February 15, 2016: day 18 of 60 day challenge- post-St Valentine

Dear February,

I have started questioning myself on love, and two of my wise blog-friends, Anna and Erika have contributed valuable comments yesterday. Anna is in love and loved by a great guy. I think the same stands for Erika. So they both told me, the hypothesis of my Spanish friend: “society has changed and there are no stable loving couples”, is not valid. I like their perspective better.

Erika also said, every form of loving relationship has its value. Love for one day, with someone you meet on the plane. Short term relationship with someone who changes and so have you. You have the difference between a hot dog on the run, a sort of fast food, average restaurant. And then, you have true love, that is like haute cuisine and 3 stars restaurant at the Michelin guide, if I may use the cuisine comparison.

Do you need to have tried all the other versions to appreciate the 3 star in the Michelin guide restaurant? No. But also, yes.

There are moments we are not available, Erika says. We have this meeting to catch, so a hot dog from someone in the street is fine. Or we just stop at the fast food for a while. But a 3 star restaurant is not only related to expenses, but also needs planning, reservation. You can’t just decide it at the last-minute. So, somehow, it has to be a priority number one.

Now, what kind of love are you ready for April?

I would like to be invited to the 3 star restaurant. In this way I save some time and enjoy the outcome all the same 😉

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February 14, 2016: day 17 out of 60 day challenge- Happy Valentine’s day!

Happy St.Valentine’s day dear February!

here we are, in the middle of the month, with the spring waiting around the corner. And what is better than love to keep us warm, us, those who live on the north hemisphere?

Oh, love, I had a business meeting with a Japanese artist and his Iranian girlfriend, but this doesn’t exactly count as a date.

And I also spent part of the day trying desperately to get myself connected to the internet. This is long, so I spare you the details, it is not the right moment. But most of all I went out for a drink with the Spanish scenarist who tries to get enough money to go to Hollywood. He told me London is the right place to work on something he doesn’t really like such as selling cosmetics to women. When he will have the amount he thinks necessary, in a couple of years, he will go to Hollywood to try his chance.

In the meanwhile, he is looking for an almost relationship with an available female. The female should not want children with him neither family. He told me life has changed and the model of the couple with children is no longer valid in our societies. People wouldn’t stay in a relationship for more than 4 years.

He could be right about divorces raising. And that the way people live together might have changed. But somehow, deep down, it feels like there is always a way to show love and affection. And to grow with our relationship.

Happy St Valentine to all of us!

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January 26- Update on love and work

Dear January,

yes, I am ready for an update since the month of April 2014, the beginning of this blog. What were my objectives and what has happened?

The idea was to transform myself in order to reach important goals that can contribute -I think- to my happiness:

a. find true love (and be found by it).

b. get a real job that I love (meaning getting paid enough to live and …enjoy art, fashion, traveling, offering gifts, having a luxurious home, etc) (https://april4june6.wordpress.com/about/).

Now, if I want to be honest with myself, it would seem as if I haven’t accomplished my goals, at least not completely. But it is important to acknowledge the progress I have made:

A. In terms of true love, I found myself lovable, and try to live up to a true love of me, which is a way to love other people also.

Writing a blog, is a positive action, it has helped my emotions to unfold. So it weighs in the balance, on the side of true love, I would say.

I know you will tell me, come on, April, be more specific: are you on a relationship with another human being, a man right now? Mmm, not exactly. I have dated someone though during this period of time.

I still have an imaginary crush on B, the guy I occasionally meet at the cafĂ©. But our romance -which could be one-sided- has not advanced more than the occasional greeting kiss on the cheek (la “bise”). And we have been in the presence of a whole bunch of people.

Being in love is essential to me. B is a source of inspiration, but it could be interesting to have more interaction or to choose another romantic interest. Varying a bit the cafĂ©s I go to, might be helpful 🙂

B. In terms of work, I decided two things:

a. to be my own Boss. This was a big decision, and I feel proud for taking it. I have a new artistic project I am attached to, and I want to see it materialize.

b. my second decision is to do everything it takes for a position I have in mind, in the artistic world. It combines a lot of things I really like.

