May 9 and 10, 2020- Doubts and light at the end of the tunnel

Hello May,

yes, on Saturday I had a bad mood: no sign of my colleague who proposed a collaboration. Maybe she didn’t like my work, maybe I tried for nothing…

I kind of felt disempowered. …

And on top of that … family issues…

But Sunday, was another day!

I started with Beatles: Here comes the sun!

And apparently, it’s. good choice!

My colleague responded: there is an interest from an editor, but we need to work out something by the end of May… OMG!

April 1st, 2020- 6 Year Blog-Anniversary! Happy Birthday April4June6!

Welcome April,

again, in this strange period where we humans realise how much we have in common and how vulnerable we are without cooperation!

Six years after I started blogging, at the beginning only for three months: April to June, with the promise to write every day. And I did!

I was facing a wannabe boss who fired me in Paris, France, heartbreak, financial instability, health issues of members of my family and some passing issues with me, eh… kind a few actually!

In the meanwhile I changed country and language, went to London, changed again, went through precarious jobs and relationships, … published a book, got a new job, published some poetry…

And here I am in my starting point, at my parents’ home waiting for the virus storm to pass, hoping and praying it will get better for all of us…

And thinking of ways to act responsibly in the world emerging…

Still, a lot of reasons to celebrate, and most of all, celebrate the trajectory, wins and losses, getting back up and continuing…

And THANKING friends, people who have stood by, blogfriends, everyday life friends, unknown kind passers by who smiled, flowers, animals, kids, the wind in my cheek…

HappY BirthdaY April4June6 WordPress blog, it’s time we expand… I will tell you how 🙂

June 22, 2016: Cheering up for a European in London… with the story of the Chinese Farmer

Hello June,

well, for a French in London it was a kind of blow to see the UK taking a different path… so I admit my mood has been affected a bit with the anticipation and final vote on Brexit…

How is it possible to cheer oneself up?

Probably with doing the best we can in any situation and let things take their course whatever that is…

September 10, 2015-Thursday Waiting for Love ;-)

Hello September,

As I am searching for flats in London, I came up this song of AVICII and completely loved it! So I would like to dedicate it to all who find something inspiring in it, and as the lyrics say, “Thursday, Waiting for Love”! Let’s wait for love not only on Thursday! Let’s love something, someone, ourselves, now, the past, the future, a nice dessert, a smile, a blog post!

March 30- The day after

Hello dear March,

how are you doing? For me it is the day after … a battle, where I didn’t win the prize. My bones hurt and I allow myself to feel tired. Is there a lesson to learn? Was my proposal good enough? Did I advertize it as much as I should have? Did I find a champion to defend it? Many questions, that I can answer later.

Right now the most important thing is to relax, feel good, and then, I will have the time to learn whatever lesson there is to learn.

I deserve a special treat. Going to my favorite café. Eating a piece of chocolate. Listening to my favorite music. Talking to a close friend. Kissing someone I am in love with and being kissed. Or something close to that. Read or write a poem. Or both.

After all, I did better than last time. And I should acknowledge this fact and appreciate my effort. Putting myself at stake, out there, demanded some courage.

I can also think of the larger picture. Getting this funding or job, is a step, an intermediate goal, towards the Big One: not only advancing with my personal work and diffusing it but creating an inspiring Platform where people will be stimulated to give their best, and they will find the means to realize their dreams. A place where we will put together something worth transmitting to future generations 🙂

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June 27- Miracle!

Dear June,

I have started this blog in April, with the idea that I wanted to transform myself and my life. My objectives? A job where I do what I like and I manage to live from it. And of course, true love. Now, what is true love? It could be a place where two people feel at home.

I went for lunch in the whereabouts of the Platform, I had agreed to meet H. He has been asking me to collaborate for an artistic project. I think he is intelligent and I appreciate his ideas, but we are not sharing the same perspective. However, I promised to consider it for next year.

H and I have made different choices in life: He has a stable income, doing something he doesn’t like that much, but he doesn’t have enough time to express his creativity. On the contrary, I had chosen to tolerate instability, but to work on things I am passionate about. This has been stressful at times, and I have been under pressure, but I am not bitter. And I saw that in him. He seemed to say that there is no way to place oneself in a better position as event organizers.

I told him some people do, so there must be a way. And we shouldn’t give up.

But talking to him depressed me a bit, since it felt as if I my hopes were not realistic. I went for a walk by myself after lunch for a debriefing, which is not the best thing to do, when not in a good mood.

June is almost over, I thoughg, I have taken a challenge, and where am I? Three days before the end of the month, and still in the same situation I was before.

In terms of love, B is a fantasy, I have to admit it. I have fallen in love with an illusion. And there have been some artists in transit whose idea was an adventure. Something I am not interested in.

When it comes to work, I have projects, but I have only applied for two fundings. What are my chances?

In this mood, I returned to my office and checked my emails.

And here it was, a MIRACLE!

My project has successfully passed the first round for the funding I asked!

I was thrilled!

My blues disappeared!

I have until August 5 to present a more detailed version and submit it for the second round. It is not going to be easy, but I am honoured to still be in the game!

Thank you June!

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