so, I decided to do what I would do if I had resolvedall the issues troubling me, meaning, go out with friends and go to the cinema. It has been a while I haven’t really been in an actual public cinema with a group of friends; I don’t consider watching films from my tablet to be equivalent. It doesn’t have any contact with real human beings.
Apart from that, looking at my CV, has given me mixed feelings: parts where I have suffered from setbacks, that I have tried not to show.
And yet, especially when it comes to issues like harassment, not talking is like being ashamed of something on behalf of the person who has harmed you.
That doesn’t make sense.
It’s not good either to spent all the time consumated in hate or revenge thoughts.
Time is valuable.
I think that my CV, like anybody’s CV should include lessons learnt.
And to be proud of who we have become in the process.
The way I understand it, it is important to have a goal, but to be flexible as to the means to reach it. If I want to go to the city center and there is a problem with the tube, I might take the bus. Or a bicycle. I don’t need to change my destination.
At the same time, I might do the same thing again and again because of something that has been hurtful in the past and I am conditioned to replay the same ritual. If I was hurt in one way, I don’t need to repeat the scene that hurt in the past, because this is the only thing I know. It won’t go away in this way. I need to realize I have been hurt, and forgive, let it go, or do something to help other people to take a different path, or cope with it 🙂
the café across the street is an extension of my home. It is not as if they decided it exactly, they were invaded and had to live with the consequences :-). Yesterday I asked them to keep the keys of my home and pass it to a friend who would come to visit. Tonight I camped there with another friend while waiting for my laundry to finish.
I asked them to keep our table with the drinks while we went out on an errand.
So, it turns out that when I feel at home, I will do what I am accustomed to. It could be something nice, like meeting friends, or less nice, as for example, eating something that is not good for me.
Is it the same thing with relationships? Do we have a habit as to the way we react and apply it in our next meeting?
Are we ready to really meet someone new, or is it that we are concentrated in our own childhood or other traumas, and just use new acquaintances to replay well-known scenes?
How do we break free from the past and embrace the new without preconceptions and judgments?
Do you have an answer October?
Well, maybe it helps to understand what is our own story, and how to write a new one.