October 17, 2021: Designing my Perfect Life

Hello October,

I feel a bit more relaxed after a month in London, and I start wishing for more: so here I am, planning what I would love to see materialising in my life: everyday life, friends, home, career, anything. I would like a magic wand to attend to it, but sometimes, taking a step at a time is also great. I came accros my goals set in 2017 in an old notebook, and was happily surprised to see I have reached them, almost all!

In the meanwhile, there were times that looked disastrous, as if not only I was not reaching any goal, but I was also losing what I already had! Somehow, I kept my faith, in the middle of these adventures, and I can now talk from a much better place.

So, how do I create magic again? Apparently Good Things come to those who Create, so I will draw the best possible picture and I will see myself into it. I see myself aligned with my work environment, friends I can trust and who can be trusted and a mission that inspires me! A loving family created, pets, travelling to unite with like-minded people on Earth, Beauty and my personal Utopia materialised!

Can we be happy in the middle of unhappiness? Yes, because LIFE has always a way to get ahead, and by involving as many others as possible to this happy bubble of ours! May Happy Bubbles become many and include the whole world!

January 15, 2021-Post-a-day, day 10 out of 66- what happens when you skip a day?

Hello January,

what happens when you skip a day when you want to install a new habit? self-flagellation like in the Medieval times? When people were walking and hitting themselves for their wrongs and sins?

Well, maybe there are other new versions of that.

Instead, it could be, yes, I did, but I also had a very productive day. Should I start over? Maybe I should, actually. So, I had a reason.

Now what practically?

I suggest that I continue and I add the number of days I missed, so, instead of 66, 67 days

What else? Something fulfilling to relax instead of watching a series.

What could that be?

I was drawing a few years back, I could do it again,

Sending my poems to this interesting poet I met last year in London

Developing my. blog and creating ebooks,

That is something I can do, actually 🙂

https://www.thecuriouslycreative.com/list-of-creative-hobbies/

October 19, 2020-Making time for what is important, day 2

Hello October,

yes, I did go to sleep half an hour earlier, but the cat woke me up at 4.30, probably because she wanted to play. Result, I slept until 8.00, but that’s ok.

Next thing, to waken up my spirit also, not just my body, moving around the house; did I have fruit? kind of… I had some leftovers of yesterdays’ cake.

Let’s get some fruit now, as I am writing; yes!

ok I just had an orange and a banana.

So, let’s go for a sugar free week, with some slight exceptions of 70 per cent dark chocolate; Sugar light week?

So, what is important? Taking care of ourselves, and feeling we deserve to be healthy, prosperous, with our most important needs fulfilled…

Getting some help hasn’t hurt anyone either… from our friends, in any form they come… per

July 9, 2020- Day 1 again of 66 days- Reading Cyrano de Bergerac

Hello July,

what if I say that I will start something and then there is a day I don’t follow up? Probably, I need to start again. So, day 1 is today, July 9.

What is new? Hmm, I write my new novel, and I will testify doing it in my blog. By the way, I am reading again the play of Edmond Rostand, Cyrano de Bergerac, and I am completely moved by this love which is somehow missing its target.

So loveable, Cyrano, Roxanne and Cristian, the type of characters it would be nice to meet. Cyrano has a big nose, and he loves Roxanne. Roxanne loves handsome Christian and is loved by him. The problem is, Cyrano is putting words into Christian’s mouth and that is what Roxanne loves about him. A love triangle. Two men trying to create Roxanne’s ideal love object. Hmm…

It happens in real life also. Being afraid to show who we are for fear of not being loved, sacrificing real life to some kind of ideal…

 

June 1st, 2020- I did it! Finished writing on time!

Welcome June,

amazing to start the month with a feeling of completion… of a chapter. I was happy, and then I had time to stress for a next deadline: the marking I postponed and need to finish by June 2.

Well?

Yes, I have had two “plaques de chocolat”. And yes, it helped.

A cup of detox tea will be the next step.

And a fairy tale to go to sleep.

And wake up too early tomorrow.

