today I went through some major self-questioning on my work: what if people who read my text find my writing alter-native, strange and the worst a bad interpretation of genuinely good writing? I had the feeling that I might be using the same words but I the combination comes up as something different. Am I part of a community or an Alien lost in translation?
What is worst, my freshly acquired mentor in London was not to be found after I send him some of my art work and I started imagining the worst possible scenario. He didn’t want to tell me how he disliked it so he was avoiding me instead.
After some hours of paranoia I decided to call him and we might meet tomorrow.
But in any case, whether he likes what he sees or not, I might need to assume some part of my alter-native-ness, explain and communicate better what seems to be important.
And continue looking for people who would like to come and inhabit my Alter-Land 🙂
what is the next right move? You might ask. Feeling good and getting a sense of direction. Actually I do. There is an idea that has been like a seed planted in my mind, and it starts growing. I will need to find a team of enthusiastic artists to work on that.
I am going through a quote period, so here is one:
“When the personality comes to serve the energy of your soul, that is authentic empowerment”
Now, the way I understand this, if I am a Tiger – I was in a dream- I need to behave like one in order to feel good and serve my purpose in the bigger world I belong to : chase, sleep, etc. If I decide to become vegetarian it might not agree with me and the balance of my environment might be lost. It is like being a fish out of water.
For human beings, there is a bigger choice of paths and actions. Is there everything fixed once and for all before, or at the moment we are born? During our childhood? Later… I don’t know. There are different positions on that, and a lot of studies that have been conducted.
But once, for whatever reason, our personality emerges like the spine of our existence, we need to feel like a fish in the water; having a sense of purpose. That saves a lot of energy… and I will try to get to bed not long after midnight for this reason 😉