so what if I fall on a star, and the moon is still further away?
The first reaction is to feel unsatisfied, after all, this star was not where I was aiming for. And feel guilty. I should have done this and this and that. Or feel powerless. After all, I seem to have objectives and I don’t fulfill them as I should. And then, if I accept the result, does it make me someone who is stuck there?
Feeling bad about oneself is wasting our time.
I have tried it, it just gives you unwelcome psychosomatic annoyances.
Well, if they are changing every day you lose a sense of direction.
But they can be a little bit flexible.
How about creating exceptions and correcting our course?
Here is how it can go/
I am great anyway, and objective X is worthwhile.
I said that I would wake up at 5.30 and today I woke up at 9.00.
I needed this because last week I took a business trip and I needed time to recover.
So much the better.
Instead of feeling guilty I give myself a free day, for rest but also for taking a mental vacation out of everything and reorienting myself towards the North Star.
a small change I can try today is how to learn from feedback without letting it throw me off-balance. Yesterday I invited an artist to participate in an event I will organize back to France. He told me the gallery is not good enough for him and he wouldn’t know of anyone who would be interested. From his acquaintances.
That kind of shook me because it triggered older insecurities. I believed in this project and I mean to go back to Paris to talk with the gallery people. This idea of hierarchy somehow made me sad.
Is he right? Should I try to connect to the places/people with the best possible reputation instead of going the other-way round? Meaning, instead of collaborating with those I like and whose work I appreciate without checking on their reputation?
My former way of doing things has not been very productive from a material point of view. But starting from the utility of people and things is not in my philosophy.
Coming to London, is an opportunity because I have connected to a lively artistic platform with a good “reputation”: How can I evolve from here in a way that I am in harmony with my values in life?
Today I continued playing in a lower key: for the first part of the day, I planned a meeting with one of my best friends. She used to live in Paris. It was time to catch up, especially since the weather was nice and we enjoyed siting outside. We talked about ourselves, families, friends, plans.
Then, I took a walk by myself, towards the old town: I watched the beautiful view, looked at the clouds passing by and meditated. It is important to be a realist, but also to have dreams and objectives. At least this is my philosophy: to keep my feet on the ground and the head in the clouds.
When there is a will, there is a way. And there is a will, if there is a dream. What is my purpose? I want my novel to be published and then translate it in English.