November 13, 2019- Watching “Hamilton”, in London and rediscovering passion

Hello November,

and welcome back to passion! I just watched “Hamilton”, the musical, from the front row, and I was impressed with these characters’ passion, and the actors’ game.

These people were living and dying with purpose, which is something I need in my everyday life, or I need to rediscover. There are many great purposes out there, and purposes I believe in, so it’s time to say something.

All the rest, is for people who are not lovers.

In the first sense of the word.

I also found myself in a strange place.

Being invited by someone who didn’t know what exactly he wanted.

I know what I want.

And that, is a man with passion and conviction

A way to fall in love

November 12, 2019- Growing up through pain and delight

Hello November,

I had a beautiful birthday with cake, candles and friends. At the same time I felt that loving ones are not with me, because it is not possible, and I felt between guilt and sorrow.

At the same time, I realise that mourning a part of our previous life is normal, it is growing up. Something needs to go away in order to free space for the new.

I can’t be an adult and have profound relationships if my only point of reference is my parents. This is not good in someone 20s, even. So much more when you are more of a grown up.

Not having yet a family unit of my own, makes me more attached to my original family. But this is an illusion.

There was never a paradise in any age, and our relationships need balance between giving and receiving.

Do I allow people to come near me in order to create adult relationships?

And when I think about adult, I mean anything from friendships, professional, love and romance, even animals.

It would be great to adopt an animal.

Or a human being.

In any case, start to become an adult;

At least in some aspects of my existence.

I am afraid there are still a few clothes on the chair and floor 🙂

November 7, 2019- Challenges and how to raise up to meet them: NaNoWriMo

Hello November,

I have arrived tired, and I feel that small or bigger things happening are pushing me around. I don’t come up as confident in the new job, and I lose my calm.

Add to that the seasonal flu, and you get the picture.

So, how do I face this? I try for something, it looks overambitious and misses the point.

Who should I talk to?

To begin with, I need my energy, or my Chi to get circulating again.

How about breathing?

Breath in and breath out.

How am I going to give myself a break?

The thing is, when we need one, we usually don’t have it.

Then, how do we create the right space?

By creative writing of course.

NaNoWriMo, this is the writing month after all.

But I want to write a play instead of a novel.

Let’s see how it goes.

I have the idea already.

And the characters.

Maybe in between, I can go back to my question.

How about doing something right now?

November 6, 2019- Unbottled feelings

Dear November,

my feelings range from excited, to fear, to angry, to sad, to happy. I am trying to decide if I should move closer to my new job. If I should stay in my new job. If they appreciate me in my new job.

Is there a moment to doubt? Ok let’s be honest with myself. I worked for about a year in this direction. Why do I start doubting?

Because I have a fear of commitment.

What if I feel alienated?

If they don’t understand, etc, me?

If I find it too difficult?

Maybe I am not good enough.

Or too different.

Something.

The funny thing with fears, when you stop to talk to them, is that they come from different directions.

How can it be both too difficult and I too good for it? Or not challenged enough?

It’s like dating someone we don’t feel attracted to, and then feel offended if this person wants to break up.

How dare you?

I was too good for you, to begin with.

So?

So, now I am here, where I am.

I think that I can look at this present, and love it for what it is.

Not what it should be.

Not what it will be.

How will I give it a serious chance to succeed?

Is moving out of London too destabilising for now?

I feel secure to be close to my old neighbourhood.

To keep something constant in the name of change.

A Modern Dilemma

https://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/lifematters/features/modern-dilemmas/

November 1st, 2019- Beginning new adventures

Welcome November!

I went out for a walk this morning, thinking that letting go of some things makes space for new ones to come. Yes, some old and comfortable clothes with memories feel so difficult to part with, but it’s also possible to accept that we can be equally or more happy with new ones arriving.

And these new clothes might bring new aspects of ourselves, ready to express themselves out there!

I love this automne colours and the mysterious winter somewhere in the distance.

So, I am ready for new adventures, and I want to fill in my imaginary and real journal with rich experiences, love and success in growing. With many different ways to enjoy every minute.

And by thinking of long term goals and not just of day to day things to accomplish.

And art is a way of living after all, let’s put that to practice!

Orange leaves on trees in Richmond Park, London, in autumn

https://londonist.com/london/great-outdoors/autumn-trees-red-orange-leaves-walks-london

October 14, 2019- Monday Motivation in London

Hello October,

It’s Monday, it’s raining in London, and I feel I have been running behind goals, deadlines, etc. People expect things from me, I expect things from myself, and on top of that, I got to face a mini-virus.

Yes, starting something new is exciting, but it can also be stressful.

I am by my old gallery today, a powerful platform that gives me mixed feelings. I have had some hard times here and my self esteem has been tested.

But a platform also involves human beings that I like and appreciate. I have a small project with them.

Instead of thinking of whatever has been hurtful, let’s concentrate on what is inspiring right now.

Am I going to places for an external glow of power? This is meaningless, and it soon involves disappointments. On the other side, if it is to see it as a platform for meeting people and doing something together, then, it makes sense.

But it’s time I value myself more, my time, and the exposure to situations that are not bringing anything to my or anybody else’s growth.

So, farewell to anything that doesn’t serve this purpose!

And use difficult roads as fuel for our future growth!

 

How To Focus On Your Personal Growth

October 3, 2019- New job challenges in London

Dear October,

is it hard the first few days of your job? There seem to be so many things to absorb, and clients to keep satisfied, and on top of that a virus, yes, a virus!

So? What to do? I took two days off, working from home to pull myself together.

And of course, to write to my favourite journal.

Now, it seems that I don’t come out as competent and confident as a great artist and gorgeous woman that I am.

Well, maybe it helps that all my clothes for two seasons are in my suitcase, the one I brought with me to London 🙂

I decided to go through the internet for help, and start some morning affirmations.

How about reaching out to others also?

https://www.businessnewsdaily.com/7890-first-week-new-job.html

September 8, 2019- Having coffee in Notting Hill and preparing for the week to come

Hello September,

yes, I am right now in Notting Hill, London, enjoying a latte as I need this extra energy to focus and be as sharp as I can!

The next few days are demanding, and there was no spare time to visit the city. But finding myself in this spot is already great, and the sun is on my face every time a cloud moves.

This is a form of happiness. Do we need more?

Monday starts in crazy pace as I am in my new job and need to give the best impressions!

Notting Hill Townhouses

https://www.timeout.com/london/blog/five-historical-things-to-look-out-for-in-notting-hill-011317

September 4, 2019- Back to London!

Dear September,

can you believe it? I am back to London, I almost pinch myself because this was not very likely the past few months. And yet, here I am, crossing the Waterloo bridge. Funny isn’t it?

For a French person, a Waterloo is a defeat or a failure, but for the British people, it’s a victory.

On either side, if you cross a defeat or failure, it’s Victory and Success that you meet.

Having the courage to go to the other side means a lot in itself.

So here I am to the victorious side of the equation, having crossed deserts and rivers, seeing both sides of the equation.

A new adventure begins!

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April 22, 2019- A 30-day challenge- Day 1

Hello April,

I am looking for a 30-day challenge to try, and waking up early, at 5.30 today is the first step. So, here I am, breathing in and out, deciding on ways to be more present and productive.

To begin with, I am having coffee and some fruit.

I take myself out.

The sun is shining.

It will take my sleepiness away.

I read that it’s important to write down things you are to do.

And then spend 15 minutes with the easiest task.

Next step, the most difficult task for 35 minutes.

That’s where I am right now.

Finishing something I have been writing.

🙂

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