today I went through some major self-questioning on my work: what if people who read my text find my writing alter-native, strange and the worst a bad interpretation of genuinely good writing? I had the feeling that I might be using the same words but I the combination comes up as something different. Am I part of a community or an Alien lost in translation?
What is worst, my freshly acquired mentor in London was not to be found after I send him some of my art work and I started imagining the worst possible scenario. He didn’t want to tell me how he disliked it so he was avoiding me instead.
After some hours of paranoia I decided to call him and we might meet tomorrow.
But in any case, whether he likes what he sees or not, I might need to assume some part of my alter-native-ness, explain and communicate better what seems to be important.
And continue looking for people who would like to come and inhabit my Alter-Land 🙂
Yes November I know: it is only Tuesday and if I want to get up early and start working on my project I should just go to sleep early. Be in bed at 22.00, 23.00 with my eyes closed. But I have these friends visiting from Paris and they have friends in London. Shouldn’t I make new acquaintances? It is not as if I knew awful lot people right now…
The thing is also they are at the other end of the city. Do I feel like commuting for an hour? Am I going to be out of balance financially if I start to go out here and there in the middle of the week?
I don’t know how big the temptation will be. For now I feel slightly hungry and I try to take the best rational and emotional decision.
I realize this is the first post of the month so I wish you a warm welcome from London! All these details about bank accounts, mobile phone issues, tooth ache, just disappear in the background!
I am happy to be in London starting something new and the small discomforts and resistances are part of the adventure. So let it be let it be and go on! More the less we had a beautiful and sunny week-end!
Now what if my internet doesn’t work at home or if I have been overcharged for calls… what if the employee of the mobile phones store told me I can make international calls on mobile lines for less than land lines…
let’s not resist change and go with the flow wherever this is taking me…
But could you just give me a hint? Is it a good idea to come over here? Should I have returned to my parents’ home instead and hidden on the basement where no one would ever hear about my adventures and wishes to become a well-known author, an art authority and one of the sexiest women alive?
And here is a photo of a compatriote to inspire me, Brigitte Bardot 😉