yesterday I had a discussion on what it is to be oneself and to live with others. I don’t like conforming, this is boring and the opposite of life to me. But we also live with others, how does this coincide?
I put up an artistic project where I try a compromise: do something I love, but give to the Establishment something they will like, so that everyone can feel happy about it.
Now let’s see how it will go.
If making others happy doesn’t cost me my quintessential values, I can do that.
Oh, and coffee is good at Beany Green near Paddington Central.
here I am again! It has been a week I went to Edinburgh for an artistic project that went well. Among other things, such as the Edinburgh castle, I visited the Elephant House, one of the cafés which pride themselves to be associated to Harry Potter’s creator, J.K. Rowling.
It felt inspiring to be there with all those elephants and imagine the famous -now- author being immersed on her writing with a cup of coffee. Isn’t this lady an inspiration? Apparently she tried to make this coffee last as much as possible to stay the longer possible.
Because let’s face it, cafés are good for writers, they get to be in and outside their bubble.
have you any idea how interesting it is to interview future home-sitters in Paris? There is a couch in my flat and I even felt as an analyst. Different people sat there and told me about their needs, love-life, reasons to separate or not from their former partner.
What they wanted, or not in a flat.
It is fascinating because there are still some personal objects in my flat: a book, a detail forgotten here and there. Someone told me he wouldn’t have people see his bedroom. Or he didn’t like the disposition of the kitchen. Or he wanted to cook and the oven is not big enough. They tried to picture themselves in a space that is new to them.
Some of them are confused about what they are looking for. Big flat in a remote area or small and central? Big family kitchen or small and close to action?
But in any case, it was so great to listen to life stories, aspirations, … well have I concluded?
Almost, but not quiet.
And it is time to get back to London. I will need your help on this one.
I have been facing a major dilemma since I came back to London. Should I return in September, as it was initially my plan or should I continue in London for yet another year? It is kind of tricky because I like the environment in London but still I don’t know if it is financially affordable in my current circumstances.
But going back to Paris didn’t feel like the right thing to do. So my decision is to stay in London for another year, and to create the conditions for this to be possible.
Not to speak of emotional questions that are like a roller coaster.
So, what is the best thing to do in this case?
I got myself enrolled to a gym
I decided to dynamise myself with a morning routine, … to be defined
I can be nicer to the object of my affection regardless of outcome
I will build more self esteem by making others feel good also
I will start an initiative
Now, you might say how about your other decision to write daily? What happened to that one?
I did the best I could my dear, and I am here again to pick up from where I have left my last challenge.
I am packing and unpacking, after ten days spent between Rouen and Paris in France. Did I visit all the last exhibitions? Well quiet a few of them especially those of my friends. But I dedicated my last day to shopping! Yes London might be great but with my euro as currency I am faithful to Parisian shops and style. Shoes and a bag that goes with it was my priority. They should match this is the reason I walked about 15000 steps -according to my smartphone to find them 😉
But I also brought back with me a lot of feelings, between nostalgia, already six months that I have left- and happiness to find dear friends again!
I am in Paris again! It almost took me two months to visit again the dear city where I have spent most of my adult life… and I have a lot of emotions to walk on my street and feel as if I had never moved!
But things have also changed and a lot of things happened in the six months of my absence, not all of them good. But still, and despite a weather which is windy and cloudy, it is May in Paris!
I already met with two of my best friends and now, since it is a holiday in France, I linger in one of my Paris headquarter cafés; with my computer.
Lots of great ideas came to me as I was letting my mind wander, but my working space was kind of reactive to my ideas and I had felt stuck.
I am happy to be here for a week? Yes for sure. Am I happy to have left for London? Yes definitely. We will see what the future holds.
Because it is nice to creat habits, and even nicer to change them!