February 24- Success on a silver platter

February,

could you and March put together a miracle for me?

Or should I do everything myself? Come on! I need an extra lucky configuration where a lot of people collaborate with me and/or are particularly favorable to my artistic project and myself. By March 12.

I need loads of inspiration and the motivation to ask for help in an enthusiastic way – this has not been my strongest point until now.

Let’s say that I would prefer everything handed to me on a silver platter.

“Here you are April: do you need millions of euros, the best working conditions, an office with a view to the river, to make your dream reality?

How about a foot massage?

Or a group of cheerleaders following you around in order to encourage you? “Go for it April, Yes you can! ”

Or/and a powerful mentor who says “this is IT”!

Yes, I would love all these and more. But the first step might be to cheer myself up and believe it is possible to deliver in this deadline.

After all, I need to try in order to see 🙂

https://www.google.com/search?q=hand+opportunities+on+a+silver+platter&source=lnms&tbm

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February 21- Speaking up your mind

Dear Feb,

I hope you don’t mind this form of intimacy, February. You have been around for a while, so it feels like this is the moment to have a conversation with you: on speaking up my mind. No, I don’t mean I have been lying to you until now. Don’t be susceptible!

What I mean is, you have been watching me interacting with people, so you will understand.

Let’s say we go out for a drink, coffee, or herbal tea. We engage into a conversation, and then you say something I don’t like. It might be on purpose or not. I find it hurtful, in any case. So, how do I react? Do I answer back? Tell you, wait a second here, … ?

It could be a casual friendly relationship, a flirt, it could be an intimate relationship, and this is more tricky.

What I do, personally, is that I might think:  “I don’t like what you say, but I’d rather not tell you directly, I don’t want an argument”. 

But still, I will not feel ok, and this will affect our relationship, because I might withdraw.

So is it better to speak up my mind?

If one person for example starts criticizing something I like, let’s say, blogging, or being a Parisian café fun, …

Finally, YES, I think it is better. It is good to say: “you are trespassing here, darling. I don’t like what you do to my personal garden, that I nurture with care and love”.

If I don’t, I might be an indifferent gardener. And this is not a basis for any kind of healthy relationship.

So, dear, you don’t have to like my habits, approve of my behavior or life-style.

But if you want to be friends, respect our difference and love what you don’t understand.

http://www.sacredcirclecreativelife.com/uncategorized/speak-up/

 

 

February 13- A project as a patchwork of past experiences

Dear February, alias Valentine,

I did some serious work today, but I had to find tricks to motivate myself: read inspirational blogs, have coffee, chocolate, listen to the music. Working alone from home can be challenging.

Home alone. With my thoughts. Some go in the right direction, others don’t.

I might look around from time to time, let my mind wander. I might doubt about myself and the quality of my work. What will the others think of it?

There is a deadline for my funding submission on March 13. Before, I need to pull myself together and unite a team that would be unbeatable! A team that could be invited to Beaubourg for an exhibition!

One of my challenges is that I might need to ask for help H, my first love. H, who hurt me a lot. He was an aspiring artist at the time. He is a producer now. We met again at an exhibition, and he hinted that he could give me a hand.

Why run into the same people? Isn’t there anyone else I can ask?

Actually I did, I have asked half a dozen.

And you need to understand that in the artistic world, we are like a family. Or better, a mafia family. It’s a small world. You might quarrel with your parents, or siblings. They might hurt you. You go away and decide not to talk to them again. And then something happens, a marriage, a family dinner and you have to meet them again.

The only way to completely change circle is to change your field. Or change country.

If I stay in Paris, I need to find a way to embrace my past, and feel cool about it.

I need to embrace the difficult moments and love all the inspiring, creative thoughts I had.

And upgrade them into something better.

