July 9, 2020- Day 1 again of 66 days- Reading Cyrano de Bergerac

Hello July,

what if I say that I will start something and then there is a day I don’t follow up? Probably, I need to start again. So, day 1 is today, July 9.

What is new? Hmm, I write my new novel, and I will testify doing it in my blog. By the way, I am reading again the play of Edmond Rostand, Cyrano de Bergerac, and I am completely moved by this love which is somehow missing its target.

So loveable, Cyrano, Roxanne and Cristian, the type of characters it would be nice to meet. Cyrano has a big nose, and he loves Roxanne. Roxanne loves handsome Christian and is loved by him. The problem is, Cyrano is putting words into Christian’s mouth and that is what Roxanne loves about him. A love triangle. Two men trying to create Roxanne’s ideal love object. Hmm…

It happens in real life also. Being afraid to show who we are for fear of not being loved, sacrificing real life to some kind of ideal…

 

CYRANO-DE-BERGERAC

June 1st, 2020- I did it! Finished writing on time!

Welcome June,

amazing to start the month with a feeling of completion… of a chapter. I was happy, and then I had time to stress for a next deadline: the marking I postponed and need to finish by June 2.

Well?

Yes, I have had two “plaques de chocolat”. And yes, it helped.

A cup of detox tea will be the next step.

And a fairy tale to go to sleep.

And wake up too early tomorrow.

But still, I’ll take the end of the day to celebrate: Today!

May 18, 2020- Transforming guilt to creativity

Hey, May,

how is it going? I am prone to feeling guilty because I don’t fulfil everybody’s demands, and all those I ask of myself.

But this is just a trap.

Why would I fulfil everything in the first place?

Because it’s my job and I am payed for it?

Or because I am a daughter, a partner, a sister, a …?

Hmm, let’s start from the job. It seems that even if I work most of the day, there is more to do. How about pleasure? It would have to be through my job because there is not much left outside. Ok, there is the cat. My parents’ cat.

So maybe, I need to start from doing something nurturing and fulfilling for myself. And then, when I am satisfied, I become productive. How about that?

And instead of waiting for something to come, I put myself to writing again. Creative writing. Because writing without adjective, is what we do when we email people.

Being creative, that’s what I need not to feel guilty to myself!!!

Let’s allow ourselves to be creative!!!

https://www.wikihow.com/Be-Creative

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May 3, 2020- How to change disappointment into motivation and action

Hello May,

I woke up with the best intentions, walked by myself, had coffee, and then it hit me: a negative answer from a publisher on a piece of work. A piece I have worked and worked over for several years.

Not to mention, it has been rejected a few times.

I can’t describe my feelings. Anger, he doesn’t understand, feeling miserable for myself, here is where I ended with all these rejections… more general statements about my life etc.

Then, I thought: let’s change that.

Indeed, I need to do something differently.

To begin with, to tell myself: I DESERVE THE BEST IN LIFE, as everybody else.

Why?

Try, why not?

Planet Earth is bountiful.

So, second step: I need help. Let’s go around and ask for some.

Let’s identify people who could help me.

Then, get some chocolate.

And also, think whether there is a better strategy.

There is something simple which could be done in a different way.

Something which is related to the packaging.

And let’s dance a bit!

And let’s also do something I like a lot, like, write a new poem

Check on Art:

https://archive.org/details/meisterw00kren/page/42/mode/2up

 

April 13, 2020- Old wounds masked as today’s lack of confidence

Hello April,

why haven’t I finished my work? Why didn’t I submit it after all the work I have put on it? Why have I left my stuff in Paris abandoned?

Because I thought I couldn’t face all these challenges and then I felt that the sky was falling on my head as Astrerix and Obelix in the famous cartoon would say.

But after all, all wounds are there and they stir up the sauce even if I pretend to ignore them.

Can I do something?

Let’s finish my work, to begin with.

As if it were somebody else’s.

Let’s act.

Let’s accept those hurt feelings and honour this girl who went through all these.

My past self.

Image titled Forgive Yourself Step 14

https://www.wikihow.com/Heal-Old-Wounds

February 2, 2020- Let’s get lucky this month and “get things done”!

Wellcome February,

2nd day of the 2nd month of 2020, and all those 2s make me want to accelerate and get lucky!

I had coffee, I crossed paths with a charming neighbour and I worked seriously and unproductively during the day. Then, I bought “getting things done”, by David Allen, and decided to try his suggestions on productivity.

When my reals self wants to run wild in the woods, revolt against any type of obligation and challenge anyone who might try to oppress my creative energies.

Hmm, all that when I need to re-do some of the work I did last month because I didn’t exactly follow the criteria.

Well, I am reading it, so that I get things done and most of all I get dreams into reality

September 1st, 2019- Welcome September!

Dear September,

Welcome again! Schools, Universities, start in a while, and I feel ready to shake away the lethargic attitude which accompanied me in August, to sail in almost full speed!

I finish my novel, “The Capitaine Fracasse”, written by the talented and unique Théophile Gautier, and I am so delighted with his use of French language, and the lessons I can learn as an author from his style. The Theater as a form of art and Commedia del’Arte play an important part, as most of the characters are actors.

In the last chapter, there is catharsis and justice to the good people in the story, so I am looking forward to a restoration of the moral balance!

Apart from that, I am planning my week, as much as possible, because I am going on a trip on Tuesday… and I will tell you more very soon!

 

June 1st, 2019- Welcome June!

Welcome, June,

you find me at the café of my hometown, in the South of France where I focus on my writing. And I also mail job applications. I have come to the conclusion that my publishing pace needs to get faster and my focus deeper.

How about the everyday issues that appear and try to get my attention?

Hmm, probably fix one hour a day to deal with them.

September 19 and 20- Bounce Back Big day 2 and 3- remember to have Fun!

Hello September,

so, after a moment of morning stress, I breathe deep and look into the advice I got on what to do when stuck in a rut, or when in need of miracle solutions.

I started contacting people I know, and the first one has given me an idea I never thought about: apparently, I might address myself to the wrong people. He kind of lifted my spirits, saying that I have a strong profile. And he would be willing to act as a mentor.

After that, I went to a seminar, a sort of “how to” teach art students.

Very helpful.

How about today?

Well, I feel kind of overwhelmed with the things I am to do.

This is not helping.

So I am going to a seminar in the afternoon, and I take something else from my list of things to do:

“Go explore and have fun. Get those creative juices flowing. You will be surprised how motivating it is to just get out”.

I honestly don’t remember who said that, but I send virtual thanks and hugs.

It seems very appropriate.

So, no matter what the urgency, the emergency is to have fun.

Fun emergency, and deep breathing!

June 20, 2018- Love and how to stay cool

Hello June,

it seems that I have a boyfriend, he is wonderful, loving, and he came out of nowhere, almost. Is he for real? It is so recent, I still pinch myself. It is too early to say.

But that doesn’t stop me for walking with a BIG smile in my face, and even if someone is pushing me at the busy London streets, I am in a very good mood and thank them.

What is he finds out I have been a struggling artist?

Or it shows in any case?

Let’s concentrate on work and stay cool.

So?

Any progress there?

Well, kind of.

I am waiting a response from a galley owner who seemed

interested.

And then?

I am putting together a hell of an art portfolio.

And I have a month to do it.

Expecting a miraculous intervention.

Because everything is possible.

So, making things happen or letting them happen and sitting back in a relaxed way?

Something in between 🙂

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