May 17, 2019- Update from my hometown and how to upgrade myself

Hello May,

yes, I have promised myself to write daily here, and I have almost succeeded, in the sense I have been using more traditional methods: paper and pen.

So, what is going on for me? I am at the nearest café, where I try to concentrate despite the music and talking. Writing from my parent’s place is tricky because I get interrupted by real life.

I feel I need energy and a sense of orientation.

Tonight I am to go to a local theatre with fellow artists, and before that, I need to focus.

Next to me, two retired people reading their newspapers.

Another possibility to join a library but I am not sure if it is worth driving or taking public transport for this.

I have bought a book on specific actions to take in my field, and then I contacted a potential mentor. In the meanwhile, my time is a scarce resource, I need to use in the best possible way 🙂

So, how do I use this time to take myself to the next level of the game?

How about romance?

Is it in the stars these days?

How do I upgrade myself?

A cup of latte

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May 3, 2019-21 days for results- day 1

Dear May,

I have 21 days to fulfil my purposes. Starting from today, after a latte. I have received a negative answer from a job application I was interested in. And then, here I am, again, after having overindulged in cookies and cake during the last weeks, after an Easter and May 1st.

There is something to do, so let’s do it right away. I feel again that I have been running behind something that is escaping. I might have tried in the wrong way. How would I concentrate?

I probably need some help and a change of strategy.

Let’s see what is the recipe for a miracle creation in May.

Le printemps est là !

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April 22, 2019- A 30-day challenge- Day 1

Hello April,

I am looking for a 30-day challenge to try, and waking up early, at 5.30 today is the first step. So, here I am, breathing in and out, deciding on ways to be more present and productive.

To begin with, I am having coffee and some fruit.

I take myself out.

The sun is shining.

It will take my sleepiness away.

I read that it’s important to write down things you are to do.

And then spend 15 minutes with the easiest task.

Next step, the most difficult task for 35 minutes.

That’s where I am right now.

Finishing something I have been writing.

🙂

new habits

 

April 15, 2019- How to embrace the present moment and self-esteem

Hello April,

you are special because I have started my blog in April five years back. I was looking to go away from home and I tried pretty much many things. There are fears and all sorts of other things to leave back.

But at the same time, I realize I can face my past and all these things that scared me are no longer there. Or they are, but I have a different way to look at them.

So, in a way, it was important to be back. To the beginning.

To feel pride in all the things accomplished, all the struggles, all the loving relationships, all the times I bounced back.

I have so much power, so much control in how I shape my reality.

This is a famous psychologist’s pyramid of human needs, and although some of them are more vital at a certain point, it feels like we need to satisfy all the levels for balance.

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April 12, 2019- Female characters in literature- French writers

Hello April,

I started blogging five years ago, and I was writing every day for at least three months. It has been a transformative experience. My pace, fast or slow, a few days a month or every few days, has changed, but I am present overall.

And here I am now, where to?

Explore, meet, learn, discover, love, share.

Read.

I decided to rediscover some French female authors, like Mme de Lafayette. I have been reading La Princesse de Montpensier, and I am thinking of getting back to the Princesse des Clèves also. Let’s see how female characters have been formed in these classic novels and films for inspiration :

April 5, 2019- Celebrating 5 year Blog-Anniversary!

Dear April,

do you remember? I started this blog five years ago, with the intention to write a post-a-day for three months. I was facing a crisis in my personal and professional life: horrid wannabe boss, finances, relationship, instability.

Where am I today? In my home town, with my ageing parents and the cat, where I was afraid to end up if my projects didn’t succeed. And guess what? It’s not as bad as I thought.

Because I might have put up with things out of fear. The fear that if I fail this and that, I might be cast back to where I was at the beginning. A kind of snakes and ladders game.

And guess what? I am not the exact same person. I took risks, huge risks and I failed some of them, for reasons also independent on my effort.

But despite the fact that I didn’t get the funding, that I overworked and I spent all my economies, despite the fact that a member of my family had health issues and I had to go home for a while, I am confident about the future.

I have plans, dreams, and most importantly, I am working towards them.

So, from my place, whatever it is today, I am working towards the next step.

And everything learnt is a profit.

If a snake has swallowed me, I can still take a ladder because I know I can!

Thank you dear blog and dear blog-friends with your wise comments for helping me realize this!

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March 27, 2019- Writing every day as a habit

Hello March,

writing on paper, writing online, and mainly producing something we can communicate to others; isn’t that important?

Isn’t it important to create energy? Words are a form of a code of feelings and ideas, actions, they produce an effect when you know the code well; and when the recipients of the code are also able to decode it.

https://www.thecitizen.co.tz/magazine/success/How-to-stay-focused-on-your-writing/1843788-4936070-galwwjz/index.html

 

March 24, 2019- Emotions, fuel for artwork-Day 1

Hello March,

how do I train for everyday writing? How not to get absorbed by other people’s agenda? How not to isolate at the same time and be open to serendipity and the beauty of the moment?

Hmm, well

I was having a conversation yesterday with someone kind enough to want to get to know me better. And I was between happy to self-disclose and a bit annoyed.

The next week is unfolding and I have one big and two minor objectives.

I think that everything else will have to disappear in between.

How about feelings?

An aunt has died and we went to a ceremony yesterday, this and other issues family related have been worrying me underneath.

I am divided between letting feelings and fears out or putting them aside and concentrating on a goal.

How about acknowledging and transforming these feelings instead of disowning them?

Creativity is building on feelings.

Having objectives is great, as long as we produce beauty through the transformation of our feelings. Feelings of any kind are great fuel for art!

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https://hbr.org/2015/08/the-emotions-that-make-us-more-creative

 

 

 

 

March 22, 2019- One month every day writing

Hello March,

Yes, I want to be back here daily and write some of the thoughts that get through my brain. Well, this is a challenging period, demanding me to become a new me to get by and continue growing.

Actually, the idea is to continue growing. Regardless of age. Keep learning, and keep walking.

Here I am, in my hometown.

Facing the me I wanted to grow away from. Still, that was a great me. With great qualities, fears, emotions, willpower, self-doubt.

Feeling overwhelmed with the world I was facing.

Having the support and also the roadblocks enough to become my today self.

Feeling grateful for this.

The today self also needs some space to grow further.

How about relationships and emotions?

There are so many of them, bottled up, time to let them free!

Spring is here, the period of growth!

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March 10, 2019- Back to my parents’ home: an update of my adventures

Hello March,

I am back at the beginning, in my parents’ home in the South of France: a perfect time for an update. Where to and whither?

I have succeeded certain projects, failed others and I am here again, without stability and some debts.

Is there something to learn from the experience?

Well, for sure, that I can be a source of “wrongdoing” because of miscalculation even if it wasn’t my intention.

What is the most essential thing at this moment?

How would I like to live every day?

Well, with challenges and new things to learn;

Looking up to people who can advise and help me.

And helping others with what I have learnt.

To begin with, it is important to produce every day.

And then do anything else 🙂

south of france, village, and saint-guilhem-le-désert image