Welcome my dear New Year! Here I am, having a glass of wine and feeling extremely hopeful and in a good mood. There is no particular reason for this. I am having a party by myself, after my parents got to sleep in my small French village, and I am listening to some music.
I spent much time being afraid in 2019, but despite everything, I am proud to have pulled it through in a decent way and to have reached a milestone compared to my previous life.
There is something that is appearing as a possibility to live from my whatever activity.
And also, I want to choose my friends as to real friends, because I don’t need “figurines” or replacements because I can stand by myself. Anyone who wants to stand by me could be because we are enjoying it and not because we are afraid.
after my first week in my new job, I feel like I am asked to do a lot, and I am a bit behind. Probably because this is part-time, and I have another objective that also requires dedication and focus.
And in all this, I caught myself doubting and feeling discouraged and stressed-up.
Memories of times when I wasn’t on my top came back.
It felt as if I don’t play enough.
How do I dissolve this negative self-talk?
By making every moment enjoyable.
By taking other people on the ride with me.
I have reversed tendencies many times.
By eating more healthy food.
More and better.
All these fearful ideas are my past self conceptions, based on other people.
Do I want to take them over?
How about having a definition and imposing it?
But still, respecting other people’s needs.