March 17, 2017-How to value Creative CHAOS

Dear March,

I have read a lot of “how to” advice and I feel a bit confused: do you have a rule of thumb about the best way to be effective and to materialize my wishes?

For example, I wish my room to be tidied while I am writing, to see the trousers and sweaters go directly on the right drawers, I see a vacuum cleaner and even small etiquettes with the names of each category;

I also see myself dressed, clean, with perfect hair and nails, in my impeccable outfit;

I see job applications completed by themselves, and future employers astonished at the profile and qualities they read. Not to mention the style of the application, absolutely perfect.

I also see all my finances in order, bills, …

My handbag is also very much ordered, my library, my head.

How is this possible?

It is so funny but at the café I am right now, I listen to people make comments on other people. Two friends in French and a couple in Portuguese.

And me?

I see my book advancing at a rhythm I couldn’t imagine; and another book written; and a translation of my current book in English.

All this happens while I lay here, and I relax in front of my coffee cup. In London.

All this happens miraculously.

But even if all this order and perfection is not present at the moment, I am quiet happy with the messiness and creativity of my imaginary musings 😉

I see people inviting me to give lectures on my books, which have a great impact.

And the love of my life by my side but respectful of my writing time and need for alone moments.

After all, order is born from chaos and creativity needs a chaotic moment;

 

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February 26, 2016: day 30 out of 60 day challenge for a quantum leap-update :-)

Hello February,

today I have arrived at the middle of my challenge for a quantum leap on my personal and professional life! 30 days have passed and an update is needed. Where are you April? I may ask myself. How does it go so far?

 

Well, it has been a challenging but rewarding period. Being in London means for me doing things faster than in Paris, but I mark a pause-cafe from time to time. Because, as the Chinese have said:

“Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished”

Taking my time, to look around into people’s faces and emotions might be a luxury, but it seems to me the only way to be an artist

Where Do You Find Your Inspiration?

February 20 and 21, 2016: day 24 and 25 out of 60 day challenge-the fountain of Youth

Hello February

have you heard the legend of the fountain of Youth? Apparently, the Greek historian Herodotus is the first to mention it. Somewhere in Ethiopia there was a mythical place where people lived at least up to 120 years. They were good-looking and  fit.

How do I know about this? From Wikipedia of course. I googled it.

Now how come I write a post concerning the fountaine of Youth? It is because I was dragged to the cinema by a Spanish friend to watch Zoolander 2. And the fountain had an important role to play there. Should you go and watch the film? I honestly don’t know what to say. But I thought the idea of the fountain and all the people in fashion -and not only- going crazy for youth and good looks is somehow relevant.

Youth and good looks remind us of life. Somehow, part of ourself regenerates every day, that is how we are alive. If we get hurt, we can get well. Physically and emotionally.

So we all have a fountain of youth in our reach 🙂

Photo: Fountain of Youth illustration

http://science.nationalgeographic.com/science/archaeology/fountain-of-youth/

February 17, 2016: day 20 of 60 day challenge- afternoon tea at Covent Garden

Dear February,

after having worked for hours on my project with a Roumanian and a French artist, I only want to share my afternoon tea-time. The Roumanian artist, who is a 40 something year old, has lived for a while in London and she suggested a place for tea. She is working part-time in a cosmetics company and the rest of the time she writes.

In any case, she took us to BB bakery for our afternoon tea, and we looked a little bit like these three characters in the photo. I would be the one in the middle holding a macaron, only that I chose a macaronpistache” and I had a lot of fun: “Amidst the hustle and bustle of busy Covent Garden is the relaxing sanctuary of BB Bakery. Come here to relax with a coffee and cupcake before you hit the shops or stop for high tea or even a bite to eat before your evening out”.

There is something very girlish and playful about this place which is just what I needed to get away from the hustle and bustle of my serious every day life 🙂

Afternoon Tea

October 19, 2015- On new habits and taking risks

Hi there October,

am I the only person who doesn’t know how to use a gas stove? And is this a reason to laugh at me? Of course gas stoves exist in France. But I had never been faced to one.

And now, I found myself in my new flat, where everything is different somehow. I need to think :

a. how do I open the window?

b. how do I use the gas stove without causing damage…

c. how do I use the washing machine?

d. is this the way you turn on the shower?

Anyway, it is not a question of a cultural change, no. Here, I simply admit that I am not very handy with machines and objects. I spend twice as much time to do the simplest thing.

But still, this is fun.

Not that I don’t have any fears. Last night I had a nightmare. I was telling my best friend that I didn’t know if I was destroying myself and others with my risks:

To come to London and spend some of my last economies in order to be create in a different artistic Platform. A place that seems dynamic and welcoming.Will I be up to their expectations?

To rent a flat with two bedrooms without really affording it. Couldn’t I just start small, with a tiny room? Will I find soon the right flatmate?

Somehow it was easier to persuade a real estate agent than a group of people for a flatshare.

So here I am. With my autumn cold. Sneezing.

