December 21, 2015: Hints for Santa

Dear December,

we are driving towards the end of the year and my letter to Santa has not finished yet! Yes, I have been busy in my hometown, but I have also been absorbed by my older self still alive in the eyes of family and old acquaintances. It is like telling them my hair is red now, and they insist telling me it is brown.

Can’t you see I have changed? Why do you still talk to the old April?

But mostly, why do I respond as the old April?

As the adolescent I have been?

Because this April is still living in me, ready to take offence and get mad when she is looked down upon.

You get the picture.

Is my inner child still hurt?

Dear Santa, how do I bring a gift to this little April and let her be happy?

What would she have liked?

She would have liked everyone to be happy. Herself included.

And she feels overwhelmed when people around her are not.

But there are limits to that. We can’t make other people happier than they decide to be.

It is like consuming a nice dessert, or a piece of chocolate. It can bring instant gratification.

But it doesn’t last if the person consuming this gift is not capable of offering a gift back.

So, little April needs to understand this and produce gifts for herself and others but also, be ready to receive her own gifts.

April would like her own family and friends,

Those who appreciate and love her,

those who believe there is good in this world,

the good we create as chocolate,

there is creative imagination,

there is beauty,

there is hope

and Santa is here for the rest 😉

http://eventstocelebrate.net/2013/11/letter-to-santa-free-printable/

 

 

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June 2nd, 2015- How to transform in a way that respects our nature

Dear June hello,

I make a big deal of transformation: to come closer to my desires and aspirations, but there is something I need to take care of: accepting myself and my rhythm, so transform in a way which respects that. Trying to become something that goes against our nature is of no use.

For example, you are a howl and you try to get up early in the morning and change your chase habits. That doesn’t particularly agree with you. Also, it is not a question of underestimating night life and thinking that only morning birds are cool.

Now, I have been promising myself to get up at 7.00 and instead, it has been 10.30 and I started stressing up.

On the other hand, last night I stayed up working on my novel until 24.30.

The only difficulty is that most of the other people don’t have this rhythm. If I need to meet and interact with some of them, it might help to find some common ground.

There is a new artistic Platform I would like to join. For the moment, all I can do is get there in the afternoon 🙂

February 3- Winter sun in Paris

Hello February,

just to prove my blog-friend Brian wrong, a beautiful winter sun is peeping out of the clouds in Paris. Does this mean no rain or fog? Not particularly. But you definitely need your sunglasses as we are talking.

So what’s new April? You might ask. Now you got your black bag, you boosted your feminine power, how are we doing in terms of goals, objectives and transformation processes?

Ok, here you are:

First thing: I am finishing an exposition project and submit it for feedback until the end of the week

Second thing: I lobby powerful art people and ask for support

Third action: I start looking for a new working space

Fourth: I begin answering old emails and facing frustrated people who haven’t heard from me in a while

and last but not least: I enjoy my coffee in the winter Parisian sun!!!

http://fr.123rf.com/photo_15381532_lever-du-soleil-d-hiver-a-paris-la-tour-eiffel-vue-du-trocadero–france.html

January 21- April comes back to town (Paris)

Dear January,

I would like to reassure you that you mean a lot to me, as the first month of the year. I might not been very present – at the blog-sphere- I know. I might have not finished my resolutions, and my update to see what progress has been made in my transformation process. What new things I have learnt. How my love life and romance has evolved.

During the holidays, I have been back to my little South of France village, where I dedicated myself to the following activities: coconing and spending time with family and neighbors. I have eaten chocolates and “galettes des rois” and have turned into a vegetable in front of holidays tv shows, don’t think of anything exotic. I have laid on the family sofa and for a change, have taken a membership card from the closest local café. I have played Playmobil with my godson Alexandre and his brother. Read fairy tales that seemed to interest me more than them.

Yes, this has been part of my adventures. After the acceleration of the rhythm just before the holidays, and the wannabe boss who put as much pressure as possible, I felt I needed to slow down a bit. Maybe a bit too much. You might consider it a form of hibernation.

That is why I start waking up, with my return to the capital. There have been some events, during my absence, very unfortunate. Hopefully, now that I am back, things will get better and everyone will adhere to the resolution of kindness, wisdom and gratitude. In any case, I feel I have a more active part to play.

I have a baby orchid plant and during the last year it has grown so much, it is falling out of the pot. I bought a bigger one, and now it has what it takes to grow better.

The same goes with me. 2015 is a year to find the conditions and ingredients for growth and well-being. It’s a promise.

April has come back to town 😉

http://www.grand-paris.jll.fr/fr/le-projet-du-grand-paris/presentation-generale/id/48

 

 

December 15- Change of Perspective

Dear December,

today I had a meeting with a mentor- he has been organizing successful events for several years, but has evolved a little bit in the margins of the art world that is very closed and codified. How do I know he is a mentor to be? He seemed sincere and not just telling me what I would like to hear.

Now, his main point was that I need to make a difference. Once we have been around a place for a while, we become taken for granted. People stereotype us in a certain way.

It is like a former hair-dresser. I wanted to have longer hair, and she was cutting them short. When I complained she said: ” I just can’t imagine you with longer hair”.

Now, I have long hair, and needless to say, I have lost contact with this lady and her salon for the last years.

Staying with the wannabe boss would have been criminal and I would have been responsible.

But how can we change in the eyes of those who are used to take us for part of the scenery? Let’s say for example, that I am known in the art world as a serious but kind of “amateur” organizer, with interesting ideas but not very high-flying.

How can I change this? How can I attract attention in a positive way?

I need something spectacular, but at the same time something other people can relate to. And something with perspective 🙂

Any ideas?

http://tracizeller.com/blog/2013/fridays-five-minute-fix-change-your-perspective/

April 6: what to transform from

Three of the artists of the event organized in the South of France have followed me in my hometown; I continue sleeping three to four hours a day -half working and half partying- so my brain refuses to compose proper sentences; a reblog of my objectives in starting this blog, a reminder of what I want to transform from 🙂

april4june6: A journal of self-tranformation

Hello April,

here I am again! Sundays are for me days for introspection, since my rhythm changes, compared to the rest of the week.

Actually it has been a week since I started this blog-journal, in order to transform myself and achieve my objectives:

1. Find and be found by True Love

2. Get a “real” job in my field: one I can live from, and be abundant.

But what is my starting point?

I realize there are two beliefs that have been blocking me until now:

a. a belief that love is alienating, and if you have it, you lose your freedom and way to self-fulfillment

b. the idea that success is alienating, because in order to succeed you “sell your soul to the devil”, in other words, you have to give up your freedom, creativity, and even wild side

These beliefs have not served me very well; do I…

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