here I am again, with a considerable amount of work, unanswered mails, a book plan pending and a group of people who thought my last presentation sucked.
How do I turn this around?
“Whatever you think, think the opposite”!
This is the advice of the day.
So I have some work I love and I am on top of it, everybody loves and admires my presentation, and what is more, I have an artistic portfolio that has substance and a book that is practically finished.
Glory and wealth awaits in the next corner, and YES, the World will be saved from itself!
summer solstice today, hey, this is great, I had some sun on my head when I went for tea today in London, but it was raining all morning. Just to cheer us up, I found this beautiful sun designed by Megan, an artist from Chicago.
By the way, I also decided the best way to deal with Mega goals is to act in a spontaneous way. I will let you know how that works. You see June, I am not good at pushing myself. I think self deserves a chocolate from time to time, a hug, a nice cup of tea and other similar things. So even if there is a list of things to be done, I will give them their time and I will take mine!
tonight, at the cocktail party that followed the launching of an exhibition, I run into an old flame. He is a Belgian I had been in love with, briefly, during the preparation of an event,artistic event, and then he vanished somewhere in Germany. He has proposed to me to collaborate and I accepted even though working with him brings back memories.
He is in a relationship now, and he doesn’t seem very happy: this is probably the reason why he is bitter about my plans and perspectives. Not exactly what I need. Of course I need precision, I need to ask people with experience; but it is also good to have cheerleaders around who will tell you: just go for it!
At the same time I think he is talented and his idea makes sense. I shouldn’t throw it away but take a first step and see what it feels like working together again; in any case we don’t need any geographical proximity. And a lot of other people would be involved 🙂
what if it’s cold and rainy in London, summer has arrived! And I will need your full suport for my plans, so listen carefully and come up with useful advice!
I had a meeting with an old friend and successful artist, who has built an international career; he has been presenting his work in different parts of the world. When we had first met we were both at the beginning, but it seems that my way had more road blocks. He evolved mainly in the States, I was in France. Now, he has become curator for a very avant-gard museum and also finds time for his work.
Somehow I felt stressed up at the end of this lunch, comparing his it to my situation.
Not again April, you might say.
Yes I know, I am more than lucky and grateful to find myself in London, but greed seems to be part of our culture; I want MORE
Is more better?
I need my self-confidence to work for me instead of sabotaging me. Is it worthwhile wondering, is my writing good enough? Is it going to be recognized by some powerful figure who decides on allocation of resources?
How about getting my power back and doing what I like better? The power figure is me!
Will my self-confidence be my personal trainer and coach?
will I drag my body to the gym today? Outside it is raining, and I am in front of an office with a bar of chocolate. Is my will strong enough?
I still have a few hours before the place closes down. Ok, yesterday it was a holiday, this morning I had to go grocery shopping… and then start working on my book…
When there is a will there is a way, a wise person has said… but is there? I have enrolled to the gym already, Brian gave me a ‘tour guide’ and I admired the facilities and the place… I also bought myself a fitness suit.
Well, I also have other objectives for the day, for example to walk about 12000 steps a day. Not to mention reading, writing and research funding, …
I have been facing a major dilemma since I came back to London. Should I return in September, as it was initially my plan or should I continue in London for yet another year? It is kind of tricky because I like the environment in London but still I don’t know if it is financially affordable in my current circumstances.
But going back to Paris didn’t feel like the right thing to do. So my decision is to stay in London for another year, and to create the conditions for this to be possible.
Not to speak of emotional questions that are like a roller coaster.
So, what is the best thing to do in this case?
I got myself enrolled to a gym
I decided to dynamise myself with a morning routine, … to be defined
I can be nicer to the object of my affection regardless of outcome
I will build more self esteem by making others feel good also
I will start an initiative
Now, you might say how about your other decision to write daily? What happened to that one?
I did the best I could my dear, and I am here again to pick up from where I have left my last challenge.
The South of France was just great, the sea brize and the picturesque ports, but here I am back to London!
The weather feels like spring despite some occasional showers. So I took the advice of ;y friend Brian and went to Camden town and walked around by the canal. This is the best way to get back to the life in London. I had ice cream and promise I will go to Shoreditch for brunch in one of my next missions.
This is also a promise to catch up with the idea of a post a day 🙂
A pause is good and a way to stay faithful to my own rules would be to add the writing days I have missed while I was admiring the scenery …
do you consider yourself attractive? Because it”s not exactly the same thing as beautiful. Attractive, in my opinion, seems to be more important for dating 🙂
Hmm and it is a quality more difficult to discern. It is relational. You cannot be attractive if there is no one around to attract. It doesn’t have to do with the way you are dressed, with your manners, with your education. Or religion, or upbringing, or even colour of skin or hair. Of any particular characteristic.
And then, are we attractive to specific kind of people and vice-versa? Or it is something that affects everybody?
Could other people agree on that? Has it happened to you to see a friend’s partner who seems average to you to be presented as the most attractive man around? And you wonder if there is something you just miss?
So maybe opinions can diverge; and so much the better. Because if we all wanted oranges at the same time what would happen to the apples and the pears?