May 12- the “Odéon” theater in Paris

Hello dear May,

I just came back from Odéon, “Thêatre de l’Europe”, one of the 6 Parisian national theaters, where the director and some of the main artistic figures presented next year’s theatrical season. What I loved the most was the 88 year old Michel Piccoli who told us why he became an actor: as a young boy, he was chosen to perform for a school play. It was the first time the adults were stopping their continuous mumbling to pay attention to what he had to say. And he loved it.

Don’t we all need a stage to perform our play, choose the actors and attract the public’s attention? And if my blog is my stage, what do I have to say?

Am I capable to channel feelings, to touch those I like and love? Have my relationships become more profound? Do I know myself better? Have I taken more risks for true love?

I realize how important it is to me to channel feelings on a daily basis.

Have I become more confident in writing? Because you know, I had been discouraged by some people in my profession who criticized my writing style. And this kind of thing blocked me. It has taken away some of the pleasure. Some 🙂

In this respect I haven’t become more productive since I started bloging. Apart from my daily post, my daily chat with you, dear May.

No, I am not going to answer all these questions now. But I will reflect on them.

The difference is that writing a daily post has been a real source of pleasure!

Oh, and here is the theater lobby where we had a drink just after the event 🙂


April 21- success stories

April hello again,

My hometown challenge continues. I have avoided serious work and spent time walking around and chatting with former neighbors who happened to be at my favorite local café.

I am tempted to lie when I am asked about what I do: to present an idealized picture of my life in Paris: did I make it?

After all, I don’t owe the truth to everybody I meet.

But I owe the truth to myself.

What is success to me?

I would have liked to live from what I love to do: writing, and event organizing for example.

And to share my life with people who can connect and co-create with me.

Is the Platform the place for that? It is a school, where I learnt a lot –or at least so I think –  on human beings, relationships, diplomacy. I also have a chance to meet with international artists.

Do I live from what I do? No

Do I connect with people in similar wave length?

There have been waves: In this period, more than I did in the past.

Writing a blog helps me to be clearer about my objectives.

I see that I need to go towards other people with suggestions.

Appreciate what I am and what I am becoming. Accept my drives and desires.

My parents suggested that I find something closer to my hometown. In a smaller structure. Of course, it is not the first time they say that.

Should I go for something smaller close to my hometown or something bigger in another country?

Or strengthen the relationships I have in Paris? And at the same time develop an international network that will allow me to be flexible?

Because I love Paris…

April 13- Progress

Dear Sunday April,

what would you say about this week? Is there progress?

Last week we agreed that I have nourished limiting beliefs concerning love and work. Have I done anything to replace them with positive ones?

No 1 limiting belief: love is alienating. If you want freedom you have to do without.

What is my counter-argument? I can love other people in an empowering way: my friends, for example. I could try it for my partner. There must exist other individuals who are capable of the same thing!

No 2 limiting belief: working with others can be alienating because they try to dominate you. If you want freedom, you stay away from powerful dominating individuals.

Any objections? Yes, I can become an example of an open, empowering person for my associates; someone who can respect and value their point of view. If I can do it, someone else is capable of it too. I just need to be more trusting and meet influential people with concrete suggestions.

Any progress this week? Any actions?

Well, concerning work, there has been huge progress: I thought of a strategy and contacted influential people in my field who responded in an encouraging way. (They expect me of course to furnish some evidence).

And love? I have invited N to my summer event and tried to be less defensive than usually.
I have also encouraged D to visit me during Easter holidays.

Ok, you might object, but is progress just a question of quantity? Although some form of interaction is important, is there a qualitative difference?

Well yes, in realizing that I am defensive, sometimes, especially with people I find attractive, and I don’t need to. Afraid that my way of life is different, and that it might be rejected.

But everybody is different in a way.

Am I open and accepting towards others who don’t have the same opinions and views?



April 6: what to transform from

Hello April,

here I am again! Sundays are for me days for introspection, since my rhythm changes, compared to the rest of the week.

Actually it has been a week since I started this blog-journal, in order to transform myself and achieve my objectives:

1. Find and be found by True Love

2. Get a “real” job in my field: one I can live from, and be abundant.

But what is my starting point?

I realize there are two beliefs that have been blocking me until now:

a. a belief that love is alienating, and if you have it, you lose your freedom and way to self-fulfillment

b. the idea that success is alienating, because in order to succeed you “sell your soul to the devil”, in other words, you have to give up your freedom, creativity, and even wild side

These beliefs have not served me very well; do I need to say why? Realizing this is a first step to change them 🙂

Hey, I am glad I got that!