October 22, 2018- Bounce Back Big day 25, unfolding

Hello October,

I have presented a draft of my idea, and I caught myself stressing up: fear of judgement, of not doing a perfect of whatever, of not being accepted.

I stopped there, it usually comes as a bodily sensation, and I put some music, something uplifting and the type of thing I can dance with, and breathe!

After all, who cares? Millions of years later, no one will remember that part.

It will not be included in any historical account.

So, why bother now?

And then that’s why the word feedback has been created: “feed’ has to do with food, kind of positive. So giving back something. It’s like a present.

You give something.

The other person gives something back.

We exchange ideas and discuss.

We become richer and more knowledgeable.

This is a process.

So breath and let the process unfold April!

October 1st and 2nd, 2018- Bounce Back Big days 14 and 15-

Welcome October,

I am in the middle of this, and I still feel in the twilight zone, having tried different approaches and breathing in and out every time I get stressed up.

So, what to do?

I have tried connecting, and I have got advice going into different directions, which requires some changes. And these changes seem to require time.

I have been here before.

A friend of mine noticed I have been stressing up now and then.

He is right.

I somehow found myself here and there in some type of critical situation.

Am I doing it to avoid facing other issues?

Maybe.

Am I the only one in this situation?

Hell, no.

This has something to do with where we stand.

Is there a way forward?

Apparently, in the direction opposing the direction of whatever the problem is.

In this direction are the things I enjoy: writing and creating.

I also have projects.

I have talents.

I am a brilliant person.

I have nice eyebrows.

So?

So, I deserve a feeling of security coming from my basic needs met.

And so it has happened in some way until now.

For most of them.

Something to be grateful about.

Yes, I am a rebel at heart.

I want things to go my way, which is the creative way.

Are there places encouraging it?

Should I create one myself?

I realize that I had some major setbacks in my path, but every time, there was something coming up which kept me on track.

That’s how I ended up in London, for better I hope.

should I stay or should I go?

Let’s have a cup of tea ­čśë

is tea good for you, benefits of green tea, benefits of black tea, benefits of matcha

September 26 and 27- Bounce Back Big days 9 and 10- by taking a step back

Hello September,

I have taken a step forward yesterday on seeing that I was good at something I thought I sucked: communicating my ideas to other people in an oral presentation.

Actually, I had the courage to present for people who are experts in the field, and they liked it, although there are always things to work on.

After that, and a meeting with an administration that always takes a lot of energy, I continued with hot chocolate and wandering around London in Covent-Garden. Responsible or not, it seemed like the thing to do. Instead of applying for a job I bought myself a new agenda.

Kind of irresponsible I would say.

Yes, but I kind of needed it.

And I feel like needing a rest today, slow down and do something to reinvigorate myself.

Starting from a fruit smoothie.

And continuing with anything nice

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January 16, 2018- Facing Beginner’s Stress- Prepare, Breath and Play

Hello January,

starting today my part-time job, I felt kind of self-conscious and stressed up: will I rise to the occasion? Will I like it enough to give my best? Etc etc…

So, what to do in this case?

To begin with, I need to identify the source.

Deep down, I wonder if I have time to write and publish, my no 1 heart’s desire, or almost.

If I stay relaxed in a busy way, I will have an hour a day. If I am focused, this should be enough, that’s how I wrote my first book.

Second, do I like what I do, well enough to invest serious effort?

I like it well enough, so I should do some serious preparation.

Apparently, if you see some pictures of handsome Brits and Irish men, as a girl, you feel better:

http://calmingbrits.tumblr.com

October 27, 2017- Navigating in deep waters versus swimming pool floating

Hello October,

apparently, what makes a good sailor is to know how to face difficult weather conditions. Have you had anyone being qualified as excellent sailor because he knows how to cross the swimming pool with a floating chair?

Ok, the second can be very agreeable, but let’s face it, the swimming pool is not hiding a lot of excitement, new knowledge and adventure. And the floating chair is not the fastest means of travel.

It is more of a lingering type of thing.

So, yes, it is fine to be on the floating chair from time to time and relax. But for how long?

If you don’t use what you have, you will end up looking like a floating chair.

So deep waters are here to keep us in shape and make of us excellent sailors.

They allow us to grow to our fullest potential.

https://www.amazon.com/Ultimate-Fabric-Covered-Lounger-Swimming/dp/B002GMVU4K/ref=pd_sim_21_3?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=WWKC21FYVAZ991MW1MFK

June 12, 2017: Taking the morning for myself

Hello dear June,

after working until midnight on my poems, I woke up with a mood; some positive thinking didn’t work wonders, so I decided to take the morning off. Just for me.

I had a sense of emergency the whole weekend. This and that and the other.

But this epiphany was enough.

I am heading towards hot chocolate, to begin with.

I am getting outside.

There is some sun, we will eventually meet.

And I might look for a hairdresser I had postponed.

Emergency or not, I want to feel good now.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/09/17/morning-routines_n_5348994.html

June 9-10, 2017- Friday, party time, Saturday taking it easy

Hello June,

Saturday morning after a party night at a gallery. I am having coffee at 11.00, thinking how I can make the best of my day.

Probably, by taking it easy. Yesterday I finished my short-story but it seems that I am still in the rush rhythm. Or not? My body asks me to take it easy and just lie in the sun. We are lucky enough to have a sunny day in London, with a beautiful wind, let’s enjoy that!

https://orlandoespinosa.wordpress.com/2014/05/09/take-it-easy/

April 4, 2017-Put worrying thoughts in a bottle and send them away

Hello April,

here you are again… so how do I empty my pockets and bag from the worrying thoughts which might emerge?

I see that this is the only way … what, to write a letter and put it in a bottle? And let the stream or the sea take them?

This sounds like a good idea…

I can do it in the form of questions…

I have read that those who live in the future are anxious, that would be me today,

those who live in the past can be depressed

and those who live in the present feel peace…

so, how do we prepare the future?

How do I make sure of my capacities to face any challenge?

Because I have come this far.

I have faced pretty awesome challenges.

And here I am.

Anybody has.

The future will look after itself.

And the present?

The present is a gift.

And we can share it with those we love in whichever form they are ­čÖé

message in a bottle

http://www.express.co.uk/comment/expresscomment/633134/The-week-in-verse-Message-In-A-Bottle

July 28, 2015- Energy recharge

Hello dear July,

you feel it also, don’t you? When stores close down for holidays and you see people dressed in casual, summer clothes. It smells like vacation. All the most if you have been working seriously the last period. But still, what do you do for a refill of energy just before?

Here are my morning solutions:

take half the day off (if the whole day is not possible)

plan holidays imagining myself on the seaside

having a nice “pain au chocolat”

preparing to go out with friends

walking around in Paris

Energy boost diet

http://www.bodyandsoul.com.au/weight+loss/diets/energy+boost+diet,19423

July 26, 2015- Traveling from home on a rainy Sunday

And here you are July,

with a rainy and rather chilly -for a summer day, I got the hint and stayed until late in bed. All I need to charge my batteries and clear my mind. It is also the best way to get rid of a tiny cold, and enjoy my home.

Home sweet home…

A place to be in peace with myself and the world.

Reading a book, or two, …

And having Skype rendezvous with friends from different parts of the world.

Traveling from home…

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