I just had a setback I was expecting: I had a NO from a gallery I was collaborating with last year, I did some work for them, and now I asked for a job. The person I was working with and I was counting on supporting me, pulled out.
I was kind of expecting it, since she was silent the last time I emailed her.
I went out for a coffee.
At the same time, I have this killer project. This mentality of theirs is defensive of privileges.
How about mine?
I am used to being rejected actually, because I always felt as a minority.
But did I really like the way these people worked?
Deep down, I think they are conventionally good but boring. I went there for the name of the gallery.
It can be important.
Maybe, I can start from giving value to myself.
How did my last relationship end?
In a similar way.
With someone who was not appreciating my full value.
Am I appreciating myself enough?
What would I do if I consider myself a star and the main character in my life?
I would look for help and collaboration with people who really inspire me.
did you know that apparently, lucky people have an open mind and are ready to see the unexpected? “Luck may not so much be luck, but whether or not our mindset leaves us open to opportunities we would otherwise miss because we’re so absolutely sure of what we want”.
Ok, so how about being focused and finishing a task?
Can you do both?
Probably when you focus on an objective, but not on the specific way this objective should come into shape.
For example, let’s say you want to marry a sexy, gorgeous, rich and young man. Crazy in love with you etc.
You shouldn’t start saying that he should also have brown hair and blue eyes, and work in the film industry. Or say that you should only meet him through acquaintances. Or object to the fact that he has three cats and two dogs. And two kids from a former union.
The same thing with a job.
If the main objective is something inspiring, some flexibility is needed, I guess regarding the details. As to where on earth. For example.
any ideas about how to invite Luck to take a permanent residence at my place? And get her to work for me? Or is there a quality of super luck to develop as a character trait?
A wise person must have said that “luck is when preparation meets opportunity”
So if I want better results I might start doing things which were considered impossible for my 2016 self.
One idea that stuck with me ever since the first day of 2017 is that I need to align my different goals so that they don’t seem to contradict each other.
If for example, I wish for a great job, I shouldn’t feel that I should sacrifice my personal life to it. Or do I secretly feel that you can’t have everything you want/need and that you have to pay for whatever good comes your way?
So the first thing is to feel I deserve good things, and that they could stick together. If I want to deserve them, I can spread good luck around me. There are plenty of ways to do that.
No, October dear, I don’t mean completely. I mean at home. I haven’t a bank account yet and the telephone company mailed my bill to the wrong address. I also forgot my oyster card at home. Is there a special message in all this? Oh probably I need to play lotto. Because my bill was sent instead to a lotto game center.
Now, I ended up finding a place to connect myself to the internet and write down my thoughts and feelings.
Tomorrow I meet the boss of the new platform I have landed to in London and I am eager to see what he feels. Here I am, April, motivated, crazy and always with many dreams I need to put into action. With book plans, projects and ideas to last two life times.
Maybe I need to choose one or two and communicate them as clearly as possible!