December 20, 2020-Self Growth as the Goal-Making space for what is important, day 12

Hello December,

yes, Christmas is approaching and lockdown brings me back to my parents’ home as an adult, and it would have almost been my worst nightmare when I was an adolescent, if it hadn’t been worse two years ago. Because two years ago, I had all that, plus, I didn’t have a job.

And still, when I look to pictures two years back, I was smiling and found a way to be happy. And a few years back it felt even worse to fail something. I just decided to continue the effort no matter what.

My point is, despite having had some “wins” in my life, like a good degree, good notes, initiating an artistic network in Paris which brought together important figures, I couldn’t support myself and my relationships sucked.

I have faced situations like finding only a horrid job and being fired from it, or seeing years pass and nothing tangible coming up.

Until I didn’t have any more psychological resources. And then, somehow I got them back. My faith also.

SO, even when my material resources were over, and my old world was crumbling under my feet, I had psychological resources and FAITH, not to a particular goal, not to show anyone anything, not to shut up any critic, but to continue looking for a path, learning from other people and not afraid to be wrong if that meant I would keep on learning.

This got me into a job I could support myself with, but where I suffered from bullying and bad work environment. I kept looking and I got a much better one. And finally, had the possibility to resign from something I didn’t want.

So, this lockdown, apart from other things, is a good time to readjust goals and decide what makes my heart sing today, instead of reaching goals for anyone else.

And this happens when SELF GROWTH becomes the goal, independent of age, instead of reaching any specific goal. How can I keep learning and developing my full potential as a human being? How to balance relationships with decisions on our own personal path?

To be continued…

September 1st and 2nd, 2020-First days in new job!

Welcome September,

I am so excited to start a new job, after having resigned from the previous one!!!

It has been miracle-like, I had almost lost hope, when it came to me, and I feel a mixture of anticipation, excitement and some stress because I want to be my best self in it…

Feeling exhilarated

February 7, 2020- How to feel when encountering a roadblock

Hello February,

I just felt down because I have almost encountered a roadblock. I was late to submit a funding application for a project and I might not afford to go there by myself.

On the one hand, I feel guilty for not having prevented it, on the other side there is a feeling of overwhelm with all the dates, and other things happening into my life.

How to be on top of that without constantly following a crazy and meaningless program?

Well, I will try use Siri in my iPhone more. When I see a deadline I should right away make a note on my calendar instead of thinking about it.

Hmm

And change my mood. Feeling bad about myself is not the way.

Yes, I self-sabotaged because I was waiting for someone else to say I could do it.

Or the perfect occasion.

Or, to ask people to stretch for me and get a feeling they care.

Or, all of it together.

Now, let’s assume that and continue.

I will definitely read again David Allen’s book which I put aside.

And change my mood.

Give a big hug to myself for doing so well.

Yes, I deserve this!

And YES I CAN!!!

Image titled Be in Your Happy Place Step 9

December 27, 2019- Wrapping up certain things before the year comes to en end?

Hello December,

I have added a question mark because I don’t want to put pressure on my flu-suffering head. Yes, there are things to do. The kind of things I don’t like to face. The practical ones. The ones that if you don’t do you are not an adult and eventually, everyone will notice.

On the other hand, we do I avoid to look into the abysse? Because I am afraid I will not know what to do. And I will just stress.

I might feel bad about myself, not successful enough, not beautiful enough, not enough of something.

How about asking for help?

This is probably the best one. I need to ask for help and advice instead of pretending they don’t exist.

How about seeing myself as all there is to it?

There must be some technique to say, wait a minute, I am good and gorgeous enough, I am Worthy and my hair is just awesome today. It can be nice tomorrow also, but that doesn’t take away anything from their awesomeness today.

And I don’t need to post a picture to prove it.

Doing something special.

Giving oneself a medal?

What if some people disagree with this?

