July 15, 2017- Building up confidence

Hello July,

I woke up at 5.30 and reflected on the way to reach my goal. And this goal is, to get the bet job in my field, and to be the best person for it. To contribute to something beautiful and meaningful through my art.

What do I do with fears, rejections etc? Can I hide them under the carpet?

They might come back.

Fears that I am fooling myself.

Ok, even if this were true, I can act as if.

What if I don’t persuade anyone else?

I can start from persuading myself.

What could I bring that is  useful ?

I think I have a unique way to see things.

Can I bring people with me? It feels kind of lonely up here.

Well, this is secondary. But eventually, you need to try to see how it goes.

Don’t look for approval, but feedback is good.

How do I change my routine to keep up the energy and the confidence?

How about start with taking a confident posture? this is important.

apparently, when you put your hands on your belt you already feel more confident.

So exercise is good;

But it has to feel good so that we treat our body with respect

 

https://hubpages.com/health/How-to-Build-Confidence-with-Your-Voice-and-Body-Language

November 9, 2016: Mind Power

Hello November,

here you are again and I need your energy. I realize my self-confidence needs boosting for the kind of things I want to accomplish.

I know I am good at my work, and I am talented. But when I need to perform and put myself out there I am not my best ally.

So, can you become my coach?

How do I develop a ‘moral d’acier, good enough to take me where I need to go and even further?

Yes, I am listening!

 

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June 1rst, 2016: Getting my self-confidence to work for me

Welcome June!

what if it’s cold and rainy in London, summer has arrived! And I will need your full suport for my plans, so listen carefully and come up with useful advice!

I had a meeting with an old friend and successful artist, who has built an international career; he has been presenting his work in different parts of the world. When we had first met we were both at the beginning, but it seems that my way had more road blocks. He evolved mainly in the States, I was in France. Now, he has become curator for a very avant-gard museum and also finds time for his work.

Somehow I felt stressed up at the end of this lunch, comparing his it to my situation.

Not again April, you might say.

Yes I know, I am more than lucky and grateful to find myself in London, but greed seems to be part of our culture; I want MORE

Is more better?

I need my self-confidence to work for me instead of sabotaging me. Is it worthwhile wondering, is my writing good enough? Is it going to be recognized by some powerful figure who decides on allocation of resources?

How about getting my power back and doing what I like better? The power figure is me!

Will my self-confidence be my personal trainer and coach?

 

Building Confidence

Developing Self-Confidence from within

April 25, 2016: Post day 12- You are Awesome no matter what!

Good morning April,

I had a great day today, finding two like-minded artists who would like to join me in a project.

So I am having some chocolate to celebrate and I remind myself and you too:

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November 10, 2015- Being an alter-native and enjoying it

Dear November

today I went through some major self-questioning on my work: what if people who read my text find my writing alter-native, strange and the worst a bad interpretation of genuinely good writing? I had the feeling that I might be using the same words but I the combination comes up as something different. Am I part of a community or an Alien lost in translation?

What is worst, my freshly acquired mentor in London was not to be found after I send him some of my art work and I started imagining the worst possible scenario. He didn’t want to tell me how he disliked it so he was avoiding me instead.

After some hours of paranoia I decided to call him and we might meet tomorrow.

But in any case, whether he likes what he sees or not, I might need to assume some part of my alter-native-ness, explain and communicate better what seems to be important.

And continue looking for people who would like to come and inhabit my Alter-Land 🙂

alternative teacher certification

http://www.teaching-certification.com/alternative-teaching-certification.html

April 7, 2015- Self Esteem and the smile of the Cheshire Cat

Oh dear April,

have you doubted about yourself? Saying maybe March is the first month of Spring, and then May brings the roses, etc, what am i doing in the middle? No recognition at all?

Never thought of it? So much the better…

Well today I was kind of obsessed with the idea of the evaluation of my last project. It will be sent to me in a … month.

I started thinking of the worst scenarios. Maybe it is bad. Maybe my enemies in Paris, no, France, have come together and decided my ideas are not at all interesting, original, comprehensible. A shame to all the illustrious artists ever breathed in France and abroad.

Maybe they found my project arrogant, shameless, a sort of blasphemy to … whatever should ever be respected!

How could I face this mountain of imaginary criticism?

Well, in the past, I have been traumatized with the idea that I am alone with my little flame.

A flame which has been judged for not being clear, beautiful, possible to communicate.

I have angered people because I disagreed and fired back. I have faced haters. And although it is not something that happens to me every day, the memory of it is enough to make me deadly scared.