But still, I’ll take the end of the day to celebrate: Today!

May 18, 2020- Transforming guilt to creativity

Hey, May,

how is it going? I am prone to feeling guilty because I don’t fulfil everybody’s demands, and all those I ask of myself.

But this is just a trap.

Why would I fulfil everything in the first place?

Because it’s my job and I am payed for it?

Or because I am a daughter, a partner, a sister, a …?

Hmm, let’s start from the job. It seems that even if I work most of the day, there is more to do. How about pleasure? It would have to be through my job because there is not much left outside. Ok, there is the cat. My parents’ cat.

So maybe, I need to start from doing something nurturing and fulfilling for myself. And then, when I am satisfied, I become productive. How about that?

And instead of waiting for something to come, I put myself to writing again. Creative writing. Because writing without adjective, is what we do when we email people.

Being creative, that’s what I need not to feel guilty to myself!!!

Let’s allow ourselves to be creative!!!

https://www.wikihow.com/Be-Creative

May 3, 2020- How to change disappointment into motivation and action

Hello May,

I woke up with the best intentions, walked by myself, had coffee, and then it hit me: a negative answer from a publisher on a piece of work. A piece I have worked and worked over for several years.

Not to mention, it has been rejected a few times.

I can’t describe my feelings. Anger, he doesn’t understand, feeling miserable for myself, here is where I ended with all these rejections… more general statements about my life etc.

Then, I thought: let’s change that.

Indeed, I need to do something differently.

To begin with, to tell myself: I DESERVE THE BEST IN LIFE, as everybody else.

Why?

Try, why not?

Planet Earth is bountiful.

So, second step: I need help. Let’s go around and ask for some.

Let’s identify people who could help me.

Then, get some chocolate.

And also, think whether there is a better strategy.

There is something simple which could be done in a different way.

Something which is related to the packaging.

And let’s dance a bit!

And let’s also do something I like a lot, like, write a new poem

Check on Art:

https://archive.org/details/meisterw00kren/page/42/mode/2up

 

April 13, 2020- Old wounds masked as today’s lack of confidence

Hello April,

why haven’t I finished my work? Why didn’t I submit it after all the work I have put on it? Why have I left my stuff in Paris abandoned?

Because I thought I couldn’t face all these challenges and then I felt that the sky was falling on my head as Astrerix and Obelix in the famous cartoon would say.

But after all, all wounds are there and they stir up the sauce even if I pretend to ignore them.

Can I do something?

Let’s finish my work, to begin with.

As if it were somebody else’s.

Let’s act.

Let’s accept those hurt feelings and honour this girl who went through all these.

My past self.

https://www.wikihow.com/Heal-Old-Wounds

February 2, 2020- Let’s get lucky this month and “get things done”!

Wellcome February,

2nd day of the 2nd month of 2020, and all those 2s make me want to accelerate and get lucky!

I had coffee, I crossed paths with a charming neighbour and I worked seriously and unproductively during the day. Then, I bought “getting things done”, by David Allen, and decided to try his suggestions on productivity.

When my reals self wants to run wild in the woods, revolt against any type of obligation and challenge anyone who might try to oppress my creative energies.

Hmm, all that when I need to re-do some of the work I did last month because I didn’t exactly follow the criteria.

Well, I am reading it, so that I get things done and most of all I get dreams into reality

September 1st, 2019- Welcome September!

Dear September,

Welcome again! Schools, Universities, start in a while, and I feel ready to shake away the lethargic attitude which accompanied me in August, to sail in almost full speed!

I finish my novel, “The Capitaine Fracasse”, written by the talented and unique Théophile Gautier, and I am so delighted with his use of French language, and the lessons I can learn as an author from his style. The Theater as a form of art and Commedia del’Arte play an important part, as most of the characters are actors.

In the last chapter, there is catharsis and justice to the good people in the story, so I am looking forward to a restoration of the moral balance!

Apart from that, I am planning my week, as much as possible, because I am going on a trip on Tuesday… and I will tell you more very soon!