Hello dear March,
I don’t know how to say it, but the day started cloudy and rainy, with some results that didn’t go in the direction of my wishes. I had some “inside” information that my project will not be chosen for funding.
Now, I still need to see what was said about it from the people who are taking the decisions. Just to help me see if it is something I can learn and try again, or not. Right now I am not sure what to think.
Am I unreasonable to try in the same direction? Well, it depends to who I ask the question to.
I will ask it to people I respect, and who know how this system works, to help me see more clearly.
But after this, I needed something agreeable to think, so I went to FNAC, the culture department store in France, where you find from books, music, to computers, … theater tickets…
I was looking around and fell into someone I have briefly met in the past. He gave me a precious information. Where I can find a person who might help me understand what is going on with my artistic endeavors.
That was a sunbeam that brightened my day.
And the presence of an American writer, who happened to talk about his work at the moment I was there:
I liked something he said on his writing style.
He doesn’t make a plan, he starts and then lets the story guide him. (Maybe he has an idea of an ending he is looking for, a sort of goal).
But he couldn’t tell us about all the steps.
I might learn something from this technique and apply it to my life.
I know I have a purpose.
It’s ok if I don’t see all the steps from where I stand right now.
I can trust and be comfortable with the unknown.