December 26-Making space for what is important: the permission to have fun no matter what!

Hello December,

Christmas is here, and I feel as if I need permission to do some things for myself. Like, to buy something I, kind of, like. It seemed as if my life’s mission was to make my parents happy and I didn’t succeed in that. I have started an artistic career with ups and downs and many times in the past, I have relied on them. When they needed my help, I wasn’t able to give all the help they needed without feeling overwhelmed. The lockdown brought me back in my hometown and my parents’ home and accentuated this feeling.

It is difficult to acknowledge that I am doing the best I can and despite of my success, I have the right to feel ok with it no matter what.

I have the right to be happy, in the NOW despite of anything. The right to be around people who are loving in a generous and balanced way and to be this kind of person; people who love in a way that allows the other to grow; people who support other people’s happiness without asking you to sacrifice for them; also those who know how to build healthy boundaries between themselves and other people’s expectations.

Something I definitely need to learn because my love life in the past involved someone I wanted to “save” and who ended up hurting me; I understood it doesn’t make sense to try to “help” others if they don’t want to change. And if I don’t change, I will be the accessory of this type of pathology.

TODAY it is ok to be happy for myself, for who I have been and who I am becoming!

I want to create my community of like-minded but diverse people.

I want to travel the world and bring happiness, connect people, work for the world Democracy, Peace and Beauty, Life in the planet!

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January 28, 2019-Back to London!

Dear January,

I am to go to London for a presentation of my portfolio, and I am looking forward to it!

Of course, my feelings are like a hot boiling pot; there is my presentation to take care of and my inner self to expand: let’s go out there and shine!

Some everyday preoccupations have stressed me from time to time, but bottom line, I realize I have always managed to find my way.

I am making my suitcase and my parents’ cat is looking at me puzzled: where to?

Let’s see how it goes!

London, I am coming!

October 22, 2018- Bounce Back Big day 25, unfolding

Hello October,

I have presented a draft of my idea, and I caught myself stressing up: fear of judgement, of not doing a perfect of whatever, of not being accepted.

I stopped there, it usually comes as a bodily sensation, and I put some music, something uplifting and the type of thing I can dance with, and breathe!

After all, who cares? Millions of years later, no one will remember that part.

It will not be included in any historical account.

So, why bother now?

And then that’s why the word feedback has been created: “feed’ has to do with food, kind of positive. So giving back something. It’s like a present.

You give something.

The other person gives something back.

We exchange ideas and discuss.

We become richer and more knowledgeable.

This is a process.

So breath and let the process unfold April!

December 8, 2017- How to take the bull by the horns :-)

Hello December,

yes, this is not exactly an expression with Christmas spirit, more like a corrida in Spain expression, but as the year drives towards the end, you realize there are things you need to accomplish, still there.

So, what to do?

Depress?

Fell incompetent?

Or, take the bull by the horns?

The last seems better.

It’s like, taking action and facing right away the biggest fear, or what the oponent has the most fearful first.

In my case, I need to write that email NOW

http://www.historybyzim.com/2014/04/take-the-bull-by-the-horns/

The Warrior Creator or how to be relaxed and productive in the middle of a storm

Hello November,

this inspiring post of David Rogers on  The Warrior Creator

is the best way to start the weekend!

Relaxed and busy, how to stay focused on our work even if there is a storm outside.

So I am ready to put to use David’s advice, and be productive and relaxed way:

there is a short story I want to submit this weekend, and my NaNoWriMo novel is advancing, even a few lines a day.

I don’t need to look at the end, I just focus on the next steps.

June 22, 2017-Sense of purpose

Hello June,

we are here all of us interconnected, with or without technology. We share the same planet and this becomes somehow important for everyday life in a way we might not even realize.

Especially in the morning.

When we open our eyes.

And we haven’t had yet our coffee, tea, juice, …

and we don’t know exactly where we are.

And still, this is a moment we share.

