April 23, 2016: Post day 10- Balance work and life :-)

Hello there April,

today I thought I should work, this is a great change. If Saturday is here for us to rest, I thought I could work on a Saturday, and rest on a Monday. How about that?

There is a plan of a new book I look forward to finish, because I am getting to the South of France next week. I would feel better to reach this mille stone before I go.

So instead of going to Camden market for breakfast, as some friends have suggested, I just did my laundry in the morning and went to our working space -to put together my ideas.

Not having heard a declaration of love last night -despite full moon and all- might have induced me to call up some friends and I did.

But again, how did I end up there? Moving to a new city requires so many things to do, and I have focused on my work: writing, on the one hand, and getting involved to some artistic event organization, to take place mostly in France.

And yes, apart from occasional contact with artists on the move, I didn’t make a lot of friends. So I ended up hanging around with this Hungarian who was always proposing to go to exhibitions, dinners and to walk around London. To whom I was not attracted. But I though he was because he was seeking my company so much. We spent all our weekends together for the last 2 months. But apparently, this sort of ‘security’ in the big city, is ok, but not enough for any of us.

So I decided to get in touch with some Facebook friends who must be in town also. I will see a French friend tomorrow morning. We have been out of touch for a few years because she was in South America, and now she found herself in London with her new family.

I really look forward to meeting her!

April 22, 2016: Post day 9- Love misunderstanding

Hello April,

I am going through the phase, let’s try a small change every day, so I thought I could open up to this man who seemed to pursue me for the last two months.

You want to know what happened?

He told me it was a misunderstanding and he sees me as a friend.

I admit this is the first time it happens to me. Because I am shy and if I am not sure, I don’t start a conversation. And then, there are cases where there is no doubt about the kind of interest the other person has.

But in this case, there was someone with whom I spent all my weekends doing all sorts of things. He was asking me with insistence about my personal life and he was telling me I should finally decide. Not to mention that he was putting himself out there as someone available.

I don’t know a lot of people in London, so I enjoyed having someone to talk to. I was not attracted to him as a man. I usually have strong feelings for someone from the start. But it has happened to me to fall in love “blindly” and then discover my prince was a frog.

So I tried to persuade myself that I should give it a chance.

When he told me I got it all wrong, I felt two things.

a. relief, that I didn’t have to push myself

b. my ego was hurt. Is it possible that he has not been influenced by my fatal attraction?

c. where is this thing called love?

Now, relief is very important. It is like not having to eat something you dislike because it is supposed to be good for your health. And then you read an article where a new study reveals it is the opposite. So you can forget about it.

Then, I realize I would like someone to love;

Maybe if I don’t spent all my free time with my friend I could get to know new people.

So, I guess feelings are important and I could also listen to them 🙂

 

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