Dear February, alias Valentine,
I did some serious work today, but I had to find tricks to motivate myself: read inspirational blogs, have coffee, chocolate, listen to the music. Working alone from home can be challenging.
Home alone. With my thoughts. Some go in the right direction, others don’t.
I might look around from time to time, let my mind wander. I might doubt about myself and the quality of my work. What will the others think of it?
There is a deadline for my funding submission on March 13. Before, I need to pull myself together and unite a team that would be unbeatable! A team that could be invited to Beaubourg for an exhibition!
One of my challenges is that I might need to ask for help H, my first love. H, who hurt me a lot. He was an aspiring artist at the time. He is a producer now. We met again at an exhibition, and he hinted that he could give me a hand.
Why run into the same people? Isn’t there anyone else I can ask?
Actually I did, I have asked half a dozen.
And you need to understand that in the artistic world, we are like a family. Or better, a mafia family. It’s a small world. You might quarrel with your parents, or siblings. They might hurt you. You go away and decide not to talk to them again. And then something happens, a marriage, a family dinner and you have to meet them again.
The only way to completely change circle is to change your field. Or change country.
If I stay in Paris, I need to find a way to embrace my past, and feel cool about it.
I need to embrace the difficult moments and love all the inspiring, creative thoughts I had.
And upgrade them into something better.
Like a patchwork 🙂