Let’s not ask them!

https://www.printavo.com/blog/year-end-checklist-10-things-you-must-do-before-wrapping-up-the-year

September 28-30, 2018- Bounce Back Big days 11-13

Hello September,

you want to know if I have been doing something to go in the direction of my dreams?

Well, on Friday, I send an application, not with much conviction, to be honest.

On Saturday, I contacted a friend who is a coach: I thought I needed an outside opinion.

I am waiting for the budget to see if I can afford it right now.

How about some psychological support?

I would take some, with pleasure: as long as it’s free and quality.

So?

Any news?

After taking half the day off, I started to panick.

Then, I read about being master of my emotions and thoughts.

It’s the only way I can go forward. But on the other side, accepting and feeling compassionate of myself for not always being on TOP, it’s also important.

Yes, I am a weak human being.

I am afraid, and I don’t know if I have succeeded my goals.

Plus, I have put some family members in danger with my big projects, I asked them to support.

So, now what?

If I start punishing myself, is this going to help?

No.

Yesterday, when I was wondering in central London, feeling bored, I realized something.

I might invent some problems because I don’t want to deal with a basic question:

Where can I do something creative, feel at home and live from it with similar-minded people ever after?

Maybe there is one way to find about that:

If I suggest something that others might also want to follow 😉

If not, at least I will feel free to do what I want

December 1, 2017- December Ninja ;-)

Welcome December!

Winter is coming with you, and it’s a good thing to see things more clearly, the naked tree branches and a more minimalistic aspect of nature!

For me, adventure is here:

I need to move out of my current room by Saturday, and the studio didn’t work because they were asking the 6 months in advance plus expenses plus agency plus deposit.

There is another possibility coming up, but I need all my “sang-froid” or my cool and relaxed attitude to make it work.

The Samurai or Ninja attitude.

The Warrior Creator or how to be relaxed and productive in the middle of a storm

Hello November,

this inspiring post of David Rogers on  The Warrior Creator

is the best way to start the weekend!

Relaxed and busy, how to stay focused on our work even if there is a storm outside.

So I am ready to put to use David’s advice, and be productive and relaxed way:

there is a short story I want to submit this weekend, and my NaNoWriMo novel is advancing, even a few lines a day.

I don’t need to look at the end, I just focus on the next steps.

November 9, 2017- Instinct, Wishful thinking and Logic: How to make decisions

Hello November,

well, a friend asked me how I see things in London. Am I making any progress in terms of jobs? What is to be overconfident, realistic or having a good instinct for things?

Am I insisting on a course of action because I am just unwilling to be a realist?

Am I doing something different?

Have I asked anybody’s feedback?

Well, I actually did.

I need to go where other people can’t, or won’t.

And, to publish where it is possible to publish, instead of waiting for a perfect publishing. house.

More could be better.

http://www.oprah.com/spirit/how-to-make-the-right-decision-how-to-decide/all

November 1st, 2017- November Goals!

November welcome!

it’s a kind of chilly with 8 degrees in London this morning, and I woke faster to get to my new favorite café since my move. So, what are the goals this month?

  1. Act confidence, and submit as many manuscripts as possible, for publication
  2. look confidence, and dress up the part
  3. exercise
  4. plan things with friends, beginning from birthday celebration
  5. update for success and see what has worked and what hasn’t in my plans

I think this is enough for now 😉

http://www.foodboozeandbaggage.com/2014/11/03/november-monthly-goals/

October 5, 2017- Sens of purpose day

Hello October,

when the going gets tough, the tough get going… a wise person has said… so what makes us go?

I have a project, an idea, I think it is important to share it, in the best conditions… I am confident that it’s going to add something to other people’s lives. Some might find it strange.

So, how do I go about it?

Enter the arena you shy away from is an advise.

Ok, this arena might be people who doubt me.

Instead of trying at my level, I might change level and setting.

A different type of gallery, in another setting.

Let’s give it a try.