Like a patchwork 🙂

http://quiltinspiration.blogspot.fr/2014/01/free-pattern-day-hearts-and-valentines.html

February 12b- Another Parisian mystery with Victor Legris

Dear February,

Victor is having a hard time dating an independent woman. Victor Legris, the Parisian detective. I just finished the third book of the series. And I know who the murderer is. In terms of psychology, the third book seems to me more interesting than the first one. Or is it that I become familiar with the ambiance? Once you know the people, they grow on you. Even imaginary characters.

But Victor’s love life seems more important to me. He met Tasha in book no 1. He was following her around and finally kissed her at the third part of the book. When the mystery ended, they were a couple.

I don’t know what happened in book no 2.

But I found them again together in book no 3, and the passion seems to be well and alive. Victor is jealous because Tasha doesn’t want to marry him, neither live with him. She has male friends who flirt with her, and is very passionate about other topics than Victor, p.ex. her art.

How does he cope? He resolves murder cases.

But seriously, he seems to have evolved from a relationship perspective, because he found a balance between his insecurities, his will for control and his passion. From this point of view, he is an ideal man 🙂

How about Tasha? We learn less about her, and her inner struggles, but she appears to me a little bit insecure too …

It is so important to learn from experience and evolve… I would also like to evolve as a character.

And as a writer 🙂

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http://www.fantasticfiction.co.uk/i/claude-izner/montmartre-investigation.htm

February 12: Over 1000 followers: thank you so much dear friends!

Dear February,

my blog has over 1000 followers! Isn’t this a reason for a celebration?! It all started on April 2014. Thank you dear friends, passers-by, curious, or forgetful to disengage fellow blogers! And thank you WordPress and all the people who work on this platform that make it possible to have a tangible sign of progress with our blogs!!!

Ok, now, don’t tell me, February, I understand there aren’t 1000 people getting up in the morning with the first thought: what has April written today? I want to know, I am dying to read her post! And so much the better they have other important things in their life! Yes, they could have found something interesting and then forgotten to take another look for several months. I just try not to get the “grosse tête”, meaning keeping my foot on the ground.

But still, I thank you all, those who took a look and continued your way, those who smiled because you read something, those who recognized something from yourself.

Especially, and wholeheartedly, I thank those who with your comments, have become friends and made me feel part of a wonderful community!

Thank you for providing a mirror that is helping me reflect on life. Blogging has been to me like the message in a bottle, that I release, in a sea of questions and wishes. Some people open it and give me a feedback!

So, celebration day: I promise to wear something nice, fix my hair and throw a party.

A real, or a virtual one 🙂

1,000 Follows!

Congratulations on getting 1,000 total follows onapril4june6: A journal of self-tranformation!

 

February 11- Don’t cry over spilt coffee, get another one :-)

Hello again February,

here I am after having spilt my coffee on my bag- but ok, no big deal; just a sign that I had enough caffeine on my system and my bag needs some -now you see the reason I was searching for a black one 😉

The garçon of the café was adorable coming to help me clean up the mess.

Sorry what did you say? How is the project going? Great, I should finish this step today. It is so nice to be out in the winter sun, there is a feeling of spring around, dogs are happy, people of all ages walk around. At least those who don’t have to be in their office the moment we speak.

And I remembered this song for some self encouragement that I dedicate to all those who work and play looking for their own path and hoping that somehow, we will all meet there.

In the winter sun.

February 10- Victor Legris is back: The Montmartre Investigation

Hello February,

Victor is back, no, I am not talking about my date, but Victor Legris, the Parisian detective-librarian. At the end of the 19th century.

The friends who offered me the “Murder on the Eiffel Tower“, had also gifted me his next two adventures, but “hélas”, as we say in France, I can’t find the second one. So I start reading the third, also translated in english under the title: “The Montmartre investigation“.

Now, as I have mentioned, I decided to read the books I have been offered now and then, which, for some reason, I have neglected. As I want to put some order into my place, taking care of these books is one of the first things to do.

So, here we are again, in the Paris of the “Moulin Rouge”, at another “hot spot” of the city, Montmartre. The novel starts with a scene at a boarding school, where young ladies of a certain social standing are supposed to get some education.