But still, daring to dream and cook around the clock 🙂

June 5, 2015- I need a good strategy

Dear June,

more than 31° Celcius today in Paris! My summer clothes and shoes were still hiding and all of a sudden I had to find something light to wear! It felt like a holiday … almost… things changed in the evening with a storm.

This day could serve a metaphor for me: I started in the morning with a visit to a “salon de beauté”. It is something to do when I get stressed up. And then I have to work until almost midnight. I guess I am a night-bird.

It was at about 1.00 that I went back to my different projects:

-Istanbul, to begin with. I am to get there by the end of the month with a group of artists. Will I get paled? Probably no. Will I get funding from the wannabe boss? He promised, but …

-A Brazilian artist I work with arrives in Paris just before this event and I am in touch with him for whatever he might need in terms of organization.

Then, there is something else for early September.

Am I spending much time for things that might not pay off materially? Yes and no.

Not right away.

I need a strategy. That is the thing.

Am I in denial, ignoring the realities of the artistic life in Paris?

I probably am.

One of my strategies has been to built international collaborations, but it hasn’t worked well enough.

Now, I need a new strategy.

A strategy that agrees with my nature.

As a person.

As an artist.

As an inspired and unorganized event organizer.

 

 

http://workinglater.blogspot.fr/2014/11/combining-paycheck-with-your-passion.html

February 17- Blog writing as a compensation or a work of art :-)

Hello there February,

would you say that blog-writing is a form of compensation? For something missing? This is what a friend just told me. And I would easily agree with that. It is here to fill in a void. A creative void.

A need to express and communicate, to give form to feelings, ideas, moments. Much more ephemeral than other forms of art. Oops, could it be a form of art? Is our everyday expression taking us to the next level, making out of us artists?

To miss something, is the essence and definition of desire. And creating without desire is not possible.

So let’s compensate some of our desires right here. In the blog-sphere

And the rest of them, out there 🙂

In the concrete, material and face to face world.

Executive Compensation 185

http://www.referenceforbusiness.com/management/Em-Exp/Executive-Compensation.html

November 30- Opera Bastille in Paris: la Boème and romantic love

Farewell November!

In yesterday’s post I was comparing Prince Charming to the acquisition of a tablet, in a very disrespectful way for love, I have to admit. Today, I was exposed to a different point of view: I went to see “La Bohème”, at the Opera Bastille in Paris. And cried my eyes out in this romantic love story at the end of the 19th century.

The story is about poor artists living in small attics in Paris at the end of the 19th century, freezing in the cold winter, but on fire with love and talent. Two romantic souls meet, they are made for each other, but of course, it is a drama, and a tragic death puts an end to the romance. I love so much Puccini’s music, the composer of this opera!

The scene where Rodolfo and Mimi meet and open their heart to each other, is my best I think.

Just a link not from the Paris Opera, but of the Scala in Milano in 1979, because I also like it, to show you what I mean.

Meeting another soul, is so powerful that its only existence in art and in life, moves my heart!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/La_boh%C3%A8me

 

September 30- Monthly Update

Dear September,

instead of goodby, I would like to summarize some important thoughts you have inspired to me!

a. I am living on a beautiful planet, member of a galaxy, that belongs to the universe

a. I need to follow my heart’s desire in order to be on the right orbit: writing to begin with and creating dreams that can become reality for me and others

c. I need the right environment to flourish; find the people for me, the context, the love, … in a way that they make me grow; those who don’t can simply fade away, they are not part of my story

d. I am a Tiger -among other things- capable to roar, but I also like to play and get some rest as a big cat.

Thank you September,

à bientôt 😉

http://www.slideteam.net/automatic-monthly-update-with-segmented-pie-chart-powerpoint-diagram-templates-graphics-712.html

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September 8- Looking into the mirror of my dreams

Dear September,

What is my heart’s desire? This is the question I tried to answer today.

I stayed home and this gave me the time to browse my past journals. (By the way, yes, I am an adict to journals in every possible form: paper, electronic, …)

It was as if I was looking into the mirror of my past dreams.

Here is what I realized about myself:

a. My dream number one when I was 20 was to become a writer!

b. Writing is one of the activities that give me most pleasure!

c. Writing a blog is already great!

d. Writing a novel has filled my heart with joy!

e. Publishing it is my next objective!

Somehow, my heart’s desire became secondary all these years because I was looking for an occupation that would give me a sense of material security. And becoming an artistic event organizer was the solution, but it has not given me the material security I was hoping for.

Don’t get me wrong September, I enjoy what I do. And getting to know artists and their work is a source of inspiration anyway.

But this occupation can only come second; fullfilling my no 1 heart’s desire shouldn’t keep waiting any more.

It is as if I didn’t expect to succeed in this and didn’t want to give it a try.

As if I were in love with someone I found too attractive, or great or … for me, so I would date someone else. Or not trying to live in my favorite neighborhood because it was not possible and I would look for an apartment in another area.

Why not simplify life and try for what I really like, instead of my second or third choice?

Why not say what I have to say, instead of waiting for others to guess it?

Why not use my internal compass to take my to the right direction?

P.S. Here is what Melody Nunez is suggesting in her interesting page, and I intend to try it (http://melodynunez.com/flashback/)