July 13, 2015- Paris festivities start

Dear July,

festivities for the celebration of July 14 have started, and a friend of mine has just asked if I am going to join a group who will watch fireworks in the area of Versailles 🙂

Well, Paris might be more appropriate since Versailles used to be the king’s headquarters… in any case, I am here at the café, with my projects and writing, in front of my computer. Most normal people are outside, enjoying the beautiful weather.

Inside the café, two other people apart from me: a 55-year-old who is having a one to one relationship with his nose and an elderly couple who compliment each other on their looks.

What the f… are you doing there April? Get out, you might say, go to the fireworks, kiss someone, in the name of the revolution! The computer screen is cold and difficult to embrace.

A whole nation is celebrating. Your projects will still be there tomorrow. And after all, the sun will rise again and night will follow and a new dawn all over again.

http://www.myartprints.co.uk/a/frenchschool19thcentury/celebrationofthequatorzej.html

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April 6, 2015- Dreaming of a skunk :-)

Dear April,

have you ever dreamt of a skunk? That is what happened to me last night. It was quiet a big one, the size of a medium size dog, beautiful, and I was holding him playfully in my arms. We were best friends, so to speak. I wasn’t afraid of him and he seemed pretty comfortable with me.

Now, I think that the last time I have heard of these animal is back to school, or in children’s cartoons, years ago. Not recently anyway.

So I googled the animal, and a lot of nice ideas came up. To begin with, it seems that there is a symbolism of skunks. I will adopt the information which I like better. So a skunk seems to be related to:

• Defense
• Prudence
• Protection
• Confidence
• Awareness
• Pacification
• Effectiveness
• Good judgement
• Skunks seem to be naturally buoyant. They go through life with a calm assurance, and exude a peaceful energy that is extremely attractive to others.

Do we have “totems animals”? I wouldn’t know what to say.

Neither do I know how I ended up being good friends with the beautiful skunk in my dream. But it was fun and I definitely need to integrate these qualities to my day-to-day interactions.

The Easter holiday is over and tomorrow I will be in the middle of negotiations, new projects and professional beginnings 🙂

http://www.whats-your-sign.com/animal-symbolism-skunk.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skunk

January 26- Update on love and work

Dear January,

yes, I am ready for an update since the month of April 2014, the beginning of this blog. What were my objectives and what has happened?

The idea was to transform myself in order to reach important goals that can contribute -I think- to my happiness:

a. find true love (and be found by it).

b. get a real job that I love (meaning getting paid enough to live and …enjoy art, fashion, traveling, offering gifts, having a luxurious home, etc) (https://april4june6.wordpress.com/about/).

Now, if I want to be honest with myself, it would seem as if I haven’t accomplished my goals, at least not completely. But it is important to acknowledge the progress I have made:

A. In terms of true love, I found myself lovable, and try to live up to a true love of me, which is a way to love other people also.

Writing a blog, is a positive action, it has helped my emotions to unfold. So it weighs in the balance, on the side of true love, I would say.

I know you will tell me, come on, April, be more specific: are you on a relationship with another human being, a man right now? Mmm, not exactly. I have dated someone though during this period of time.

I still have an imaginary crush on B, the guy I occasionally meet at the café. But our romance -which could be one-sided- has not advanced more than the occasional greeting kiss on the cheek (la “bise”). And we have been in the presence of a whole bunch of people.

Being in love is essential to me. B is a source of inspiration, but it could be interesting to have more interaction or to choose another romantic interest. Varying a bit the cafés I go to, might be helpful 🙂

B. In terms of work, I decided two things:

a. to be my own Boss. This was a big decision, and I feel proud for taking it. I have a new artistic project I am attached to, and I want to see it materialize.

b. my second decision is to do everything it takes for a position I have in mind, in the artistic world. It combines a lot of things I really like.

Ok, I have to admit that during this period I kind of got “fired” by the wannabe boss. Kind of, because he wasn’t paying me anyway.

The projects I had submitted for funding last April and passed the first evaluation in June, was not accepted in the end. Actually, it would involve leaving Paris, so, I might not have wanted this to happen in reality.

My spirits were occasionally low and that was the period I was daydreaming instead of answering emails or writing a report. It is communicating what I have done, emailing, that I am not very eager to do. But, I don’t come up as very professional and efficient that way, despite the good work that has been done.

So have I transformed? I am in a process of transformation.

Have I reached my goals? I have reached intermediate, but very important goals. I am on the way of accomplishing these goals and I keep walking!

In the end, I think that walking in the direction of a goal, or a dream, not only transforms me, but also my dream.

http://bpar.org/new-years-resolutions/

July 15- Update of the first two weeks

Hello July,

here you are, already in the middle, and I need to give you an update of what I have been up to, in case you were not reading my posts thoroughly 😉

Some important things have already happened : for example, the big art exhibition, last week. And some others will take place in the second half: the artistic event in the South of France, close to my hometown. The event takes place on July 26 and I am to prepare everything from Paris because I will only get there on the night of the 24. I also had a setback, the small project I love that was rejected, but fortunately, my feelings were dissolved in the advice of wise friends and the rhythm of last week.

I am also to prepare for the second round of the application that was successful by the end of June.

What is the best way to approach all these tasks? In this very moment I prepare a soup in the kitchen, because the pasta I had earlier wasn’t enough. Or the olives, that accompanied the glass of wine that I had in the company of a friend.

I am sorry for not being respectful, it is that I need to let some steam off after the art exhibition last week. Even if it was a great experience, presenting myself to new people and having to deal with thousands of issues can be overwhelming.

The celebration of the downfall of the Bastille arrived on time for this!

I wish I could delegate!

But there are things that can only be done by myself, such as writing, and loving!

(some ideas in: http://freelancecrunch.com/5-valuable-strategies-to-help-freelancers-prioritize-tasks/)