After all, it is as if they were saying: “April you are not accepted as a member of the artistic community of Paris. Your work is not worthy enough for… this important funding, and you may not hold this important position at this xxx museum”.

I am saying: look here is what I do, it is just a little bit different, let me join in and play with you.

I am between the desire for a community that will encourage me and the need to be creative in an independent way.

There are different forms of evaluations here and there.

How do we learn from them without getting destroyed every time we go through the process?

Maybe when we see ourselves as something much bigger than the work we present.

Our work might be our “child”, but still, we can remodel it and create new ones, all of them lovely, some more wonderful than others!

So, dear evaluators, you might criticize or not accept my work, but I am so much more, and I can still smile to you with it like the cat of the Cheshire Cat in Alice’s wonderland!

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cheshire_Cat

March 24b- Lunch with a friendenemy

Do you have friendenemies March?

What do I mean by that? Let’s say, someone who seems to be kind to you, who invites you for lunch for example. Someone who is supposed to be your hierarchical superior, a sort of mentor. He gives you “advice” and seems eager to help you, but only when it doesn’t cost anything to him. And also puts you down in a subtle way.

I had lunch with this sort of ex-mentor. It was to see if he could advise me on my art project that I submit for funding. But through the conversation, it was clear he was only nice at the surface. He was telling me to give up.

The thing is, I learnt from another source he has a candidate he prefers over me.

Why did I go see him if I had this information? Was it necessary? Just to lower my spirits?

On the other hand, since the idea came to my mind, I thought, maybe there is a reason, I might understand something more about the situation.

The friendenemy or false mentor, is like a bad parenting figure. A parent who likes one child better than another, and you are the least loved one. You are always not as good as, there is not much expected of you, and your parent attributes a failure to your incompetence. A possible and more healthy solution is to change environment and choose to be with positive people who believe in us.

How do we recognize friendenemies? I think it is our feelings. When a person seems to be kind to us, even flattering us, but at the end of the interaction we feel bad, we should confide into our gut-feeling.

So I bid farewell to my ex-mentor.

He can do his best for his new “champion”.

And I will look for another mentor 🙂

 

http://asha3.blogspot.fr/2012/03/friend-enemy.html

March 24- I have Confidence … :-)

Oh, dear March,

Have I confidence? Do the members of the committee who will read my art project have faith in it? We will find out at the end of the week. Right now I am emailing influential people, and listening to the “Sound of Music”, that I had discovered as a child, … as a form of soundtrack …

These old musicals, they are timeless… in French it is different, … I need to check for uplifting songs… 🙂

A song somehow stirs emotions in a way a simple text will not, it combines ideas with powerful emotions… a song we love 🙂

December 7- My new Boss

Dear December,

I have a new Boss, a wonderful person. Someone who believes in me and encourages me, although sometimes might be critical and want proofs of my competence. Someone who stands by me and wants to see me succeed not just for me but because there is something I need to accomplish for all of us. Because if I do something constructive and beautiful, even small, I contribute to universal happiness.

I have known this person for years, and we haven’t always been close. In the past there have been issues between us. This person might have even tried to sabotage me at some point. It was because of the insecurities and the difficulty to trust.

But now this person has more experience and learned from past errors. Learnt to lead and how to trust and believe in the team.

Believe without being complacent is something that raises our standards.

This wonderful Boss is myself 🙂

P.S. Thanks beautifullyzen.wordpress.com for the suggestions of what makes a great boss: I am going to work on those I haven’t already 😉

https://beautifullyzen.wordpress.com/2013/06/14/10-mindful-tips-on-being-a-great-boss/

November 16- How to make your own luck and just in case, how to pray for a miracle

Dear November,

I am ready to go to bed after a rainy day in Paris, and dividing my time between my favorite cafés and meetings with certain artists I would like to work with.

As I finally returned home, I started browsing some web pages and came up to “How to make your own luck” and the advice given seemed quiet interesting:

a. Be assertive and proactive

b. Believe in a goal

c. Put deadlines on your goals

d. Expect great lucky ideas to occur to you, but do not worry, if you’re not inspired right now.

e. Raise your expectations

f. Work smarter, not harder

g. Seek new experiences

h. Be positive

i. Persist!

And in case this doesn’t work, there is always another possibility 🙂

How to pray to God for a miracle:

a. Visualize clearly what you want

b Take a moment to calm yourself and connect with God

c. Believe that you already received when you prayed

d. Let it go

f. Alternate Method for Quicker Results (just ask, and see what happens)

Make Your Own Luck Step 2.jpg

http://www.wikihow.com/Make-Your-Own-Luck

and http://www.wikihow.com/Pray-to-God-for-a-Miracle