January 13, 2016: Looking to the past for inspiration

Hello dear fresh January,

for resolutions to be more inspired, I dived into my old diaries, to see what I really liked and wanted at the time. I am a journal, diary addict since I were 8 years old. Not that I have been writing every day, but the love affair with words goes back to my childhood.

What did I find out? I wanted to be a writer very early in life, as an adolescent trying to send my first novels to some kind of literary competition. But I suffered from lack of confidence. Was I talented enough? Was this wish out of reach?

Why would that be? A wish, a desire, if strong, is enough in itself.

I also felt kind of imprisoned at school, following hours of boring, to me, classes, waiting for the moment to escape.

And a difficulty to find a like-minded community in the cercle of my classmates and family.

But then, this is what made me kick the road and get to Paris, or London, among other places.

Did I find everything I was looking for?

I was looking more for a fresh place to co-create.

But after all, this place of non-censure, love and acceptance, is within ourself.

So, new resolutions will take into consideration the love for freedom, new experiences, love and connexion, and most of all, sharing the worlds of imagination with other human beings!

I will see what Charles Bukowski has to say on the question…

so you want to be a writer? by Charles Bukowski