But, but, outside, there are big bad wolves, such as Gaston, the 20 year-old predator, who only has sex in his mind, and a fate worse than death for them: disgrace. He is bringing Elisa, one of the students, in a very delicate situation: she abandons herself to him, after the shock of  witnessing a train accident.

And Victor in all this? Where is he? Shouldn’t he jump in and save the damsel’s honour?

Patience! This is just the first chapter, and the link with Victor for the time-being, is Iris, Elisa’s friend who is also the god-daughter of Mr. Mori, Victor’s adopted father.

Anyway, things don’t look good for Elisa for the moment, and women in general.

It is a relief to live in the 21st century somehow…

http://www.amazon.fr/The-Montmartre-Investigation-Victor-Mystery-ebook/dp/B003OUXE6A

February 9- From a bumpy to a dynamic mood

Hello February,

have a nice week! On my side, I started with a bumpy mood: is it because I need to blow my nose every once in a while, or that I couldn’t work on my favorite café because of a demonstration or ?

I don’t know.

Anyway, I will stop complaining because of my imaginary difficulties. It is just the feeling that my concentration was running away from me. My strategy for the last two weeks has been to do what is the most important thing, and let everything else be.

But in this way, I started stressing and expecting too much from my goal no 1.

So, what is the solution?

Eat a profiterol with chocolate? Ok for today, and yesterday, but I this could become a backlash.

Relax? Instead of feeling guilty that I haven’t answered emails and contacted colleagues with all sorts of demands, I can say, guys, first things first. I have to start taking care of me, finding my balance, and then, I will get back to earth and to you.

 

Right now I am busy staring at the Eiffel Tower. Reading my second favorite book.

 

Or, I will put this important task into the bigger picture: like this is a great job, but because I want to work in this huge project that involves a lot of actions. So this is just one of them.

 

 

February 6- Parisian Mystery and the power of love

Dear February,

so now I know who the murderer is. I got to the last chapter, and even read his confession and motives. The murderer isn’t Victor Legris. Victor is actually the detective. No, the authors didn’t want to confuse us that much.

Of course I am not going to tell you! I wouldn’t ruin it for you in case you decide to read it. It is a great novel if you want to learn about life in Paris at the end of the 19th century. It’s the kind of historical mystery that creates the ambiance of a whole period with such detail that you see a film unfolding as you read.

One funny detail: Victor is entering a café where the best Impressionist painters exchange their paintings for food and drinks. The café owner is trying to sell Victor a Van Gogh for peanuts, and he praises his work. But Victor doesn’t even see the painting! All he cares about is a mediocre sculpture of Tasha, the girl he is obsessed with.

Is love blind?

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February 5- Parisian Mysteries no 3

Hello February,

how many coffees could you drink so that you concentrate without getting nervous? I think that my personal record is 4. And I did concentrate. My project should finish by the end of the week.

What do you mean you don’t care? All you want to know is if Victor Legris is drinking coffee? So now you can only concentrate on Victor’s affaires?

Ok, just because I want your help with Saint Valentine, I will tell you.

Victor prefers tea, because he has been raised in England. And he also drinks alcohol every time he goes to the café. I completely understand him, after all, he is in the middle of a crisis. Either the man who raised him is a murderer or the woman he is falling in love with, Tasha. If you drink coffee in this situation, your nerves get in an impossible state. A cognac might do better.

So, Victor is an intellectual librarian and a part-time journalist, writing the literary column at the “Passe-Partout” journal. He is also a self-appointed detective. Because suspecting people you care about, is motivation enough to start an investigation.

All this to tell you that he hasn’t even kissed Tasha until chapter 9, and there are 14 chapters as a whole. Victor is following her, he is jealous of men who could be potential lovers, in his imagination. She is an artist, a free spirit, and she has a lot of friends among the talented Impressionists in Paris.

Would it be more simple to ask her out?

After all, does he care for Tasha because he suspects her, or he suspects he because he cares for her?

Is he afraid of relationships and he needs to find some huge obstacle between them?

What do you think?