Is this giving me fuel to go on with my day?

here we are, let’s do something to better our life;

Today!

https://blogs.sap.com/2016/10/17/millennials-perspective-pursue-purpose-relentlessly-forever/

June 6, 2017: Every minute counts :-)

Hello dear June,

I decided to wake up early and set goals. I got myself up later than planed, after my boat trip yesterday and the weather -winter-like- doesn’t help.

Or is it just an excuse?

I found myself with a bunch of artists, talking about galleries and exhibitions. But somehow I couldn’t find the way to a funding scheme as others did. Or I seemed to be interested in topics the others didn’t. Or if they were doing something remotely close, they didn’t want me around.

Are there all these other people more qualified, relevant, similar, and whatever else than me?

Maybe they are.

What if I need to go on in the direction of whatever I have been doing instead of lamenting my lack of homogeneity?

So, let’s be proactive April!

June 5, 2017- Monday, Move!

Hello June,

it is sunny and cloudy and windy over here; time to open my eyes and move, wouldn’t you say?

I am sitting at the café next to two men in their fifties talking business and looking 8-year-old deep down.

Or is it because I am still asleep and they are part of my dream?

In any case, I just mailed my poems back home because I am looking for another publisher.

In the meanwhile, there is a short story to finish for today.

Let’s see how it goes.

April 3, 2017- Anniversary decisions

Dear April,

I was wondering if I will continue this blog in this form. And the first answer that comes to my mind is yes, for questions of facility. Let’s face it: my London stay has given me extra work, and the rhythm is more intense than in Paris.

But some kind of update seems necessary.

Here is what I know you want to ask me:

a. how are you doing dearest one, how do you feel?

I am feeling well, but a little bit stressed. I know this is an illusion; do you hurry a flower to blossom? Take the time an orchid needs for the flowers.

b. Do you like being in London?

I do, I have come to love this city, although it doesn’t feel home yet. Although I am in touch with a lot of talented people, I miss a group of like-minded crazy individuals.

So, are you going to do something about it? Or just pretend this is fine?

I think I will do something about it. I will take initiatives.

c. Someone told me to ditch friend-enemies too. They cost energy.

How are you doing this?

By sending them love and not letting them to get into my space.

d. How are we doing in the love department?

I am kind of in love and I date a few people.

e. How are your projects?

They are doing well, I have been productive. But I need something to have more fun and relax.

What would do for my best friend in this case? I would take me out to do something beautiful.

And I would tell her all the nice things I believe about her.

Ok, I am doing it.

f. How about the different resolutions you have had? Cutting Sugar, etc?

For now I have limited sugar apart from a small bar of chocolate daily and one teaspoonful in the morning and I am happy with it.

g. Any specific project for the future?

Yes, to prepare for a Big Leap.

And I will use this blog for this purpose.

 

June 5 and 6 2016: take your passion and make it happen ;-)

Hello there, June,

I am still in front of my desk with my eyes kind of aching after all these words I have been reading, writing, erasing, rewriting.

Actually I admit I have a publishing fear: I am writing, and then I don’t really show my work to the publishers I could have. Especially in the world contacted. Especially when it comes to writing a project for my other activity, the artistic project organization, I seem to feel overwhelmed: I still have on my mind the words of my critics, it doesn’t make sense, it is not well written, it is … not publishable for the brochure of the exhibition… you’d better stick to contact the catering… who do you think you are, the curator?

Just to make a long story short.

The thing is, I have dared to publish a book. But I went to find a publisher in my French village, probably hoping no one will find about it.

At least none of my Parisian, high brow critics.

I am a great performer, so I dare to explain things in meetings.

But when it comes to writing the text, there is something in the form that doesn’t fit the gallery’s standards.

I decided to change that.

I will sent as many projects as possible. They will wonder how on earth I found the time.

I sure must have a ghost-writer.

A slave I have seduced with my inhuman charm.

Or something of the kind;-)