Ok, I have to admit that during this period I kind of got “fired” by the wannabe boss. Kind of, because he wasn’t paying me anyway.

The projects I had submitted for funding last April and passed the first evaluation in June, was not accepted in the end. Actually, it would involve leaving Paris, so, I might not have wanted this to happen in reality.

My spirits were occasionally low and that was the period I was daydreaming instead of answering emails or writing a report. It is communicating what I have done, emailing, that I am not very eager to do. But, I don’t come up as very professional and efficient that way, despite the good work that has been done.

So have I transformed? I am in a process of transformation.

Have I reached my goals? I have reached intermediate, but very important goals. I am on the way of accomplishing these goals and I keep walking!

In the end, I think that walking in the direction of a goal, or a dream, not only transforms me, but also my dream.

NYE

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Halloween update and new goals!

Dear October,

I have concluded that I am all I want to become, and I love myself for my genius, laziness, creativity, tiger-like personality, sensibility, all of it!

So true love, I hope that I have felt it 🙂

I have a positive answer for my novel from a small but good publishing house 🙂 but they ask me to contribute financially to the publication and right now, it seems too much. The solution I found, is to have it accepted by a bigger publishing house. I sent it and we will see …

There is another answer I wait for, related to an artistic project’s funding; the answer should also come in November.

And after all, I have started working on a new artistic project that is close to my heart. And through that, I look for funding.

I have been in love during this period, but their seemed to be some conditions that blocked a happy ending… was it me? Maybe … But now I feel more ready for a complementary to me person. Someone I can share my dreams with and feel good effortlessly…

This is my goal for New Year’s Eve: be with the love of my life, and celebrate abundance, life and love!

September 11- True love: loving oneself :-)

September dear,

What is true love to you? After all, the quality of our love for others is similar to that we offer to ourself…

Is it making oneself happy? How is this possible?

Is loving oneself fulfilling our desires?

Let’s say, I like chocolate, how much can I have? Even the finest chocolate becomes too much after a certain point… my favorite song, how many times can I listen to it? My favorite book, poetry?

Is loving oneself being better than, someone else, more powerful more beautiful stronger than?

Is it offering love and helping?

Is it pushing oneself to get better? Better than what?

Is it learning?

Is true love believing in oneself?

Is it developing oneself in relation to others and the world, expanding and learning what makes us grow: emotionally, spiritually, physically…

Listening to ourselves, and stretching towards unity?

Becoming part of a community that could include the whole world?

All of this and even more?

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June 27- Miracle!

Dear June,

I have started this blog in April, with the idea that I wanted to transform myself and my life. My objectives? A job where I do what I like and I manage to live from it. And of course, true love. Now, what is true love? It could be a place where two people feel at home.

I went for lunch in the whereabouts of the Platform, I had agreed to meet H. He has been asking me to collaborate for an artistic project. I think he is intelligent and I appreciate his ideas, but we are not sharing the same perspective. However, I promised to consider it for next year.

H and I have made different choices in life: He has a stable income, doing something he doesn’t like that much, but he doesn’t have enough time to express his creativity. On the contrary, I had chosen to tolerate instability, but to work on things I am passionate about. This has been stressful at times, and I have been under pressure, but I am not bitter. And I saw that in him. He seemed to say that there is no way to place oneself in a better position as event organizers.

I told him some people do, so there must be a way. And we shouldn’t give up.

But talking to him depressed me a bit, since it felt as if I my hopes were not realistic. I went for a walk by myself after lunch for a debriefing, which is not the best thing to do, when not in a good mood.

June is almost over, I thoughg, I have taken a challenge, and where am I? Three days before the end of the month, and still in the same situation I was before.

In terms of love, B is a fantasy, I have to admit it. I have fallen in love with an illusion. And there have been some artists in transit whose idea was an adventure. Something I am not interested in.

When it comes to work, I have projects, but I have only applied for two fundings. What are my chances?

In this mood, I returned to my office and checked my emails.

And here it was, a MIRACLE!

My project has successfully passed the first round for the funding I asked!

I was thrilled!

My blues disappeared!

I have until August 5 to present a more detailed version and submit it for the second round. It is not going to be easy, but I am honoured to still be in the game!

Thank you June!

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