here I am again! It has been a week I went to Edinburgh for an artistic project that went well. Among other things, such as the Edinburgh castle, I visited the Elephant House, one of the cafés which pride themselves to be associated to Harry Potter’s creator, J.K. Rowling.
It felt inspiring to be there with all those elephants and imagine the famous -now- author being immersed on her writing with a cup of coffee. Isn’t this lady an inspiration? Apparently she tried to make this coffee last as much as possible to stay the longer possible.
Because let’s face it, cafés are good for writers, they get to be in and outside their bubble.
or should I say , hello Paris! Here I am again, and it is a sunny beautiful day that I found myself in the Eurostar, taking me to the Gare du Nord. Because I need to find a nice person to sublet my cute place in Paris.
Yes, I still want to keep it. It has been one of the reasons I was resisting the idea of change: where do you find these cafés, Italian traiteurs, wonderful neighbours and fresh vegetables?
so there is this blogger meeting, the Blogger’s Bash I intend to attend for the first time, and meet people who share the same passion: writing and publishing something on line on a regular basis!
In the meanwhile, I have been dealing with practical questions: how to keep my environment organized, satisfy my flatmate who thinks I don’t clean the surfaces in the Kitchen every time I finish cooking -she might have a point- with creative writing, organizing my next artistic event and also looking for funding opportunities for another round in the UK.
Hmmm… and last but not least, I need to walk more than 15.000 steps a day so that our team wins the trophee at the working platform I am attached to.
So, where is the time for romance? Passion? Exhuberation? Soul searching?
To be honest, I start from soul-searching and being open to inspiration.
This is why I can forget spraying Dettol on the kitchen or to put my clothes in order.
This is also the reason why I start my working day after lunch.
And why I finish so late!
Do I want to change that?
I like writing late, the feeling that I am the only person around.
There is something rebellious about it, I am not sure I can find early in the morning.
I have been facing a major dilemma since I came back to London. Should I return in September, as it was initially my plan or should I continue in London for yet another year? It is kind of tricky because I like the environment in London but still I don’t know if it is financially affordable in my current circumstances.
But going back to Paris didn’t feel like the right thing to do. So my decision is to stay in London for another year, and to create the conditions for this to be possible.
Not to speak of emotional questions that are like a roller coaster.
So, what is the best thing to do in this case?
I got myself enrolled to a gym
I decided to dynamise myself with a morning routine, … to be defined
I can be nicer to the object of my affection regardless of outcome
I will build more self esteem by making others feel good also
I will start an initiative
Now, you might say how about your other decision to write daily? What happened to that one?
I did the best I could my dear, and I am here again to pick up from where I have left my last challenge.
I am in Paris again! It almost took me two months to visit again the dear city where I have spent most of my adult life… and I have a lot of emotions to walk on my street and feel as if I had never moved!
But things have also changed and a lot of things happened in the six months of my absence, not all of them good. But still, and despite a weather which is windy and cloudy, it is May in Paris!
I already met with two of my best friends and now, since it is a holiday in France, I linger in one of my Paris headquarter cafés; with my computer.
Lots of great ideas came to me as I was letting my mind wander, but my working space was kind of reactive to my ideas and I had felt stuck.
I am happy to be here for a week? Yes for sure. Am I happy to have left for London? Yes definitely. We will see what the future holds.
Because it is nice to creat habits, and even nicer to change them!
today I have arrived at the middle of my challenge for a quantum leap on my personal and professional life! 30 days have passed and an update is needed. Where are you April? I may ask myself. How does it go so far?
Well, it has been a challenging but rewarding period. Being in London means for me doing things faster than in Paris, but I mark a pause-cafe from time to time. Because, as the Chinese have said:
“Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished”
Taking my time, to look around into people’s faces and emotions might be a luxury, but it seems to me the only way to be an artist
love is in the air, St Valentine approaching and the big question for me is: do I know my heart’s desire when it comes to love? Because you may order a tiramisu and while having it realize it was chocolate panacota you wished for after all.
By the way, I had an excellent chocolate panacota in London yesterday night.
So now, how do you access this information?Introspection? Making lists? Asking for advice? Intuition? Feeling?
Falling in love is one way. Love at first sight. For some reason, you want a person. It could get better and better. Or not. If one projects her personal wishes into a person without seeing who is in front of them for real.
Ok, but for example, getting to know what I like, I like for example people who take care of the physical aspect of things. Who have a sense of beauty, esthetics. And this doesn’t mean liking a particular body type or facial structure. Or hair.
Or getting a nice feeling, like creating something together. It could be having a good time while drinking coffee or tea, since I am in London.
Or sharing other nice moments.
Be in communication.
Does one have to think about the life style one wants?
A couple of friends will have their sixth child soon. Organization is needed.
Another couple of friends, lives with four cats. This limits their movement because they always take them with them.
How about when you follow the wind and put as a priority your artistic project? What kind of panacota mathes that?
after running like crazy the last 10 days, I decided to cool down and catch my breath. To do some housecleaning, really the minimum, and go out for a walk.
As I was looking around for the last London sales, I run into a French salesperson. What a coincidence! You might add. After all the French population in London is really big. Cecile told me she has left the south of France as myself, 10 years ago. London is a vibrant city, but she still misses the sun. Well, compared to Paris, there isn’t that big a difference after all.
The second part of the day I met one of my alter ego friends who has a different view in life. He has a plan to get as much money he can through meaningless jobs in order to be able to pay the tuition for the school of his dreams. Ok. We walked around in Soho. We had a cocktail. That was cool. He told me he thinks I am crazy with my life choices. I could say the same for him.
But after all, does it make much difference? We choose a path. And this path leads somewhere. But, as some wise person has said, we got to choose with our heart.
And this is the only criteria which validates it after all.