September 2nd: Back to London!

Hello September and hello London!

I am back!!!

My clothes and stuff is on boxes on the floor, I barely have space to walk and there are moths in my new room!

After moving in out and around between countries, and living with my parents during the pandemic, I am back to working face to face, with the mask as an accessory.

I bought a beautiful rose flower, a vase and a lavender pot to face the moths.

The rose was amazing and beautiful. The lavender pot that is supposed to serve as a remedy was half price. I wasn’t sure it will survive indoors.

These purchases reflect my current attitude:

Hope for a better future, with the rose

Fear with a plant that is not at its best.

I will give a chance to the lavender also, at least asking for advice to make it feel better.

Hope and fear might live in the same person.

But if we take more care of the hope, the fear might go away and do its job: guard us only when it is necessary.

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June 5 and 6 2016: take your passion and make it happen ;-)

Hello there, June,

I am still in front of my desk with my eyes kind of aching after all these words I have been reading, writing, erasing, rewriting.

Actually I admit I have a publishing fear: I am writing, and then I don’t really show my work to the publishers I could have. Especially in the world contacted. Especially when it comes to writing a project for my other activity, the artistic project organization, I seem to feel overwhelmed: I still have on my mind the words of my critics, it doesn’t make sense, it is not well written, it is … not publishable for the brochure of the exhibition… you’d better stick to contact the catering… who do you think you are, the curator?

Just to make a long story short.

The thing is, I have dared to publish a book. But I went to find a publisher in my French village, probably hoping no one will find about it.

At least none of my Parisian, high brow critics.

I am a great performer, so I dare to explain things in meetings.

But when it comes to writing the text, there is something in the form that doesn’t fit the gallery’s standards.

I decided to change that.

I will sent as many projects as possible. They will wonder how on earth I found the time.

I sure must have a ghost-writer.

A slave I have seduced with my inhuman charm.

Or something of the kind;-)

September 24 – How to be a Tiger

Dear September,

I have committed in writing every day, so we will keep each other company for the next few days.

By the way, I sent my manuscript to a new publishing house and have a good feeling about it;

In this way I am moving in the direction of my heart’s desire. This action has fuelled up my motivation and chased the feeling of helplessness that was dwelling around.

I was picturing myself alone, misunderstood, with a mountain of challenges to face. Like a damsel in despair at the approach of a dreadful dragon.

The film “the Life of Pi”, released in 2012, that I watched recently, somehow inspired me: Pi, a shipwreck victim, is an Indian adolescent. He is stranded on a life boat with a tiger that was transferred on the ship, and he finds a way to survive in its  company. The film is extremely rich in meanings, but I will just choose a point of view relevant to my experience:

I dreamt of myself as a Tiger. There was another animal attacking me, and I was hopelessly trying to defend myself or make it go. Then, I had to come to a realization: I  can’t escape or win, as I am right now. I need to transform into something else, something more powerful. And there it was, I became a huge Tiger, roaring. That settled everything.

As a tiger, I need to change my eating habits. I think we eat on average six kilos of meet a day. Also sleeping hours;  and I need a territory to chase. But I will figure out everything.

The most important is that no Platform animal should come bother me if it is the moment for starters 😉

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P.S. An interesting analysis of the film: http://screenrant.com/life-of-pi-movie-ending-spoilers/