June 18- Busy day

Dear June

today it was a busy day: meetings were succeeding each-other. I am expecting tomorrow an artist for a performance, and I was in touch with him, with the Press, with people whose opinion would matter, etc. I also met the colleague who has a problem with one of the members of her team. She invited me for lunch with another event organizer to ask our opinion. The question was what to do with this third person who was creating trouble for them. Kick her out? Was it right? Keep her in the project with her trouble? Find some kind of intermediate solution? I voted for the intermediate solution.

Then, I asked an older colleague advice considering the wannabe boss. How could I protect myself and keep growing? He suggested I open up my cards to the big boss, and tell him how things stand. After all, I have nothing to lose. He also advised me to work more on my manuscripts and spent less time with the event organization. This is what is going to help me to build a career of my own.

I know I need to write more and have a more disciplined routine. Falling in love was not something that helped my concentration. I also need to send more job applications, etc. Is it possible not to let feelings interfere and be dependable in any possible situation?

I don’t know. Maybe it is. My consultant said some super heroes could. Do I need to become a super hero?

Being a woman is already close.


Ways to Work Exercise into a Busy Day


June 5- standing up to the wannabe boss

Hello June,

today I had a confrontation with the wannabe boss of the Platform. He has been a source of motivation to this blog, a day that he insulted me, so I could consider him as my personal muse. In case you have not been informed, the Platform is a loose network of artists, producers, and event organizers, where I belong. The Platform has a geographical existence in Paris, and I go there daily, in order to meet people, discuss ideas and projects. It offers me a form of legitimacy when I am for example asking for funding. The wannabe boss is the no 2 of this Platform. He has been bulling me that I don’t bring enough money to the Platform through my activity. And has menaced to throw me out.

Oh, I forgot that last year there has been an internal fight, and I didn’t take his side. Yes, I admit that.

I also have stood up to him.

How dare you? He said. You have no real job, no security, what gives you the right to have an opinion?

Amazing that he can ask, in the country of human rights.

As in some fairy tales, he has given me a list of assignments to fulfill, that he considered impossible for me to succeed. And then, he would have an excuse to do what he was planning.

Now you may say, wait a second, if you are not getting a salary there, why do you take him seriously, him and his assignments? Let him “fire” you from the imaginary job. And laugh at him and his imaginary power.

This is absolutely true.

At the same time, fulfilling some assignments is good for me. When I succeed, I might get a real job elsewhere, independently of what he thinks.

So, to go back to my story, I got some “magical help” and I succeeded.

Today we had a meeting, with other event organizers also, to talk about next year. He was inviting questions, but was making sure not to look in my direction, so that he wouldn’t have to let me speak. But the other participants insisted, and he had to.

I announced my summer event in the South of France, and invited everybody who could come.

He didn’t like that. It was written all over his face. But he couldn’t say anything.

Am I safe from him? I think for the time being. But I need to watch my back.

Maybe our enemies are our muses, who inspire us to excel.

In that sense, thank you wannabe boss! Thank you for taking me to the next level!