and justice to the good people in the story, so I am looking forward to a restoration of the moral balance!

Apart from that, I am planning my week, as much as possible, because I am going on a trip on Tuesday… and I will tell you more very soon!

 

August 19, 2019- Back to my hometown and to “Capitaine Fracasse”

Hello August,

I am back to the hometown cafĂ©, with my head full of the beatiful landscapes of the French Riviera, and longing for the seaside. But I need to leave my novel and go back to a working mood, which is not all phantasizing and imagining oneself in these imaginary situations of the Capitaine Fracasse’s adventures. What is better than to revisit the classics of the French Litterature in this book by ThĂ©ophile Gautier before the summer ends?